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Mar 2020 · 62
Respite: Sleep
Emmett Mar 2020
Goodnight
Sleep tight
I wish I will, I hope I might
leave tomorrow better then tonight
Sleep well loves
I hope your day is full of joy and if not that’s ok.
You are loved.
Mar 2020 · 86
Gargling Salt Water
Emmett Mar 2020
Fleeing to a flood of drowning tears
That’s what a day feels like my loves, my dears
Mar 2020 · 62
Why Numb?
Emmett Mar 2020
Numbness
to cry and go unheard
what a strange idea
unheard by your own little mind-bird

Numbness
A feeling so complete
It removes all competition
and your eyes from the heat

Numbness
Yes it really is quite jealous
A nasty quiet *****
unfortunately for you, it's really just the preface
Mar 2020 · 94
Only in my mind
Emmett Mar 2020
come on tomorrow
peak through my window
don't leave me to die

come on tomorrow
magic land of my mind
loosen the noose surrounding my mind

I don't ask for much
tomorrow
just tuck me into bed tonight
enfold me in your arms
tomorrow
then maybe all my tears will run dry

tomorrow broke my heart
I was never enough for you
for you never knocked on my door

it seems like you come to me
every sunrise and morning
but it’s only today

but I don’t ask for much
tomorrow
please tuck me into bed tonight
enfold me in your arms
tomorrow
maybe then all my tears will run dry

come on tomorrow
come on tomorrow

today is today
I’m on the bathroom floor
if you could see me maybe you would die too

why’d you leave me tomorrow?

at least your in my mind
Mar 2020 · 88
Drops of Love
Emmett Mar 2020
Good morning love
Wake up heart
It’s time to give this day a fine start

Good morning sun
Wake up lungs
It’s time to sing some more songs unsung

Good morning
Wake up
It’s time to know that I love you

From: me
To: me and everyone else who needs or want a little more loving too
Mar 2020 · 275
Goodnight You and I and we
Emmett Mar 2020
Goodnight singer
Goodnight sigher
Yes even you, you little lier

Goodnight faller
Goodnight baller
Yes even you who wants to be a little taller

Goodnight lover
Goodnight bluffer
Yes even you who wants to be a little tougher

Goodnight Mother
Goodnight brother
Yes even you, you little truther

I love you all equally
and hope you all sleep easily
Yes truther is a real word and yes it does rhyme with brother ❤❤
Mar 2020 · 73
I?
Emmett Mar 2020
I?
Don't push me down
Don't bottle me up
If you do then you'll just get more clogged up

Don't let me sing you to sleep at night
Don't meet me in the rain
All that will lead to is more unending pain

Don't push me away during the day
Only to hold me close at night
That will lead to an ever perpetuating fight

It's ok to let me touch your face
You can let me soothe the burns of bitter ache
I'll be there when no one else will while they take and take and take

I'm no fiend to guard against
Nor darkish dankish cavern to avoid
No no no if you ever ask me to hold you, why I'll be there, overjoyed
Mar 2020 · 117
cry
Emmett Mar 2020
cry
it's ok to cry
i'll be there by your side

~ love
Emmett Mar 2020
Have you ever had a question you wanted answered?
Or a nagging little thought you ask your self but you leave it unheard?

You know that little unsettled feeling that you're missing something just beyond the scope of your mind?
Or the little want of something felt but so far gone unrecognized?

Have you ever wondered if you're truly who you're meant to be?
Or is there something just a little off with me?

Then you want to tell a friend, but don't know how they'll react?
Except you know they will love you through everything and it's just you who is scared of who you're meant to be.

Only that's not how it feels. You think you're going to be lost forever in their eyes.
Or drowned in questions that you haven't answered for yourself.

But then you think how awesome it would be for them to know because then you could finally have someone you could talk to...
Mar 2020 · 84
And Yet
Emmett Mar 2020
An audience applause
Loved for all your flaws
And puppies little paws

A good workout
look and breath out
A new PR with all that clout

A competition won
A moment alone with the sun

Laughing crying on the floor
A deep conversation where you're never ignored

This is life
both bad and good
goodnight my love
Mar 2020 · 85
Feelings You Say... Hmmm
Emmett Mar 2020
What does it mean to feel?

A punch to the jaw
An unrung call
A leap from a building way too tall

Crashing and falling
Aching and sawing
Naked poring eyes all done with the aching and balling

leaping, flying, falling
dying, crying, crawling
Mar 2020 · 58
Why Paper? Why Ink?
Emmett Mar 2020
Why do I write?

So one can feel, hear and catch my plight?

No no no you see

I do not want you with the bees.

I want you to laugh along with me.

I do not write to please you or me.

These texts are not some sacred scroll.

I simply write to fulfill my soul.
Mar 2020 · 106
What life?
Emmett Mar 2020
Ahh life oh momentary beauty.
Ahh life you fleeting joy
Forever Unfulfillment
Mar 2020 · 43
My little light
Emmett Mar 2020
sleep well
sleep tight, my little light

sleep joy
sleep laughter, and kindness ever after

sleep you
sleep me, sleep all of us wes.

If you've forgotten this today remember you are not alone.

I love you. Someone loves you. WE LOVE YOU.... so much

With joyous love,
Me
Mar 2020 · 196
What Tonight?
Emmett Mar 2020
What am I feeling tonight?
Do you know those days where everything is normal or worse until one moment?
Then in that moment, a galaxy of tears flood your gates. Or all of a sudden clouds of joy flutter into your heart.
But you aren't sure if that one moment is enough to make today a bad or good day.
That was my day.
I danced in laughter and joy
and spinning chairs mixed in between StarWars quotes and silly songs
because our connection was bad.

Today was a good day
Mar 2020 · 53
Sleep Well, Heart Beat
Emmett Mar 2020
To me and you and even Winnie The Pooh,

Goodnight Loves. You are enough
Goodnight Loves. You, no small stuff

Goodnight Beauties. You are great
Goodnight Beauties. Know you are no deadweight

Goodnight Joy Fillers. You're pretty slick
Goodnight Joy Fillers. Yes you're snazzedelic

I love you. You are loved

~ Love me
Emmett Mar 2020
Last night I rang the sun
Do you want to know what I heard?
Life is ******* pain, aching hurt, and tears run dry it is true...
But there is so much more

Last night I rang the sun
And it replied
Life is spacious joy, night-sky contentment, and cuddle filled love
Remember always cherish what you have

Last night I rang my soul
I wish it was as forthcoming as the sun
All I hear from myself is the echos of the past and the hopes of the future
But these aren't me, but I was and could be

Last night I rang my soul
I'm waiting for a reply
While I wait I'll smile and know that life with many questions unanswered and answers now questioned is one well-lived

So, though I asked the sun and it replied
I think I'll sleep and think and wait now till my own answer comes by
Mar 2020 · 56
Never Tomorrow
Emmett Mar 2020
Alright,
Goodnight

I've said more than my part
And now it's time for me to depart

Sleep well and sleep peacefully
and if not then at least lay there easily

Knowing that it will all be ok
You'll be there to see another, brighter day
Emmett Mar 2020
It starts under the stars.
And laughing in cars.

Late at night we conversed and cried.
That was the difference of you and I.

Whenever we'd talk my smile spread wide.
Then you departed and my hopes have all died.

Buried in what I want to become.
To hide the truth that I am some ****.

Hiding from the truth of what we are.
Now I'm pulled from the dark and I say "please put me back in the jar."

I was doing so well.
In fact, quite swell.

Now...

Let me take you in time to a place long ago.
Where I danced and I partied and was there for a show.

I was so young and naive I thought the world could be played.
Now it's just me, my emotions and this ****** parade.

How to be best friends with someone you can never see?
The question I ask is "can it be?"

To encase one's heart in friendship and love all one needs is one simple thing.
Time spent together, laughter and joy. But oh the sting that that little thing brings.

Because although I would love to spend each day your friend in tow.
Laughing and crying and learning things new things to know.

I can't and won't and will never be allowed
to sing and to dance and say my feelings out loud.

I've given up the hope of talking to you.
You see that's the best I can ever do.

So I fake cool laughs and bright smiles.
Plastered on faces to hide that I've wild.

Now it's gone and I'm scared it's forever
You cried and said that you would never.
but...

I'm scared.
Emmett Mar 2020
Emmett,

Are you ok? Are you decent? Are you adequate? Are you enough? Are you sad? Are you crying? Are you happy? Are you loved? Do you love? Are you warm? Are you cold? Are you tired?

It’s ok. You’re ok. You’re enough. You’re wanted. You’re adequate. You are happy. You’re loved. You loved once. You’re warm. A little. That’s ok. We love you. I love you.

~ Emmett
Mar 2020 · 301
The Difference WAS
Emmett Mar 2020
The difference WAS I knew all your bad
The difference WAS I told you everything. You KNEW more about me than anyone else ever.
The difference WAS I WAS there to hold you when you WERE down. I WAS there to raise you up when you WERE on the ground
The difference WAS I cried with you
The difference WAS you WERE the first person I talked about our future with
The difference WAS I knew you WERE having trouble and weren’t in a good place and loveD (?) you anyways
The difference WAS we WERE going to brush and straighten your hair
The difference WAS we WERE going to go hot tubbing The difference WAS a fault in our stars
The difference WAS the best book ever
The difference WAS I could die laughing at my jokes and you wouldn’t think badly of me
The difference WAS you WERE going to be the first person I loveD and the first person I COULD have told that to
The difference WAS I WOULD have been there at three in the morning if you needED me
The difference WAS Pride and Prejudice
The difference WAS stegosaurus hair
The difference WAS music
The difference WAS Ted Talks
The difference WAS John Vervake
The difference WAS spur of the moment star gazing
The difference WAS spiders in your hair
The difference WAS you WERE my hand coolers and I WAS your hand warmers
The difference WAS black licorice
The difference WAS I WAS there when you relapsed The difference WAS you hated dance monkey
The difference WAS give me and _ give me a _ give me a _ give me a _ go _!
The difference WAS I wrote four songs and five poems for you in a month because I thought you careD and I DIDN’T care about you not being in a good place. We WOULD have gotten through it together
The difference WAS you said you WERE scared to lose me
The difference WAS I fell asleep with you every night
The difference WAS Guichi spelled g-u-I-c-h-I
The difference WAS Trashcanpaul
The difference WAS your terrible mic voice
The difference WAS dum dum dum diabetes
The difference WAS you showed me your favorite booth at acoustic
The difference WAS I said that I COULD love you and you said you COULD love me too
The difference WAS moth memes
The difference WAS street lamps
The difference WAS bless me
The difference WAS scrunching
The difference WAS you asked me to be there and I said yes and you said no
The difference WAS we WERE going to watch Mamma Mia The difference WAS laughing at the stupid things
The difference WAS you were going to be my date to the FLC dance if you said yes
The difference WAS that you thought
The difference WAS you thought and shared rawly
The difference WAS we WERE going to watch Nacho Libre
The difference WAS you WERE the first person I stayed up to six am for
The difference WAS we read together
The difference WAS we WERE going to write a chipotle and The Best Book Ever song together
The difference WAS Tacos by Tyler
The difference WAS Lemons at three
The difference WAS Elsa Roonie Fiona
The difference WAS stars on an empty night
The difference WAS dad jokes
The difference WAS Jeremy the book
The difference WAS you WERE my first real kiss
The difference WAS I WOULD have been there through the thick and thin
The difference WAS, WAS that a thinking sigh?
The difference WAS I reached out to Lillianna to email you
The difference WAS you shared your music with me
The difference WAS Holding on to you
The difference WAS our handshake
The difference WAS that hug after acoustic that Saturday night
The difference WAS your eyes moved too fast
The difference WAS Ninja The difference WAS “how lucky am?”
The difference WAS _
silence
The difference WAS I only got to say goodnight to you twice... and never again
The difference WAS you WOULD smile and bite your tongue
The difference WAS what are you thinking
The difference WAS what are you feeling
The difference WAS running
The difference WAS I WAS going to bring you to YOU
The difference WAS we WERE going to go stand up paddleboarding on cedar lake
The difference WAS we WERE going to canoe into the sunrise
The difference WAS we WERE going to watch the sunrise and the sunset on the same day
The difference WAS we WERE going to layout on your lawn and watch the stars
The difference WAS I WAS going to look at your patio NEXT time I came over 
The difference WAS I trustED you. TrustED you enough to not leave. You WERE always the one with the fear of me leaving you. I wonder if you ever knew it was you, not me, saying goodbye (correction: leaving. No one ever says goodbye to someone they want to see again)
The difference WAS you said you didn’t want to get into anything that wouldn’t last... and yet... you are the one ending...
The difference WAS you smelled amazing
The difference WAS you HAD my sweatshirt
The difference WAS you never watched movies
The difference WAS you told me even though you WERE scared to
The difference WAS I filled a toilet full of tissues writing this because I couldn’t stop crying
The difference WAS I made you a bracelet
The difference WAS you WERE the only person that I actually talked to anymore
The difference WAS I made short cuts for emojis in my phone... for you
The difference WAS watching The Office clips
The difference WAS you read all my bad writing
The difference WAS I drove 30 minutes... to kiss you
The difference WAS hello... _
The difference WAS you’re weird aha
The difference WAS I showed you my journal
The difference WAS I WAS there when you called me crying
The difference WAS talking about religion
The difference WAS talking deeply
The difference WAS you WERE the first person that I was truly scared for
The difference WAS the plans we made
The difference WAS you grabED my phone off the techno table
The difference WAS we WERE going to get Ethiopian food
The difference WAS dying of laughter because of Ron Swanson
The difference WAS I USED to be able to be anyone I wantED around you
The difference WAS we WERE going to watch Les Mis in three minutes
The difference WAS that photoshoot
The difference WAS you WERE my first milkshake
The difference WAS I KNEW you weren’t all right, but I was alright with that.. with you
The difference WAS you WERE the first person I cried with and not for, but I HAD you then... NOW YOU ARE JUST ANOTHER PERSON WHO BROKE MY HEART. YOU, THE UNIQUE ONE, BROKE MY HEART WITH THE SAME BULLSHIRT (you won’t get that because you haven’t seen The Good Place) THAT EVERY OTHER PERSON HAS GIVEN ME... that every... other... person has said...

The difference WAS you WERE you

I’m sorry that was me being irrationally angry Goodbye... and thanks for all the fish (you won’t get that either because you haven’t read hitchhikers guide to the galaxy). You were my Hazel Grace. Until now I would never have made that comparison, but now it seems aptly fitting. Yuppers... goodbye
Emmett Mar 2020
I don’t want that.

I want the person that I stay up until 12:30 with on the phone…
I want that because to that person I could share. To that person, I could be myself. To that person, I could ask “how long are my eyelashes do you think?”, “what do you think toenail clippings smell like?” and “what are you feeling?” That’s the person I want.
I want the friend who I meet up with and talk to for hours without ever getting bored.
I want the friend who I can sit in silence with and not worry about if they are going to say goodbye because they have dinner to eat, a home to get to, or another joke to laugh at.
I want the person who texts me dad jokes, even though they call them corny because I am feeling down.
I want the person that tells me that I deserve all the dad jokes in the world to make me laugh.
I want that person that trusts me enough to call me when they are in pain.
I want the person that cried for thirty minutes, said nothing and hung up.
I want the person I could be there for.
I want the person that I knew exactly what to say in order to ask if they were alright.
I want the person that sits on the phone for hours playing their favorite music and saying nothing.
I want the person that sings and plays guitar for me until I fall asleep.
I want the friend that I sing lullabies to only it doesn’t help them fall asleep and they say goodbye anyways.
I want the friend who I can share a milkshake with.
I want the one who I can sit, listen to music, watch the stars, and not say a word nor touch a limb, and yet feel so comfortable and happy with.
I want the person that is my stars without ever touching.
I want the person that gets frustrated with me because I don’t understand their side of the argument, but they continue to try and explain it, so I understand, over and over.
I want the person that I used to be able to talk to without ever feeling rushed.
I want the person who I could tell the whole story to.
I want the person that is willing to sit on the phone for an hour saying “ok” while I tell my thoughts.
I want the person that will say I’m wrong.
I want the person that will tell me what they are thinking no matter what.
I want the person that isn’t afraid to be there for me.
I want the person that sacrifices sleep to talk to me because it’s “worth it.”
I want the person who holds me when I’m sobbing.
I want the person that lets me hold them when they cry.
I want laughing, crying and full stories on Monday.
I want philosophy and opening up on Thursday.
I want crying on Saturday.


I don’t know if I can have that though…


I miss them when I shouldn’t... When I’m talking to them I remember when I could talk and be heard for myself, my whole self, my whole story, or my whole silence.

Then, I had that silence to fill or be left empty. Now it’s always empty…. I remember when I was there to help them through the thick and the thin. I know it’s not fully their decision, but I wonder if they will ever let me back in, let me give the punch line, finish the story, cry on their shoulder, or laugh at me laughing at my jokes again…


You said, “please ease my fear.” How? Tell me how and I will… I never want you in pain. But, how when I’m so scared?


They left before the punch line...
Mar 2020 · 106
Is Fire Love Or Pain?
Emmett Mar 2020
Each moment goes past in a series of memories unfolded not without but within me. You see

A container for the memories of what we could be. When I would have told you that this burn is an evergreen would you run or flee... To me.

The burn oh evergreen. Bursting
Inferno will you, will this roast me?
If it does would I want it to be?

A line of words brittle and broken as bones... alone. Isolated. An island of paragraphs yet to be written. I’m bitten.

And yet unsure of my status, am I lost or am I found? Am I floating through the air or pounded into the ground?

If I burn then I run the risk of having to be there endlessly. You see. I would never leave you in my independency but your parents ask me potentially to leave you be.

Then again as Tyler said those T’s uncrossed and I’s undotted could leave us in a heap 10 feet from where we departed unable to justify the cost of the fight you’re right I might.

But no. If I am cast into the pit of fire and flames and maimed I could never return. Unburn relieve myself from this pain and gain or lose and loosen the noose surrounding me. Slowly emptying the space between me and me. Or more accurately the space between me and you. Eventually this could be the death of me or who I was meant to be.

In bed with a liar that I could never trust. I never want this ****** upon me because each moment, each life, each crying embrace. Laced in a web of your encased place I would never know if it was really beau and boe or just another fancy way of saying I need help and you’re the only way I can be who I’m meant to be.
Mar 2020 · 96
Best Friends Sister
Emmett Mar 2020
Best friends sister,

She said you should,
And that's how it began.
She shared I would,
And that's how I got mad.
That night I took a break,
And decided to forgive
My best friends sister who made this all begin.
I rampaged and I roared,
I wrote and destroyed.
Then, when it was over,
I decided to forgive.

I hope that she believes me,
When I said to her,
That I have forgiven,
plus another third.
I say, an action, does not define you,
you are still the same
Oh, best friends sister you are still, as you came.

I hope within this process of forgiveness,
You have forgiven yourself,
And not go on blaming for an unselfish self.

I wish as well that you,
Will take my apology for my quick words and harsh phrases.

So, I hope this shows as proof,
That you have been forgiven for the mistake you made,
And the first roll you played,
In our kindling flame.

Asking:

I sit within the air,
As I decide what to say,
To my girlfriend to be
And how to voice my apology.

There goes my note,
It is afloat,
We shall see what her answer will be.

We arrive at our rental house,
She asks to meet in the place where we last parted.

Cards:

As we sit my traveling companion,
Silence, decides to join us.
I think the room may be heating up from our feeble attempts to talk.
Finally she banishes him with a single phrase,
"Would you like to play cards?"
I am thankful for her bravery to start,
Even if it is a game of solitaire.

Girlfriend:

She says we should begin to talk,
My mind goes blank.
And my world is changed in one moment,
In one word,
In one girl.
She wonders if we should make it public,
It takes me a moment to remember all that has happened,
And all that has begun.
I think of nothing...

Appreciation:

She says that she is sorry
For not showing appreciation for all that I  have done for her.
I am astonished,
She has done more for me than I could ever dream of doing it for her.
She asked to begin,
She asked to walk,
She asked to dance,
She wrote letters and postcards. But most of all,
She is herself,
She is _.

Beauty:

It is time to leave,
She leaves for camping in two days.
I feel forlorn as she drives away,
Her exquisite,
Beautiful,
Amazing face disappearing from view.
The face that I can never seem to recall, no matter how many times I see it.
She turns the corner and is gone.
I think that I will see her tomorrow And the day after before she disappears...

Sinking in:

Three days have passed since her monumental words,
And still every day I remember
And rediscover that she is my girlfriend.
Emmett Mar 2020
Hand prayer knot:
Our hands touch as she teaches me to make a prayer knot.
I feel a spark.
Her face is beautiful and alive.

Pulchritude:
We go it to the dance.
She has pulchritude,
Even though I don't have the nerve to tell her.

Pictures:
Our pictures are taken.
My hand trembles as I tie her corsage.
She looks beautiful.

Silence:
The silence returns as we enter the dance floor. It has an awkward tinge.
I wish I could hold her hand or something to lighten the atmosphere.
When I look at her I forget everything.
The tension eases as we begin to talk.

Quiet outside:
It is quiet outside.
It is peaceful as the rain drops come down on our heads.
The urge to hold her hand appears again.
I look down at the water speckled boards.

Jumping:
The night begins to blur.
The jumping, the spinning, the dancing, the laughing, the talking.
It is all on one moment frozen in time. So small as to be nonexistent, yet so large as to be our life.

Final song:
The final song has begun, Home.
I wish to dance with her yet the fear is too great.
And yet with an unfathomable will she crosses the bridge between us and asks to dance.

What is this unknown emotion?
What is this unknown emotion?
Is it fear? No, it is to joyful.
Is it joy? No, I feel too anxious.
Is it anxiety? No, I feel to calm.
I have no words to describe what I feel.
Love? No, love is too strong of a word.
Like? No, like his too week.

Even without words it is so strong and unbound, yet un-actionable.
She asks what is to come. I look into her eyes and can think of nothing to say.

Tomorrow:
I wake up the next morning with one thought in my head, the intriguing girl.
The one so beautiful as to cause me to forget, yet so smart.
So strong-willed as to ask me to dance, yet so shy.

May we meet again and again,
oh mysterious girl, oh wondrous girl, oh beauty girl.
Emmett Mar 2020
It's perfect and beautiful to not be the most hilarious, joyful, kind, goofy, outgoing -- and yet still quite, beautiful, smart, thoughtful person ever for a while. After all you have to let other people shine on occasion.

I'll be here smiling while I walk beside you until you decide to want to smile too.

And on those days where you think your only option is to crawl I'll join you on the ground in the fall.

Or if you can only sit and cry for hours I'll be here holding you, making this moment ours.
Mar 2020 · 97
Be Alright
Emmett Mar 2020
It’s 2 o’clock and I can’t get to sleep
I know you’re doing you shouldn’t be
I lay in bed and cry all night
Waiting for you to know you’ll be alright
Mar 2020 · 45
Oh Beauty Part 2
Emmett Mar 2020
A beautiful sky starts a beautiful day
A beautiful face starts a beautiful play

I flit between acts of beauty and bliss
Every morning and night I dream of your kiss

So lovely of lovelies among many and few
So beauty of beauties a good morning to you
Mar 2020 · 51
Oh Beauty
Emmett Mar 2020
A beautiful face starts a beautiful day
Your a beautiful girl, oh I hope you’ll stay

I flit between acts of beauty and bliss
Every day and every night I dream of you kiss

So beauty of beauties among many and few
Oh lovely of lovelies I wish a good morning to you
Mar 2020 · 67
Too Many’s
Emmett Mar 2020
I would tell you everything
and nothing:
the only thing I would wish to tell you, that I haven’t, is simply how much I care.
unfortunately I can’t tell you that.
at least not without too many pages of writing
too many minutes of song
too many lines of poetry
too many moments of life
too many lives to live
too many too many’s
therefore what you perceive as the care that I give and the feelings I have are only ever the over flows of lives lived, moments had, poems said, minutes with you , songs sung, pages read, and manys spent together

— The End —