East Wind

Nov 2016

Ili Norizan

He Tried

He tried to fix me,
And I was too clumsy,
I broke his heart so steadily,
A small rip and feelings trickled freely;

He tried to show me love,
And I fearful of things I don't have,
Dare not make the same gutsy move,
So instead I gave him a shove;

He tried to understand,
Why I'm afraid of making amends,
When all he did was extend a hand,
And I saw it as a start to many bitter ends;

He tried to show more than just care,
But I took one look and saw despair,
Afraid my temperament will be a scare,
For him to put up with from here on until there;

He tried to win,
And I a sore loser,
Only wanted to ink 'fin',
When there's a whole new chapter.

@byizn

For Umar.

#feelings #words #dedication #personal #rant #random #izn #byizn #iliwrites

East Wind Nov 2016

Sand Imprint

It showcases your footprints
your handwritten I love you's, and will you marry me's
you draw a smiley face and add follow you dreams
the possibilities are endless so you keep carving your messages

Then the wind blows and so the waves rise
they wash away the imprint you left behind
standing ashore, you watch the sand castles collapse
But your memories...your memories will stay intact

#imprint

East Wind Nov 2016

Run Away

She goes, her legs taking her away.fast.
running with no destination in mind.
She just wants to get away from everything-
and everyone. Especially, herself.
She runs and cries and runs some more
confusion and sadness urging her to go on.
She stops to dry her tear streaked face
and looks around to the new place.
She finds herself surrounded by-
bricks and walls and city lights.
She has gotten somewhere
reaching nowhere at the same time.
She realizes she's stuck where it all began
her thoughts gripping her like the prison cells they are.
She wondered where she went wrong while looking up at the sky
still trying to find a place to call home, where she can settle down
but alas, all She wants to do is to run away now.

#pain #thoughts #runaway

East Wind Nov 2016

Misunderstood

You won't understand.
You might think you can and that's fine
but when you ask me why? And I sigh,
It's because...
You won't understand.

#misunderstood

East Wind Nov 2016

Joe

Joe was a guy with a great smile
In fact, every time he smiled
the whole world shined.
His warm brown eyes,
sparkled bright
they made me think,
I was the only one around.

But Joe scared me
he got too close
He would ask all these questions
about who I was
   Where do you want to go?
        Who do you want to be?
            What do you dream about
              when you go to sleep?
                  What do you fear the most
                    can you tell me?
                       What's your future like
                        do you see me?
Joe patiently listened
at my attempts to answer
my replies were broken
kind of lackluster.
I didn't know who I was
I mean ...I still don't
and every time Joe looked at me
I just felt lost

He would call me in the mornings
and to say his goodnights,
But no matter how much I liked Joe
I was not yet where he was at.

So I said goodbye to him,
and proceeded my life
Leaving Joe behind me,
while he shined somebody else's life.

East Wind Nov 2016

Billy

Billy was a boy
I saw at a coffee place
I used to frequent
when I needed catharsis
He had long hair
with a freckled face
he played the guitar
and sang my favorites

I called him Billy
but that wasn't his name
I never got a chance
to talk with him face to face

I swear, sometimes I thought
He looked me in the eyes
we connected on a deeper level
than meets the eye
Suddenly I got busy
started going less and less
That one weekend I went?
he wasn't at the place

Billy was what I called him
that wasn't his name
every time I tried to talk to him,
my face caught flame

Next time I see Billy
I will definitely say Hi
or maybe, I will just start with a smile
I will compliment his voice
and ask him out for a bite
Wait!!
I'm forgetting something
I think I moved too fast
Uhh...Yes
Before I proceed to ask him out,
I will ask Billy,
What name he goes by

#billy #toofast