An angler fish, in her final days
Soon to be sent to paradise
Up above, far from her home
Down in the deep grim seas
Oh, all the things she had planned
But now she had no time
So she did what she wanted the most
She rose up from the depths
Watching as the water blued
And the rays penetrated the waves
She would finally see light
Light that wasn't her own
And as she crawled up on the sand
She sat, watching the eclipsing beams
Pierce the clouds
And so, her light faded
She rose up, welcomed to her new home
Where she could live in the light, forever.

Could we start over
Could we try again
In another universe
One where your bitter heart
Beat contently
In the rhythm of my own
One where you look at me
The same way I look at you every day
Catatonically watching your every move
The tenderness in my eyes
Without the numbness of yours
Looking back with aversion
A stare so lifeless
But so beautiful
Watching your eyes trace the room
And wander off
Hoping that I was in more than the peripheral
Just this once
One where you noticed me
Down the hallway
Lost in the thought of you
More than just brushing past each other
With nothing more
Then the breeze drifting towards me
The draft of the cold shoulder
So chilling
One where friends could be enough
Laughing together
Enjoying what little I could have
A familiar smile, yet so distant
In a universe where we were just rocks
On an infinite earth
Meaningless
Emotionless
But no less unlovable
One where we never saw each other
One where this never happened
One where I never dreamed of all the times
We could have been
In another universe
One where I never wrote this poem
Knowing you would never see it

When I hear love songs
I think of you
When I see lovers
I think of you
When I see myself
I think of you
But now i see
You never think about me

Is there a point
Just to watch the flower wilt?
And watch the water cloud
As if it hadn't already spilt
Watching the monitor
Listening to the beats
Waiting for the fall out
And the rhythm to cease
Mourning the loss
Knowing it means nothing
They are gone
And that's the thing
Another heartbreak
But was it real this time?
Just like every other
Just short of sublime
What do you really matter for
In the perpetual race?
What's the point
If you're not in first place?
Global warming
A government cult
Supernovas
But it wasn't your fault
Out in the stygian seas
Do you have a purpose?
Or are you waiting for the candle to die out
For the end of the traveling circus.

Every tear for you
When will you come and wipe them
Rid the days of blue
Mercy to my mayhem

Take me away
Into the light
Godless, I pray
Every day, every night

Into my arms, my love
Let’s leave the world behind
Hear the chirping, the mourning dove
Lets run away, forever intertwined

We could be deities in our own land
Out on our own, our paradise
Love you for all time, hand in hand
Free of vex and free of vice

Is it hard for you to accept
That you would love such a thing?
My little dream, for so long I’ve kept
Hanging on by a thread, our little string

It’s so hard to keep in reverie
All my fantasies are fraying
Because every waking memory
Leaves me droughted, my love decaying

You’re so different in reality
So much colder
Our lovely make believe, you’ll never see
Well both get older

But I’ll never forget you
And I’ll always remember
How you never even knew
That you changed me forever

So we can let it come to an end
And I’ll find peace elsewhere
Your unscathed, I’ve got wounds to mend
Once a dream, now my eternal nightmare

In my dream I wrote a poem like this
I can't recite it fully
But I wrote this in its essence
The one time I can find peace
Escape from the world
Yet my sadness
Leaks into my unsuspecting mind
My dreams aren’t dreams
Just glorified nightmares
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I used to find beauty in difference
But now I only see you
The same you
In everyone
In every labored breath
Of every man and woman
I see your lips,
Your comforting smile
Never felt like the rest
I used to appreciate
How everyone had their distinct features
Their own unique radiance
But the lights are getting dimmer
And yours only seems to glow brighter
I’m staring into the sun
I try to love someone else
But your always there
Shining in the peripheral
I used to be able to see growth in the change
But still, I sit everyday
Mourning your illusory loss
I used to be able to find meaning in the chaos
But now, it’s just chaos
Maybe someday
Someone will show me
The meaning
I've searched for
For so long
I used to understand
I didn't need to question
Why things happened to me
I used to