Was there a warning bell I missed?
A buzzer
A loud shrill
To alert me
An alarm bell
to tell me
Of impending pain?
Incoming missile
Lie low
Danger afoot
Go slow
Was there a warning bell
I missed
Don’t trust
Go slow
Be alert
Lie low

I'm sorry for your pain
I'm sorry I made you crying
I can't promise it won't happen again
Cause that would be a selfish lie
I'm sorry for letting you down
I'm sorry for not letting you be
You are a queen with no crown
You are the strong woman in me

I didn't know what hit me
A roller coaster ride of emotions
One day I'm happy
Next, I'm tired

I didn't know what hit me
Your love so overwhelming
You caught me off-guard
A love so ecstatic
A love so pure
A love so beautiful
And I can't take it all in

I'm unlovable
Can't even take hugs seriously
Can't even make my own cup of coffee
Can't even make my brain be happy

But you taught me how to
You taught me all the things I can't even teach myself
You made me do all the things I won't even try
You even made me love myself.

But you were never mine
Never mine to begin with
Never mine to end this

I would not buy this
Even if I had the money
Which I don’t
I would not buy you
Or you
Or you
I have no doubt
You would probably all sell yourselves
For the right amount of money
Even then
I would not buy you
I simply
Don’t have the stomach
For it

The poems and the illness
No way to separate

Mother Teresa spoke the truth
The little way the great

Slept again all day
So tired! Ah! the sadness

Sarah at the bank
Her gentleness is gladness

Thankful for my father
Despite the sometimes struggle

I do not fear Antifa
Sorry there, Ray Tuggle

I want to do some good thing
I want to deep discover

Astrobiological water
The alien. The Other.