Absurdity is not real
everything means nothing
and nothing means nothing
nothing nothing nothing
…… hah it aint no thing

Guilty of survival
on the bullet's arrival

Man shut the **** up with that bible

Nothing holy found in a meaningless death
Nothing gained nothing lost just lost his breath

Nobody ever cherished he,
meant nothing to me

Never meant anything to the family

They say the whole world can be seen in a grain of sand
Well the whole world can be lost for the gram and a band

**** got me lyin
in my own brain

Thoughts of shame and ****** pain

Watch the time flow through my scarred hands
The clock tickin life lost in front of claspin hands

Pray away the pain
leave the needy in the rain

Pray rather than give a *******

**** empty words in the pulpit
Preachers speakin to the rats

Skittering scared masses
gather en mass

For their weekly holy masse

To hide from the sights in the front
The cyanide in a cup from tainted font

Self idealisation  
adulation congratulation

Nothing real no action no salvation

Burnin the minorities on crosses
Holy ethnic cleansing in the mosques

Killers deserve forgiveness
****** deserve forgiveness

But man takes **** and deserves pain relentless

Its a facade a coping mechanism
Lies to fade away the pain in realism

Fundies is colloquial
a term for the mentally ill

Sundays the ***** hit a sleeping pill

Manson family with some Boko Haram just contemporaries
Hands-on oppression and manipulation it barely varies

Historic faults ignored
easily overlooked

None holier than thou got addicts hooked

Hide actions with words and rhetoric
Form factions and division so reverent

Be just and holy
treat others kindly

Do what we say in the majority, **** the minority

Rinse and repeat and take my seat
Cut into the meat my mouth feels heat
Of a bitter treat sickly sweet
Digress and digest when we meet
No duress when you suggest we eat
Over a meal ideas compete without a defeat

I became so strong, after all this time
But its been so long, since I was fine

I don't weep no more
Just sleep a lot more

I faced all my fears, but regret still tries to haunt
After all these years, I have no regrets that daunt

Always reliably confident
Ever the reliable confidant

Trusted by all my peers, trusted by myself
Failure to those peers, will leave me by myself

Weakness I will not permit
A luxury I don't get

Weakness in my past, has left me all alone
Friends never last, when I cant stand on my own

But now I'm so strong
And they all came along

Friends never last, but they all came back
I am steadfast, so stay and don't go back

I wont ask you for support
I can carry my own heart

I can carry mine, and I can carry yours
I'll be just fine, be my friend I'll be yours

I didn't have chains on myself
Free to move about a empty shelf
Free of brain free of wealth
Cleaned off in the rain was free of health
Till I got a job to be free of death

Boss told me "Fill the shelf"
And restocked my empty self

Filled it with Doritos and plastic
Try not to seem unenthusiastic
At lunch eat taquitos that taste toxic
Feel my chest melt, works so caustic

Chains on my body tied by checks
Money to tide me over till the next
Trade my time and self respect
For my chains and my checks

Do it to chain myself to safety I suspect

Never needed a reward to give my heart away
Never needed a punishment for my edges to stay

I don't believe in flying away into a divine sky
And falling into a abyss of pain seems a lie

When I draw my final breath I'm okay
If it is the last time I say goodbye

No perfection to be found in my soul
And I think the many flaws are cool

The human body is not just a tool
To obtain eternity, but maybe I'm a fool

I always give my heart away
And keep my edges at bay

I do not sit and pray
Not for a holy play

But for my own desire and pride
To find my way ego is my guide

Its not okay, but don't worry
Its all okay, If you dont worry

Young and on the run always hurry
Move-in quick and erratic always a flurry
Grow older every step, what's the hurry
But everyone dies so why do I worry