I’m standing under the mirror ball looking up
blind
Where are you?
no where
Show me your identification badge
SECURITY SECURITY
my smile slides to the left
like a child
My whispering voice says I can’t find you
BUT I’M NOT LOST
anguish
I know where I am standing

find me

Every time I see imperfection
I see truth

I grin as I look into the new year
A new state of mind and heart
There is no ****** clarity anywhere to be seen
No expectations and no lined up jars
I smell earth on the breeze
There's a hum
A beautiful vibration in the dirt beneath my feet
listen

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As excited as I may seem
The sky still shines blue black at night
The candle wax drips and sticks
Drum beat repeats
twitch
But through the night I sleep - sometimes - on and off
And in the light - I run and pat dogs
I don't see you but you are always seeing me so
I hold my chin in my hand and contemplate
It all

What happened to the beautiful boisterous screaming queens of the 80's full of Gloria Gaynor dancing on bars & pianos & teasing & strutting & grabbing life by the *****?
Every time I go to the Op Shop & see a pair of size 11 patent leather red pumps I think of you & put them on & walk around the shop just to remind me of the fabulous times.
Are you making lounges in the shape of Cadillacs or corsets or sculpting **** - tail glasses delicately gold leafed - centre table?
Back up x 30 in the Botanical Gardens at Mardi Gras & remember the good times, the sad times, the Carmen Miranda, feather boer, wig, **** & lipstick times my friends........
smooth jazz grand piano

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I stood in the wind and I could smell myself
I liked it
It was heady
I caught myself on the wind and it was good
I turned and walked away and was sad that it was only me that caught it
smile

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