Why do I speak?
Spoken words silenced,
My human voice no longer heard.

Verbal communication obsolete!
Replaced by this small device
Whose buttons I now push
To spell out my thoughts and words
To deliver my now digital voice.

Emotions sent and received
Via bits and bytes
Through the cyberspace of our now wireless existence.

Uploading and downloading our virtual desires
And deleting our unwanted emotions
Like a no longer needed text.

Our need for physical human interaction
Sent with a click straight to the recycle bin
And then quickly emptied as not to be reminded
Of the reality of our own human betrayal…….

I bury these feelings
Deep in my heart
To keep my soul
From falling apart

Push the memories back
To the deepest part of my mind
To a place I hope
I will never again find

Emotions and memories
So painful to bare
But I know I will be safe
As long as they are there

I will stand tall and strong
I can not dwell on the past
I must focus on the here and now
If I want my happiness to last

I’ve come so far
And fought hard to heal
But understand I’m still a little broken
So I’m keeping real.

My heart is bleeding
And I wish you could see
The pain and sadness
You have inflicted on me

I have given my all
Everything that I am
But you clearly don't see
Or just don't give a ****

You feel I'm obligated
That it’s my duty to stay
To try and make you happy
In some sick and twisted way

Uncaring and condescending
Your words cut to the bone
You feel you are my life’s ruler
Sitting high upon your throne

But your reign over me has ended
No more torturing my soul
It’s my dignity I need to salvage
And my heart I need to console

You’re a fool to have thought
I would lie down at your feet
That I could live with the pain
That I would cower and retreat

I have gathered all my strength
Bandaged my bleeding heart
Now it’s time to say *******
And gracefully depart.

Passion and love
Flows from your fingertips
Stimulating the desires
Held within my humble being

As they trace the contours
Of my wanting body
Heat builds within my soul

Whispered words of eternal devotion
Caress my ears
Images of happiness and bliss
Dance before my mind’s eye

Your loving light
Shines bright within me
Chasing away the darkness
That has hidden my heart

Your supple flesh
Now lays bare before me
Your beauty and innocence
Now fill my expectant eyes

Gone now are the bindings
That have constricted my emotions
My torment and frustration
Finally set free

Wondrous new feelings
Inhabit this lonely vessel
That manifests into a life ready to be lived
And a glorious love yet to be shared

It came inside
So silent and stealthy
Not caring if I was Sick
Or totally healthy

It hid inside
Unnoticed and unseen
As if it were a ghost
Malevolent and mean

Waiting to attack
And wreak havoc in me
Destroying my body’s defenses
Without remorse or pity

It spread like the plague
Infecting all in its path
Spreading its sickness
In the wake of its wrath

My body is now ill
But I'll not find a cure
From this blackness within
It’s a losing battle for sure

I don’t understand
Guess I’ll never know the answer
Why so many of us need to be cursed
By this evil called CANCER.

My love please don’t leave
Don’t stray from my side
The hurt it would bring
I would be unable to hide

The pain would be deep
And the longing would ache
One single day without you
My heart couldn’t take

Please let it be so
And let it be now
To be able to look into your eyes
Or feel your presence somehow

If this is but a dream
Then please let me wake
The moments without you
I feel my sanity starting break

Please return to me now
So I can again be whole
So that I may ease the pain
That is filling my soul

Another day without you
I really can’t bear
So next time you try and leave
I will just tie you to the chair