DElizabeth

DElizabeth May 2023

you wanted me
and i had you

we were tangible,
but we were flammable

i was careful,
but not careful enough

our connection,
was like playing with fire

you had it
or you didn't
there was no in between

we were too hot to hold,
now so cold to the touch

hands, where flames once ignited,
now frostbitten fingertips

i thought i knew you, darling
but suddenly we grew

a p a r t . . .

DElizabeth May 2023

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DElizabeth May 2023

thorns

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couting days
counting hours
until i see your face;
i used to think,
but now i'm not sure what to...

i'm driving through your town
but your house is not where i am headed this time...
it's only a routine check-up, i say
but it feels like so much more...
i can't help but
replay
replay
replay
as i know you're only a mile away . . .

baby's breath
and side-walk daisies,
queen anne's lace
and roses;
they knew i left them for you
but now all that's there are thorns,
stuck in my gown but now it's all torn
as a stand where you left me,
left me waiting in the rain
in my ruby red shoes . . .

take me back, darling
to those long summer days
where warmth wrapped us into one
and nothing else mattered . . .

i didn't think i'd cry anymore
but darling i still think of you...
flying down grosebeck highway,
only a mile away from you...
i hear our songs
and it all comes back . . .

* f a d i n g . . . i ' m f a d i n g . . .*
fading into you,
fading into me,
fading into us . . .
the flashbacks start and all i see is then . . .

the soft piano fades in
and sweet melodies echo
alongside your footsteps . . .
your sheer curtains and dusty window
and the way you looked up at me
as my hair fell upon your cheeks . . .
two heart beats but it sounds like one,
we spoke a language only we understood.
can we just go back to this? . . .
the way the blood pooled in your cheeks,
the were pink against mine
and you smiled as you held your eyes closed
darling, i didn't want to ever leave . . .

i could have stayed in that car with you forever
even if it meant i'd never be clever . . .
the piano softly fades,
like the phantom memory of your lips . . .
the sweet melodies fall,
just like i still do sometimes
when you look at me
with those all-knowing eyes . . .
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inspired and provoked by "hornylovesickmess" and "midnight love" by girl in red.

DElizabeth May 2023

can we change it maybe?

we were solid
like the ground beneath our feet,
except yours grew cold
and mine burned through

damaged finds damaged
nothing new,
and we both knew
that one day we'd let them
get the best of us . . .

if it hurts so bad
then why is destruction
so beautiful?
we had all the stars,
so bright & bold & light & full.
darling, i never want
to leave this place.
we started a story
that ended in "sorry"
and i don't like that ending, f a d i n g . . .
so let's change it maybe?

we knew it from the first time
we saw the pain in each other's eyes...
how quickly we turned the rain into gold,
and we never had to say a word.
we just knew, and that's all there was to it...
you could be across the room
and i'd hear every word you'd say,
everything you felt
every little thing you felt...
i never knew how eyes could hold a conversation,
i knew it, i felt it, i held it, i had it...
all they screamed was "IT'S MANIPULATION".

if it hurts so bad
then why is destruction
so beautiful?
we had all the stars,
so bright & bold & light & full.
but darling, i never want
to leave this place.
we started a story
that ended in "sorry"
and i don't like that ending, f a d i n g . . .
can we change it maybe?

you know i always have so much to say
yet never really know how to say it,
i can try
i can cry
and these tears, they can stain like dye...
there's so much to feel
so much to tell,
we touched, we fell
but no pentameter could hold
what needs to be told.

we loved
we laughed,
we cried
we sighed...
who knew i'd still be crying
3 years later? . . .

if it hurts so bad
then why is destruction
so beautiful?
we had all the stars
so bright & bold & light & full.
darling, i never want
to leave this place.
we started a story
that ended in "sorry"
and i don't like that ending, f a d i n g . . .
will we change it, maybe? . . .

DElizabeth Apr 2023

fictional conversations

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"but don't go around and f_ck with someone else's heart
when yours is still broken"

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DElizabeth Apr 2023

peaches

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"you could be the sweetest peach on the tree,
but not everyone likes peaches"
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