Under my bed
deep in my head
they only seem to want me dead
they want to see my blood run red
nothing to protect me
when i finally see
the only real monster is what i see in the mirror
and there is no way to protect those i hold dear
my soul burns with an angry black flame
it wants to point and blame
but i am done playing that game
those shadows aren't the real thing
cause the only real monster is me
and its never been more clear to see

How can one feel so alone
when one is do full of love
how could one feel cold to the bone
when one is free like a dove
a question in the dark
to which no good answer would spark
left in the shadows to rot and die
teardrops fall from his eye
when you are different from everyone else
but you feel like you need to act like all is well
when really you feel like a freak
and comfort yourself by saying your just unique
full of emotions full of fears
in a corner alone again shedding tears
burning your face while you tell yourself everything will be okay dear
when really you believe u wont and it tears u apart
your soul was stretched and these thoughts shred your heart
but they wont leave
neither will the attention you receive
death inside life outside
nothing to lose but everything that hurts you feel you must hide
You feel like it would set you free
if who you were you no longer had to be
but in the dark there is always light
someone finds me in the dark
and i began to fight
Death is dead and you behold
the real you about whom you were never told
cause underneath every scared soul
is a person waiting to be found to be mad whole
thank you sister thank you my dear friends
for seeing past the difference in me
and setting me free!

I see shadows crawling up a wall
the voices in my head tell me to **** them all
I smell hate and feel loved
In the dark i feel hugged
all emotion fades away
it all leaves day by day
killing all who get in my way
with a kiss on the cheek
and no other words to speak
i run back into the black for none to see
what i have done to that lifeless body
destroy the body eat the soul
leave the blood to form a pool
for the wolves to lap up
and maybe even it will bring a few pups
i don't think i am crazy
this darkness just feels so amazing.

To fill a heart with grace and peace
To give love to those who have the least
to care for those who are dying
to be a comfort to those who are crying
to sing to those who cannot sleep
to teach writing to those who cannot speak
overcoming every fear
till a full heart will finally appear
a full heart spills over the brim
and floods joys over and out from deep within
a fountain of joys springs into light
and renders the dark to flee and fright