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Giovanni Jun 2018
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Yo, from way back to now I don't know how it be / take a minute look back and breathe / and go with God's speed / I'm just a calm type Brotha / with lots of soul / Me, my priority My goal / life's too short / and a blessing in disguise but if you don't **** the world? Then how will you survive? **** it, make that green / smoke that green / don't look back and build self esteem / the code in the streets ain't the same no more / colors are the same on all streets so I put my fist up for the peace within / for my people everyone who was born from sin to sin / just another day / new flavor/ new dolla bill / but hold up Baby I gotta go and get my thrill. I'm leaving! on a jet plane! And don't know if I'll be back again / but when I'm gone at least you'll have this track / something to miss till I holla back....

Hook

Cause I don't know where I'm going / **** don't know where I've been / but I've been destroyed / I gotta go and rebuild /

You can say whatever you want bout me / went in and out / but you can never touch my clout /

So till the next time we meet / farewell/ be well / and then maybe you'll try, but for now I'm out....

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On a whole different planet now / breathing new air / new people, new clothes / blank stares / but they don't know me / so that means that I can be free / I got love for my loved one's / make no mistake / but I've been pushing the same cart since way back when / hello world how's the Sun? How's the moon? And the stars where you at? Well for me they come up when I smile / so that's That / so from way back to now / I don't know how it be / so I'm taking a minute / eyes closed/ time to breathe/ so now I'm good / maybe a little lost / but never shook / not so good with books / but street knowledge got me hooked / just a different ride / but I keep love in my heart / with a lit spark / even when it gets dark.

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Cause I don't know where I'm going / **** don't know where I've been / but I've been destroyed / I gotta go and rebuild /

You can say whatever you want bout me / went in and out / but you can never touch my clout /

So till the next time we meet / farewell/ be well / and then maybe you'll try, but for now I'm out....
Giovanni Jun 2018
Lord knows where I'm gonna go...
Lord knows how I feel inside...
So long, I've been used to this pain...
But someday I hope I can say goodbye...

I've been chasing the same dream since I can remember, I've been climbing the same ladder passing each September, do you see me at all? At all?
I've been calling for you with each tear that falls, I've been wanting to hold you with every passing night, tell me do you feel the same? Feel the same? Or am I just a waste of time to You?
You don't see the loneliness that I'm in, you selfishly close yourself in and you forget me easily, when I'm the one that's here for you.
I know you wish that things were easy, trust me I know, but you make things harder than they should be, and then you let go, hurting me everytime.

Lord knows where I'm gonna go...
Lord knows how I feel inside...
So long, I've been used to this pain...
But someday I hope I can say goodbye...
Giovanni Jun 2018
Sometimes I blame myself for the soft spot in me that seems to weaken me / rewind back time and you'd know that this wasn't me / a ******* since day 1 nobody faded me / 1st on the line fist up hard headed that was the G in me / never gave a **** about dying / it grew increasingly / anger in my heart since I was a child molested now I have fear in me / nobody deserves a person like me around / insane is what I've became just sit and you'll understand me now / a story bout my life is not something worth telling / but maybe someone will learn something from the decent part in me / like how to love and view everyone equally / cause when I'm gone I know no one will be there / casket open tears from those who remembered me / Family who knew the pain I had in me /
Giovanni Jun 2018
I feel my hearts gone cold and I get it / you wear your heart on your sleeve for long / and they forget it / wake up to the same tune / nothing different / only memories of when she told you that you were gifted / that moment in your heart when you felt lifted / but now the winds have passed and memories now you miss em / now you're at the bottom with a disease you knew you had / the same one that took your grandma and almost your dad / the one you hear about / silently creepin / your lack of motivation / not enough sheep to count to get you sleeping / sometimes I talk back to them voices / see a man like me has ran out of choices / I used to ask God why I was a sad Baby / never got an answer so now it drives me crazy / I often think to myself "what will tomorrow be?" But now tomorrow is what I don't wanna see / I hide behind the tears of a clown / as long as y'all laughing / I could say I brought a smile to your face / when all I had was pain / behind the smile on this face.
Giovanni Jun 2018
I often ask myself if I'm the one done with life / or life is just done with me / got more sadness in my heart that I just wanna numb it all in me / some say I'm emo / some say I'm crazy / I usually tell em I'm Rosemary's Baby/ both in a cradle with no one on a rocking chair / just 4 walls pitch black with me on the corner floor looking around / but no one's there / that means that I'm alone so that makes me weak / and I'm not talking 90's R&B / I feel my mind is like a building with a bunch of floors / so you don't know if on Monday I'll be on the 1st / 2nd / 3rd / or 4th knocking at your door / trying to explore the way I feel / but likely it's all in my head so **** ain't real / I'm not anti social / I'm just not the same / ever since that chemical imbalance took over my brain / so while I'm joking and cracking a joke / everything inside of me is shattering / so you can say I'm broke / maybe I'm done and got nothing else to do / maybe me being here was a mistake / but the Dr that saved me had no clue / a 50 percent chance of living as a new born that was me / maybe they should have let me go so I would've never encountered all this pain / that's deep inside of me.
Giovanni Nov 2017
I'm trying to find Peace in the oddest places, trying to search the world for familiar faces, yet there's no trace of anything familiar, that's when you realize you've just been standing in between pillars. Who amongst us knows the definition of pain? When you're told you're not enough, so you go insane. That's the psychological way of looking at it, it's not something you should brag about, I was told, by a being from another planet, whatever it was, was right so I had to understand it. Misguided I've been my whole life, I have been a little bit of a stranger around these folk who say they love me, but when backs are turned they treat me ugly. Muddy waters I've been thrown into, my soul I have left you to be on your own while the deepest feelings a man can have, have been crushed too. I'm not perfect, just a man without a plan, have 35 years on this Earth and I still walk in front those who can't stand for anything they've ever wanted, maybe they're still haunted by the past that once was so vivid, but that's a past you walk away from if you're not getting, any sleep, no laughs, or the joy of Love, after all this is why they call us human, so aren't we all? A little scared, tired. So I wake up every morning with the same thought, No matter what stands in front of me, I will walk.

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