I feel unsure...
Unsure about me
Unsure about you
And ultimately, unsure about us
But then again, I'm unsure about being unsure.
It's an uncomfortable feeling,
Plunging me deeper into my ever-expanding mind
An abyss of permanent midnight.
Us being together invites a lot
A lot of ridicule, difficulty, and stress
That should be enough to keep me from you.
But, nevertheless
I continue to stay
Regardless of all the red flags, problems and parents who press.
Because you are someone who cares
And that's the most important thing to me.
You never fail to impress.
Your loyalty reaches my heart,
And I hope we never part,
In the name of love,
And blue skies above.

They tell me not to go
force me to comply
but I'm already gone
still living a white lie
and every now and then
reality slips through
but by the time they see
there's nothing they can do

and suddenly im questioning everything
left with a space in my chest
aching \ wondering
where have you taken my heart?
but the people tell me to stay
and do the adult things i'm supposed to
but how can my body be here
my hands still working and my feet still going
while my mind wanders to you
and my thoughts overwhelm me
so different then the reality i see
each day my patience wanes
and every moment i hope to escape