I miss my friend.
If we can only talk for a quick second.
I’m trying to forget the past and live in the present.
Forget the bad I’m done learning my lesson.
I’m not going to ask, “Why was I treated wrong?”
I lived through the pain and now I’m living strong.
You’re the cause of my wrongs nothing felt right.
“Why do I still bleed?”, when I’m wearing white.
Why do I still need?”, this person in my life.
Questioning myself, the answers would help.
Deep in my thoughts the common passion I’ve always felt.
You won’t respond because you’re not here.
If you were I doubt you’d care.

More To Say...

Every time we talk you say, “I have you back”
Well, you shouldn’t of left me like that.
Broken down but yet I have to be man.
We both are human beings I guess you don’t understand.
You bleed red! Well so do I!
You left me dead! But I’m still alive!
Raised from the ground to reach the sky.
Like a seed in the ground, that tree grew high
If only you could see me now
You would be surprised
But only thing you see is memories
Just another disguise!
The truth behind your lies...

Bless the dead and the dead that’s undead.
Some people rather be that way instead.
Walking around like zombies just useless bodies.
Acting like it’s a trend just clueless copies.
The end feels near or it already is.
Well until then continue your life.
You have more to live and plenty more to give.
Life isn’t easy I understand your logic.
I exit reality and enter my fantasy Marvel Comics.
Yes!, I’m a bit of geek and I strive on week by week.
I listen to music on repeat until I’m in sync.
I’m not talking the 90’s boy band.
More like Eric B. & Rakim, when the music leak.
You can hear them say “Don’t Sweat The Technique”.
Some may not understand me like I’m speaking Greek.
Like everything I write seem too weak.
It’s not up to their standard like a sleek physique.
Don’t judge me because I seem fatigue.
I’m on my own level if you follow the league.
Yup, the words was spoken as I continue to speak.
Let it remain in your head until it’s concrete.
My words all in your head and may it the streets.
Like Diddy, “Proceed to Give You What You Need”.
Forget me not and Yes, I’m a different breed.
DNA from a plantation where my ancestors flee.
I wish I can say they were freed.
The truth is people are ruthless and till this day.
Anger in my soul but in reality I seem okay.
Aggression gets old so I put it away.
I’m more cool, calm, and collective.
I sometimes bend the rules it’s beyond effective.
Don’t analyze me now no need for a detective.
As you read I invaded your life instead.
I’m now attached to you, Zombie life, The Infected.
I know this script wasn’t expected.
So I’ll continue to search for a different method.

I’m just so hungry...I must feed..

More to Come

Why do I feel like I’m drowning?
If I didn’t get into the pool yet.
There’s only a few moves I do regret.
Needing a lifesaver just to feel safer.
I’ll speak on any topic if you pick the flavor.
Luckily, writing is my form of therapy on paper.
Basically, it’s my only savior when times are major.
Why keep these thoughts in my head?
I rather speak on them now, rather than later.
You can’t express yourself let this be a favor.
Maybe me writing this you can relate to.
We both trying to find an exit to escape thru.
Trying to fight it these feeling is uninvited.
Maybe no one will notice if I try to hide it.
But which will suffer more them or I.
A question I always ask myself.
It’s usually between him or I.
If I free myself from this pain, Will I Rise?
Is the suffering too deep in vain, Will I Die?
But still I try to keep Hope and Will alive.
The moment will be gone and the sun will arrive.
So until this day is over I’ll say “I Will Survive!”
Just Keeping Hope Alive from Drowning...

I’m still alive!
So, that means I didn’t die.
I’m back now in my suit and tie.
Being presentable is my profession.
Appearing here now I guess I have a confession.
My words is not just talk.
It’s my best means of an expression.
I will always laugh now and maybe cry later.
At the moment I’m molding my life.
I guess you can call me The Creator.
The Artistic Visionary, The Artistic Invader.
My art is always present I never miss.
I used to call myself Artamyst....
I appear to be the toughest.
My exterior is the roughest.
I take life all in until enough is enough is.
I know you see me talking.
Ignoring me as you keep on walking.
Just Great!
At times I may enter hibernation state.
I keep to myself.
Even when part of me wants to escape.
I stay on the clock from twelve to twelve.
I’m still alive no expiration.
So, that means I will remain on the shelf.
And if I do die, continue the separation.
From the body to the soul.
Life is just a play.
God gave me a role.
God gave me a goal.
I’m trying to reach it
But it will be a blessing if I turn old.
I’m talking black and white with some grey.
1) My black or brown skin, okay.
2) The white hairs may appear.
3) But I rather see grey.
I had to break it down.
I didn’t want you to question my logic.
I’m actually writing this.
As I’m listening to Logic.
I’m still alive and kicking is my topic.
I really need a vacation, probably the tropics.
Energizer bunny
I’ll keep going until I stop this......
Oh Yeah,,,I’m Alive...Stay Tune.
Maybe more coming soon.

So, here we go again.
Take two!
Love Me or Not.
I’m not here to make you.
Whatever you choose it’s cool.
Because, I’m going to still be me.
I’m still going to live on.
I know it’s hard to believe.
Not dealing with you is a relief.
I’m going to be Stressless!
Express my feelings I won’t suppress this.
I’m free now no need to be obsessed with.
I’m about to let it all out.
Love Me or Not, is my confession.
Love Me or Not, is full of aggression.
Love Me or Not...
I guess I learned my lesson.
Take Three!
Wait!
You don’t have another chance with me.
You just missed out on romance with me.
Bags packed! no going to France with me.
Aime-moi ou pas (French)
You don’t have another chance with me.
I think we can both agree!
This is an indefinitely guarantee.
You’ll never **** with me!

To be continued...

I believe I have more to say.
I’ve been quite for a while.
But not today, Time to play.
I’ve been going out my way.
Yes! I’m big a little over weight.
Traveling from state to state.
Enjoying delicacies, Yum their great!
Yo, getting off track let’s set it straight.
I have my truck now to transport freight.
Wait!, here I go again babbling towards the end.
Like you can relate we’re the best of friends.
Just because you read this,
You don’t need this!
This isn’t medicine you don’t need sh*t.
I’m just babbling again battling with in.
The monster is my adrenaline.
Hungry for Benjamin’s!
Yes! I’m craving it still, the craving is real.
We all have to eat, A snack or a meal.
Just a couple of thousands to a mill period.
A person can dream or wake up delirious!
This coronavirus is crazy it’s too serious!
We walk about it oblivious.
Put our life on the line mysteriously.
It affected others it won’t get to me.
I’m covered by the blood, Jesus Christ!
If I get infected he will save my life.
What if it’s your time to go?
No one knows when their debt is up.
You may feel alone but what if.
We’re not alone and death is next to us?

Cover my eyes so I go blind.
Because love is hard to find.
Maybe I’m not in the zone.
I need to switch my time.
I may be insufficient, not in my prime.
I’m trying to reach that primate status.
Let me go ape **** full of madness.
Life ain’t **** if nothing’s happens.
My drive is anxious I gotta have it.
I practice patience, I’m automatic.
I’m in a different bracket less dramatic.
You located love, well that’s fantastic!
I’m happy for you, let’s not dispute.
Love for me does not compute.
I got different views and reviews.
I wear the same size just have different shoes.
Just saying I’m the same person with different news.

That image though.
Your beauty just shine bright.
I’ll call you my sunshine.
Seeing you in the morning is what I like.
Smiling from cheek to cheek.
Can’t believe you’re here with me.
Spending time from a week to weeks.
I can’t wait until you’re awake.
For the moment I’ll let you sleep.
It feels like home to hear you speak.
Very welcoming and unique.
That certain tone I cannot repeat.
A loop in my brain until it gets weak.
Please don’t fade away, I love you day by days.
Forever is my Always, Always is my Forever.
No matter the storm as long as we’re together.
I Love You!

People think I have nothing to talk about.
But yet I stay chatting up a storm with a cloudy mind.
Thinking about situations between yours to mines.
I truly want to speak but instead I write on lines.
This is an example, a sample, as I’m scrabbling my signs.
My mind sometimes be calm or tangled in vines.
This is a new beginning another intro to a rhythmic rhyme.
At the moment I’m nothing doing anything I can spare my time.
I’ve been back and forth coast to coast but I’m doing fine.
At one moment I was going to put down the pen and resign.
But I notice members posting poetry I figured “why shouldn’t I?”
Get in tune with the groove, I found a new beat that opened my mind.
So I decided to take this opportunity, why not open my eyes?
I’m tired of being lazy I rather stand up, so I rise.
I figured I’m already driving I can enjoy this ride.
No navigation needed I use a beat as my guide.
Enthusiastic about these radio waves coming near you.
If you can’t feel it, then it should be coming soon.
Until then you can wait...
But it’s best if you can Get in Tuned.

When Beauty comes around sometimes you just have Stop and Admire it. You never know when you’ll see it again.
                                -Understanding Gentleman

I want to talk to you half of me say, “I shouldn’t” and the other half say, “I should”.
I’ll just be patient until my mind say, “I could”
                                                  -Aaron L. Osgood

I could be your type! Depending on what flavor do you like?
I like to play games but not with your mind or heart. I’m talking video games, I’m ready to start!
I’m a mystery and A special person..if only I could specify.
                                                   -Jus_”DatGuy”

I just want to speak to you.
Can I get one moment of your time?
I just need me to see you.
I just need you to see me.
I know sometimes it’s not easy.
I just want this one moment to last.
But I know the images of me.
Brings up the bad moments of your past.
I just want to say sorry.
Although history can repeat.
It usually does..no matter how discreet.
Things can still rise to the surfaces above.

I’m thinking of you too much.
And the mistakes that were made.
But I’m also missing your touch.
Almost by days: like yesterday and today.
Tomorrow could be a different story.
But I still think about you always.

I won’t go into details.
But I shouldn’t raise my _.
I feel sorry where it landed.
It should of firmly planted.
If it was me instead of you.
I would of never withstand it.
So, now I understand it...Why.
You left me without a goodbye.
Then again you just left.
Without a single text.
I started with a Hello...
I got silence in return
I guess your wondering what’s next..
I guess your still feeling hurt..

I’m Sorry (it’s not just words)
I’m Sorry (I really mean it when your hurt)
I’m Sorry (I should thought of my action first)
I’m so so Sorry.

Don’t be a Yes Man.
Looking at yourself less than.
Take some time and Invest in.
Look at yourself in that reflection.
Just look at yourself!
What is your worth and what is your wealth?
You should think of you first and no one else.
You have the tools to repair you
No one else can see your past in their rear view.
The present is near you.
Your future should be in a clear view.
Dust yourself off you’re not done yet.
You didn’t lose but you haven’t won yet.
No matter how low the sun gets!
Seriously, you’re not done yet.
Take a hold of your life be in charge.
Don’t forget remember who you really are.
Even when the night falls and you see the stars.
I know you don’t like to feel the pain.
You wear long sleeve to cover your arms.
It’s not visible but I can still see them scars.
Your hurting within but you don’t care.
Because the real you isn’t there.
The real you is aware but could not bare.
The stupidity that you impaired.
You say, “I’m not dumb this is me!”.
Since the day of your birth I disagree.
Since the beginning we all had a choice.
We were developing as babies.
Even if we couldn’t speak yet with our voice.
Somewhere along the line you got off course.
And you changed your mind.
You left your only lonely self behind.
Then that Yes Man person was assigned.

I just want to say don’t be a Yes Man.
It’s not over you have a lot more Time.

Don’t be a Yes Man.
You better start guessing.
You could make a choice.
Don’t let every lady steal your voice.
Your that person chillin in the back seat.
Yes! It’s relaxing, until you become obsolete.
You’ll feel less important...not complete.