I think that I am blessed with life.
This morning I woke up warm and safe,
with a kind man next to me to kiss on the face.

I have been granted the ability to work.
I have a welcoming space to earn a living,
with a wonderful boss who is kind and giving.

I still have the privilege to text my mother.
She is a sweet woman with a kind heart -
loves who I am even though our beliefs sometimes part.

But today I woke up and my heart still feels heavy.
I feel unworthy of this body I've been given,
and my mind overworks without my permission.

Depression does not care about my positive days.
Even though I am blessed I struggle with pain,
and constantly still I fight with this dreadful brain.

But day after day I will never give up.
For too many people are counting on me,
and encouraging that one day I shall be free.

So *******, Depression!
Today I woke up and continued to breathe
and while sometimes it's hard I have faith in me.

Please forgive my silence.

I don't know where to start.

My voice cannot project
the volume of my heart.

You're still in my head,
though long left my bed.
Yeah, I thought this was dead
but, I guess I misread
this stupid heart of mine.

thank you
lover
-
for the
reminder
-
that no
longer
-
are they**
stronger
-
than my voice.

Criticism from the wrong person
Is the greatest motivation

In your arms,
this ghostly heart
wants to live.