I genuinely don't want to be here anymore.
It's a strange feeling knowing your life peaked years ago and living in a nostalgic haze.
It wasn't even good then, but at least it was bearable.

I just feel nothing nowadays.
I don't feel the touch of a woman caressing me. I look straight through the human form;  I've transcended dimension. Hell and eternity and heaven is all one.
god was lonely and needed a distraction.
Thus creating *this

Talking to some old *****
Divorcee
She's in France atm

Saw her **** and teeth
Now I'm bored

Hit up another *****, purely for the back hole..no reply. I'm bored

Another brown girl
sending me a heart
Yawn

I'm at the beach
And riding a rusty bike with children's flip flops
I swim into the waves and lay on the sand
I see a muscle man
  Flexing and a little girl with her cheeks and thong

The sun shines on me
And I throw my pretzel at a bird
then ride back
Still bored

Want to paint a sky black with raining tethers and laughing babies heads
Whilst sleeping In solar plains

Want to pluck the eyes from angels and **** chariot
virgins

And dance with cool emotion

Dusted off disgraces
among favored beggars

We can only do so much
Im tired of doing so little.

If I left now, what would be left

Just thoughts and hopes
Nightmares and smoke
Fragments of a form
Locust winds
Faint cathedrals
Blue mountains
And withered sinew

All decadent
All destined to die

If you had 3 wishes. Give them to me.
Ask the angry serpents

I know you like it deep in your ****
What bleeds is necessary
Too tired to face you
Your voice reminds me of the grave

'Haven't tried yet" says the cat
Eyes like yellow saucers
The rain is full

" Go to bed"

One more time before dreaming

Pontificating over dead
Flowers

stringy guts
& rolling heads
Tasting of muck and grass

Can't escape them now
My tomorrow is yesterday
My future is forever
I am always late.
Not today

Feel like I'm in a glass house
Brain is tethered by wire
& ephemeral fog

Id hug every one of my enemies if it meant salvation
Id ride into dusk unadorned.
I am truly at a loss

& so it goes