A blade in my hand
The deeper I push
The more the pain
Fear
Terror
Heartbreak
We eyes are wet
Stained black
With fear of the past
Deep in my soul is a cry
A cry for help
The deeper
The harder
The more it flows out
Cut through I am now free
Free to be me
Without you

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

I see you. The real you.
And I think it’s brave and beautiful the way you love despite all the ways life tried to destroy you

She can walk
          between
             night and day
               never letting either
                  get in her way.
She learned this trick
                     many moons ago
                                by
                     going deep within
           and never letting it show.
Her soul is innocent
her heart is pure
she’s gone through more
than most could endure.
            She’s an angel of light
                 an angel of dark
                 you never know
              what you will spark.
                      You want to hurt her?
                         Please, go ahead and try
                           she’ll be the one to show you
                                  just how well she can
                                                              f
­                                                                l­
                                                                ­  y.
                                  Her soul innocent
                    her heart pure
      but never think for one minute
that she’s not secure.
                                Say what you will
                          please, do what you must
                       but your jealousy and hatred
                             won’t waver her trust!
~

the walls
rotting
halls
empty
I am stuck
in the place
I can relate to the most

Some days all you need are
the right songs and
a few pretty clouds.

The cut across my skin felt like a broken heart shattered across a million times.

Life is hard...
You just gotta do it.