I don't know who I am
but I do the best I can

Forget and live
Regret to relive
Memory's are lazy
And the past is hazy

Years lost in a sigh
Who even was I
Just some guy
Lost in the lie

****** Mary come out of the mirror
And see me with that face of terror
Stay with me in the mirror ever fairer
So ****** a fear blossoms forever

****** Mary what have I done
Oh why wont you come
Does it not seem oh so fun
To put an end to an ugly run

****** Mary answer my query
Why am I not a worthy quarry
Why am I so unworthy
Of you turning me too a slurry

****** Mary, ****** Mary
Come to me and forever be
Last to see my eyes teary
From a dreary sob story

****** Mary don't abandon me
Like those faerie and fantasy
Hidden from reality in story's
Mary I worry your not really

More than just a story

Take it slowly not too late to believe
Listen quietly silence flows through a sieve
It talks of the empty and of reprieve

Voids cavitate in my head and heart
My drink is lead in part
Slowly kills my head losing my heart
Not quite dead just wont start

Maybe it'll change but its a pity
Stuck here broke and down in the city
Get high and happy with my last fifty
Older every year but barely over twenty

I take it slowly tell myself I can still believe
Quietly cause the silence will outlive
The empty hollow me seeking a reprieve
Silence as I take my leave

Lost in never never land
Sand grains flow in hand
Bands flowin make a grand
Lose it in never never land

Cards in my hand never good
An ace high bluff and stand
Just to make it to dreamland
Let it roll see where the crown land

Chasin losses will never make a winner
But leavin the *** now is leavin dinner
Roll all in on eatin tonight ramen on the burner
Another gamble a little bit thinner

Every choice is a gamble for a future
Bet my soul become indenture
Lost in anothers venture
Never land better never go under

Floating in the ocean of emotion
Lose myself in slow motion
Body feels the flow and erosion

Use oxytocin and psilocybin
To polish off the corrosion
Feelin the rocking emotion

The light went out a mile back
But I'll walk forward in the dark
Empty roads mirror what I lack
I'm busy, I'm out on a lark

Too busy for you and me
So find someone else to see
Cursed with popularity
Time lost in entirety

**** it blow off another friend in need
A little time alone is all I need

I'm barely worth all this time
That everyone gives my rhymes
Everyone given me time
And then they ask me for mine

But I'm used to being alone
So I'll just blow you off
And go get ******
Just let me off

I'm so tired all the time
then everyone hits me up
To give me time
And ask for mine

So used to being alone
Not used to all these people
Only sulking on my own
Thought I was a *******

Never thought people could like me
More than I can even like me
Don't know how to function without
Being on my own and without

I have it all still I stand in the dark
Empty roads a mirror to what I lack
So many people are standin at my back
Trying to keep it all is makin me crack