hope so or hope soon disappointment rounds the corner photos of long June again begin to surface missteps misspoken miss the lips that led lips the lied mystified wish that hope was dead
images in picture frames shelves to hold them up wrinkled smiles gloss over eyes that shout for help silence nobody to the rescue no distant sight of shore hopeless
I didn’t do the dishes Then I didn’t brush my teeth Forgot to drain the tub Stale water sat for weeks I didnt take the trash out Bags across the floor Couldn’t bring myself to anything Couldnt take it anymore How ***** How disgusting How ugly can you get I’d rot out of existence Just to get out of this mess
Here's the truth. I lied. When I said my car broke down My vehicle was fine However I very much was not. I apologize It was just easier To say it couldn't drive Rather than I had no drive. Much more relatable Everyones had to replace a part or two I wish fixing me were so simple
i am not faster than tomorrow one cannot outrun the calendar the stopwatch never ceases hands of time are always at work once i grasp this certainty i will move on
it’s been cloudy for so long the rain now brings me comfort hands reach out for shore though the water holds me under lungs still heart beats through the chest will there be a day when i can finally rest
beautiful the different greys each it’s own flavor of melancholy delicious my mouth waters to know their blues hear their cries feel their pain to know we are the same
I vow to never break from writing Though my writing may take breaks For when heart shatters Momentarily wrists do too Stayed away Left pages blank Spent the time just missing you
the stains will not come out. though i have started to like the way they've begun to fade into the fabric almost indistinguishable from cloth as if they were not stains at all
sometimes you catch a glimpse of it the way things used to be momentarily wondrous however fleeting odd what gives rise to such occasions if only one could hold it
“run on sentence!” keep going until you can no longer then take a few more steps worry not about the way you read or if the spelling’s right the world must know the words you weave “run on, run on, run on”
tell myself that i should smile more but it seems i've tuned me out think that i have lost my mind a bit better times are rumors now a grin of course may cross my lips a momentary gift only seconds though of sweet relief still so far from fixed
I've been having nightmares Dreams that shake me out of sleep Moonlit hours Now comprised of open eyes I lie and fight the bedsheets Later and later my eyes shut Until late becomes early Birds chatter as my head hits the pillow Still there is no divorce It seems as though Sunrise brings no solace
What once was twenty times a day has dwindled to maybe twice a month
I wonder how I'm doing? We talk much less myself and I Its difficult to get the whole picture Perhaps distance shows progress Can't hold my hand forever I worry I should worry more Just hope it's going well
swiftly do the thoughts creep steady is their pace march along to hit chords wrong unruly and disgraced vile creatures tip toe purpose all aligned danger for my cuticles poison for my mind
sweet followed by bitter always with a price i’ll stay on the sidelines never live a life steady as it comes same the way it goes something about a high goes hand and hand with lows how do i or you or them decide what stays or goes do we begin enveloped with our fate enclosed can we choose? can we change? is it worth the squeeze? i stood up to life it brought me to my knees
My words are not beautiful Nor are they unique Swear they've all been said before Confessions of the meek Forever dreamed of wearing mask and cape Presently it's hard to sleep Close my eyes so I can lie awake Thinking of promises I didn't keep.