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Dec 2014 Earthchild

Brett W

You are definitely right
I have to move on now
I'll go to sleep tonight
With a brand new vow
Not to dwell on the past
Focus on what's to come
She will not be the last
I no longer feel numb
Reinvigorated with life
I see with new visions
New ways through strife
Making better decisions
I'm no longer indecisive
I'm thankful for the life hacks
You have shown me to live
Without dealing with setbacks
Now we must no longer talk
Because we must both forget
Well, just I have to now walk
You're already through all of it
Bye

I just talked my ex for the first time in over 9 months and she just told me I have to quit dwelling on the past and focus on the future. So I'm taking her advice and trying again to move on. I honestly feel like a semi truck was just taken off my shoulders

Dec 2014 Earthchild

Cope

Dec 2014 Earthchild

RC

Cope

I'm trying to bleed
running from scar to scar
searching for a rip
a trip in the seams
I'm fumbling with locks
and not enough keys
attempting to untie the knots
watching rotted stitches pop as I grip taut cuts and pull...
There's nothing there...
How the **** am I supposed to care
when I can barely bleed
But the chemicals rush too good
flush through my veins
leaving me breathless where I stood
and now I've left
too numb to sort feelings from the mess
But everything is so on track
every lesion every tear every hidden crack
fills in with pills
focus on the thrill
don't bother with the chills
I've gotta keep my head low.

Lost journal entry. PS bleeding does not always mean self harm. Interpret.

#pills #depression #drugs #past #change #numb #journal #coping #diary

Dec 2014 Earthchild

escape

Dec 2014 Earthchild

Hayley

escape

Some men die under the mountains looking for gold.

Some die looking for a hand to hold,
to run far away from all the trouble.

An old one I wrote on my painting

#love