I offer a helping hand to others Though fleeting, It brings me joy I'm so depressed I can hardly manage a smile I can hardly manage a heartbeat I'm falling. I'm falling victim to my thoughts. I feel alone I feel alone. I feel alone. Feeling is so hard these days. I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want it to be winter. I don't want this. I don't want this. Save me Save me Help Help Help me. Please.
I never understood God. Maybe I still don't. On second thought, I still don't. I never understood how anyone Could follow something they can't see. Something they don't truly understand. I'm starting to think God is around. I'm starting to see the beauty of life Maybe because I'm at the bottom Maybe because this winter has been especially hard. Maybe because I have reason to look to the cosmos. Who knows. There isn't a temple I'd set foot in. But God, If you're listening. I'm here. I need you. Something beyond other's words Prove to me things will be okay.
I guess I'll go back to bed. Wake me when the winter ends Wake me when smiling isn't a chore. Wake me when you don't want to fight Wake me up when you can talk to me Wake me up when I'm not wasting your time. Or Just let me sleep forever. Let me sleep until I decompose Let me waste Let me sleep forever Let me sleep forever Let me sleep forever Just **** me Because I can't do it on my own anymore.
I'm lost in my head. My brain is an infinitely expanding sea And My spirit; A squid. Much like the depths at which giant squid swim The preasure is extraordinary The darkness, laughably stereotypical I've been swimming for ages But has it been The same circle All this time?
I've decided that from here on in I will write a poem a day. My joys, My indifference And All my dismays. I'll voice my feelings Electronicly Forgive me my past but I have to move on. Get ready my future Because here I come.