planting the seeds,
i am,
adam, you're eve,
i am,
full of your needs,
but you,
resist my pleas,
i am,
sad and depressed,
i am,
thinking what's next,
after,
this cruddy life,
grabbing,
the bloodied knife,
stabbing,
with all my might,
before,
it hits my chest,
i tend,
to hesitate,
dropping,
the sharpened blade,
killing,
the urge to ****,
spilling,
down to my knees,
thinking,
of this disease,
that seems,
to make me wheeze,
in me, i am not free,
i see no ending light,
my brain, it wants to freeze,
and shatter into the night,
i am-
/
-oh so happy,
like a bird, i am flapping,
happily double tapping the pictures that you are mapping,
gleeful, you are the reason i smile, hoping you know this,
notice your bogus aura,
shimmers a shiny yellow like jello,
see through your soul full of gold,
you tend to bellow and giggle,
you're full of laughs-
/
my thoughts are so decaf, unless it's about you.
the hue within my eyes reduce and turn blue,
i brew,
within the ***, the kettle has turned red.
stripping me of my feelings, emotions have gone dead.
forever going to bed,
never to ever wake.
trapped within the fantasy,
eyelids like a canopy,
"can i be the one you choose,”
what else do i've got to lose?
well,
you.

Tangible ghosts stare straight through me
As I run down a winding path
They call out my steps by one two three
As I sort through the aftermath

I still reach for your hand when I’m scared
Sometimes you reach for mine as well
Though you’ll never believe I’ve prepared
For the night that we hold hands in hell

Love is too sweet an idea for reality
Hate is too bitter an emotion for us
Kiss me for a not-so-meaningful duality
We melt when we touch the sun, Icarus

I saw a picture of a girl.
and I thought
Gorgeous,
Hollowed out-
And caved in.
I couldn't help but wonder,
If her lovers hands traced her carved out collar bones.
If his mouth left bruises that marked her for days,
Like a trail along her chest as if to say her skin is mine.
Did he do it with love?
Did he ever wonder when the last time she thought to take up space.
Did he stop to think, that the melody he plays out as they make love-
Is her ribs giving the appearance of a piano.
Bones pressed against skin.
A symphony that plays out like an apology
"Never to thin" it sings.
I saw a picture of a girl and I thought,
Wasting away is an awful way to live.

- because we've always been told skinny is beautiful and we disappear and no one wonders where we go.

i am
enough fire
all on my own
(just like you)
it's engraved
in our bones

remind me again
why we ever feel lost
when the stars up above
are where our paths
have crossed

we are divine

there is
no need to define
all our reasons behind
why the moon and its shine
make our heart beat
faster

there is
a reason i master
the look in your eyes
there is magic in how
i undress your
disguise

all this
love in your heart
fills with people whose parts
may be played by the souls
who once sparked your
first star

let them leave
how they are
cherishing
every
scar

just
keep
trusting

the loving
is right where
you are

you’re a
blending of “we”
you are all parts of me
we are everything we see:
all we hope, feel, and dream
there is no separation....
no matter the nation
collectively, together
we are one human
ration

my
thoughts
are not mine
but illusions of time
and when i start to rise
there’s a shift in your sight
as i reach to new heights
my movements align
in ways where your
limbic system is
sings out to
mine

we
are not lost
our bodies accost
our souls will be tossed
to the sky and it's loft
our eternity is now
every moment somehow
fills will perfectly sequenced
which, why's, and how’s

you deserve
Love right now
through all of the pain
you have let life allow
when dark is around
just feel for your might
hold your own heart
and avow to your
light

alone
is not lonely
you’re full how you are
realize how far you’ve bloomed
your falls formed who you are
your name’s in the stars
they can feel all your scars
these losses obtained
are not all you
are

you're
your own cosmic hue
you are perfectly subdued
with the cosmos for a heart
your Light fuels the moon
and it is flowing to me
to glow out of my heart
until it recycles
to you and
restarts