You loved me; like no one ever had
So when they held me back with chains
Leaving you without a trace, I fought;
I gave you a shot, the pain left me with no name,
The shame people considered it a game,
But I’d give it my all, just to give you a call
My scars shown as bright as stars,
But I didn’t care because you were always there.

No beauty within.
Nothing less than a jealous vitality.
Wanting to be sufficient.
Soon to be omitted.
Inattentive remarks straining a clasp on my optimism.
I fought for this sanctity, yet all i recieve is insufficiency.
Why do i require to fulfill others perceptions, when i established my center point, my high.
Should it bring trouble to others?
Shall i yearn to keep them content?
Thier wondering eyes demand to be settled on themselves.
While i propose to live the way i desire not them.

The cut you left on my heart is not the first of many to come.
Deeper compared to the others I admit.
Nott healed just yet.
The same pain.
Similiar situations.
Soon to be all overcome.
I have no doubt this will be afixed.
Staying clear of you, it'll mend into a scar, just like the rest.
Leaving in imprint, but not a setback.
This pain shall end.
This encounter, conquered.
And thats really whats keeping me together right now.
Me.
My Self.
And I.
I lost you, yet in the midst of it all.
I found myself.

As the light begins to fade
The Windows begin to shade
I watch our memories flash
Knowing they've already past
All I feel is ***** coming up with you as the after taste
My body too numb to remember what you did to me
It seems only at night
My darkest of fears shine right past my guard
I'm left with only dreams of you
To guide me through
Hate is what I'm supposed to feel for you
But sorrow is all I can manage torwards you

I fell in love with the idea of love it's self

Your deception hidden behind that smile

Smooth talk and irrelevant lures blinded me from seeing what others perceived

My anxieties vanished when those misleading lips of yours pressed against mine

Once letton go i knew all I heard where lies

To be honest, You're the only one I've ever spent this much time and effort on

Endless marathons of movies
Late night dinners
Our 3 am conversations
Weekeneds spent getting to know each others families
Silent afternoon walks

I was convinced you and you alone would make me happy
I was convinced we where meant to last because you promised me
I was convinced I couldn't let you go because than you'll let your self go

But you dug your hole deeper
You took my second chance for granite
Controlling me because you thought I would keep on following
You believed I would chase after you like any other girl

Little did you know I'm really "not like other girls"
I'm a strong independent women
I don't cry over a man
I don't beg him to stay and I sure as hell don't let him walk all over me

She takes in deep breaths trying to savor the taste of nature
Amused by the opulence
Her bare lips against the wind
Enchanted by the view
Laughing along with the birds tune
Soaking in the vibrant sun
Her vacant mind wondering off to the blisfull trees

The ending will be the same
Blood shot eyes
With stinging tears leaving me marks to remember
I stick around because I love you
Although you trap me in a glass box Somehow making me feel invisibe
One day I'll give up on you
I just wish you knew
That day it's coming soon