Life
its the greatest risk we can take
one moment you could be having the time of your life
the next?
you lie in a pool of blood

When I heard the news
I was so happy
I was cured of the blues
I am finally able to see you
We get to do so much
Together
I’m so excited
To see you
After all this time
Of waiting

how could he do this
how could god do this
is there even a god
how could he do everything to me
why me
why did it have to be me to bear all this pain
get one taken from you
and another one get buried six feet
why did it have to be me to go through everything
why did it have to be me to have no talents
why me
why was i chosen to be like this
why do i have to watch everyone live my dreams
why do i have to watch everyone love someone while i’m forced to sit back
why couldnt i be given something
something good
anything
besides this pain.

every time i think of her
it hurts
i love her so much
i long the day i find her
and hope it comes soon

You're the final puzzle piece
You’re the music to my dance
You’re  the final ingredient
You’re the final brick to my building
You’re the final lyric to my song

You Complete Me

If only I could have said good bye
Face to face
And hugged her one last  time

I’ve already missed out
on so much
on being a brother
because if one person
who couldn’t see what they were doing
why would you rip apart a family like that
you’re the judge
but it seems like you didn’t judge hard enough
and because of you
my book
my story
my life
went down hill
and now
i have neither of my sisters
to laugh with or
to talk to
because of one
person

Imagine a world
Where people went to a mirror and said
“Wow I’m beautiful”
Instead of
“I’m ugly”

Imagine a world
Where people talked
Instead of
Declaring war or fights

Imagine a world
Where equality exists
Instead of
Hate

Can’t?
Me either
Make this imagination
Come true

I wish I could go back in time
redo everything
maybe you’d still be alive
if only I knew what would happen
i wish I could’ve fought harder
but now i have a purpose
i’ll make sure nobody else has to go through this
Ever.

You ruined me
You messed with me
You almost killed me
You tried to hide me
You stole my family
You didn’t care for me
You ruined me

I dont love you anymore


and that was the last i heard of him

i wish i could change
that wouldn’t be so bad
maybe id have more friends
have more fun
maybe id finally be happy

maybe then youd finally talk to me
maybe then we could be friends
maybe then id be happy again

I Wish I Could Change

I wish I had the guts
To tell you how I feel
I wish I had the nerve
To  ask you how you felt
I wish I had the guts
To talk to you
I wish I had the nerve
To ask you five words

Five words everyone fears

I wish I had the nerve to ask you

“Will You Go Out With Me?”

what would you choose

dying first
to simply not have to live through the cruelty but let your family suffer through the pain?

yes? you’re selfish.  

or
watching your family die
not letting them to live the joy of their lives and putting them through emence pain but ending their misery and you go through the pain but get to enjoy the world

Die for what you are
die for what you love
die for Who you love
die doing what you love
die being Who you love

and live for it
live for Who you love
live for what you love
live doing what you love
live being what you love

Find what youd die for, and Live for it.

Hate fuels anger
Hate makes us wanna ****
Hate tells us do bad things
Hate makes us do horrible actions
And yet sometimes it works

Love tells us to ask her/him
Love makes us do dumb things
Love makes us live
Love makes life
Love makes people do horrible things
Love makes people ****
Love fules hate

They are right love is strong
So is hate
But love makes people ****

I miss you
and i didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye
I thought I’d seen you again
I hope when it’s my turn I’ve changed the world
And no one else goes through your pain
I hope I get to see you again someday


I love you
I miss you.

I had to leave once again
I wish I didn’t
But at least I saw you
I got to hug you
Laugh with you
Create more inside jokes
Play with you
But most of all
Make more memories with you

Hopes a funny word
Hope keeps us going
Hope keeps us alive
Hope tears us down
Hope kills us
Hopes a funny word

what am I doing wrong
do I not make you smile enough
do I not make you happy enough
do I not listen enough

am i not good enough
am i doing something wrong
am i not pretty enough?

am I just not good enough

I wish I could see you
once again
I wish I could hear your voice
once again
I wish I could play with you
once again
I wish I could joke with you
once again

I still remember your laugh
I still remember your cheer
I still remember your music
I still remember your joy

I would give anything to go through the ups and downs
I would give anything to have another day with you
I would give anything to hear your voice again
I would give anything to see your smile again

I will forever remember you
You will forever be in my heart

no one else can make me smile as much as you is it not obvious enough
or do i just not do the same. you are able to
light up a room can you not see that
all i see is you
nothing else, just you.

it hurts
when your other half
lives across the country
the one you do everything with
*would do
the one that completes you
that makes your darkest days the brightest
within seconds
it hurts
when your best friend
lives thousands of miles away
the one that makes you cry
tears of joy
and pain when you without them
the one that can see past your broken parts
that can heal you in an instant
it hurts
when you cant see the only person
who makes you so happy
that you might just die.

Once upon a time
A day where people talked to each other
Where people used their voice
A day where people spent time outside
Where people enjoyed nature
A day where there were trees
Where animals lived amongst other animals

Now
Now people text
Now people stay quiet
Now people stay cooped up inside
Now people hate outside
Now people slaughter forests
Now people don’t see animals

Once upon a time
A day where people cared what you had to say
Where they would listen
A day where people loved
Where they had feelings
A day where people made noise
Where they played, laughed, talked

Now
Now people hate
Now people ignore
Now people hate
Now people ignore
Now people hate
Now people ignore

Once upon a time
A day where people hate what they didn’t understand
Where they killed the new
A day where killings happened
Where millions died
A day where kids were abused
Where kids were worked in bad conditions

Now
Now people understand
Now people take in the new
Now people save others
Now people are born
Now people taken care of kids
Now people have better conditions

Once upon a time
A day where little was know
Where people killed themselves accidentally
A day where threats could come true
Where dreams couldn’t
A day where people broke
Where people destroyed the unknown

Now
Now people know
Now people know the dangers
Now people stop threats
Now people follow through the dreams
Now people fix
Now people explore

Once upon a time
A day where the water was clean
Where pollution wasn’t a problem
A day where most we’re happy
Where depression was unknown
A day where there was love for everyone
Where everyone had a someone

Little girl you went away
We know why you didn’t want to stay
You left us with broken hearts
Even with all the disagreements and all the anger
All could be healed with a hug and a smile
So many plans and dreams that can no longer com true
The world has lost your talent for music and art
but the greatest loss will be the sound of your laughter
Young women you have guns away again, never to come home
Friend, niece, granddaughter, sister, daughter
May you Rest In Peace but this hole in our hearts may never mend

what i would give to have more time with them both
what i would give to see their smile
what i would give to see their eyes
What i would give to hug them
What i would give to say one sentence to them
What i would give to best their voice
WHat i would give to hold them
WHat i would give to feel their hair
WHat i would give to play once more with them both
WHAt i would give to listen to them
WHAt i would give to hear their laugh
WHAt i would give to eat with them
WHAT i would do to even hear them cry
WHAT i would give to do something they love
WHAT i would do to have more time with them both

The Human Race is rude and immature
The Human Race is kind and understanding
Which would you want to be known for?

i want to be able to be held
by someone i love
i want to be with
someone i love
i want to laugh
with someone i love
i want to cuddle
with someone i love
i want to feel alive
with someone i love
i want to have
someone
someone to be with
someone to love
someone to adore
someone to make me laugh
i want someone

i want you
and it kills me to know
you don’t want me  

i watch you as you smile
with your friends
wishing i could smile with you

i wish you wanted me
and it kills me to know
you don’t wish for me

i watch you being you
wishing i could be
with you

i want to be with you
and it kills me to know
you don’t want me

you stole my heart
if only I could steal yours
then maybe just maybe
you would be mine

if only...

School
A place where people learn
School
A place where people make friends
School
A place where people get bullied
School
A place where people have the most stress
School
A place where people have anxiety attacks
School
A place that pays teachers way too less
School
A place that teaches the wrong info
School
A place to learn

it feels different
everything does
nothings as special
birthdays now just a day where you get older
christmas now just like any other holiday
it’s colder
the world is harsh
people are bitter
the earth is dying
everyone else also growing up
people getting more sad
other swallowed by darkness and death
shootings everywhere
no one paying attention to the real problems
hatred is becoming more present
everyone blinded by politics
and the politicians are corrupt

a hole
lays deep in me
deep into my heart
that hole takes a part of me
everyday
That hole eats at me
it makes me wonder
why.
That hole slowly swallows me
and takes me to my darkest places
That hole destroys me
and makes me shed tears
That hole will forever be in me
and not even time can heal it

That hole's name?

grief

if you want to have an abortion
then have it
dont let anyone say otherwise
it’s you’re body
do what you want with yourself
its nobody’s choice but yours

can you not see it?
can you not see how much you make me smile
can you not see how i light up when you are near
can you not see how much you make me laugh
can you not see how much i love being around you
can you not see how obvious the signs are

are they not obvious enough
are they coming off as too much

or am I
just not good enough

I wonder what it’d be like to meet you
I wonder why you did what you did
I want to meet, only to let you know
You tore my family and I apart
Because of you I’ve spilled too many tears
I wonder what it’s be like to tell you the damage you did
I wonder what’d it’d be like to ask you why you went against her wishes why you let her die
I wonder why you did the damage you did

I* still remember color of your eyes,
and I do not think that you've remembered the color of mine.
I remember what your voice and heartbeat sounded like,
and I always dream of hearing them both one more time.
everyday, I hope you will call once more,
saying that you love me, the way I do.
I think its time I stop loving *you.

By my sister who is now six feet under

One cold day
death stopped by
he wasnt here for me, I could tell
but instead
took someone I love
he took someone away from me forever
with just a snap of his fingers
She was gone

you can’t say it’s wrong
you can’t say it’s bad
if you’ve never been through it
you can’t have a valid opinion
until you’ve experienced it
so stop judging women
if you can’t understand it