Self-reflection
Drives course correction
Why limit to the old and grey?
They have less time to change
We have one life
Irrespective of all drives
Bring no pain to others
Some people have a dream
But will they ever go to it?
Can you fulfill something if it exists in jest?
Time versus success, why are our skills discussed?
I wish I knew the answers
I wish that I could help you
But I was born into the world
I never helped form you

Brave aviators
Prepared to fly, leaping off
A shattered foundation

Carved my own path
You followed your way
But in the aftermath
Which will make history?

Down below
Entrenched in a trench
Of barnacles, sea cucumbers
Denizens of moist seas
Lies a single figure
In the form of a statue
The symbol of a man, looking toward the sky
Hopeful expression, rusted by nature
An idealist at rock bottom, lying to himself, in wake

Seems like the world gets worse
Point which we can’t converse
Crime and drama on TV
May sway you to agree
News founded in the dollar
Reveal to us the true color
The world’s seeming decay
Preys on naiveté
Violence brings lasting effects
Raises paranoia to its apex
Corrupting their perception
Lowering our countries reception
News turns to fear
No wonder we want to disappear
Only corrupt is an illusion
Associated with confusion
Watch out for what you view
Twisting your mind like a *****
Implanted ideas from the mass media
That’s called brainwashing in the encyclopedia
Never pure evil
What are we? Medieval?
Hold onto the good
It’s just misunderstood
...
It wasn’t left in your childhood

When the light dims to grey
When nothing tangible heals your soul
Some still find that joy
Some will unwind that toy
That is the reality of life
Cycles of death and rebirth
Until we finally give in
But if we exist to exist
How could we enjoy this world?
Grasping at straws made of sand
Slipping through the cracks
As they get wider, deeper, harder
I just wanted to hold the hands of the hurt
Now I have lost myself in the scars of nature
Goodbye my joy
Swallowed by the nation
Do we exist to just keep going on?

Why must my friends always run?
Do they have no place to be safe?
What happened to their home?
Has it been stained by hate?
If only I could say to them
You have one life with no reset
We were never equal
The dealer poisons our hands
But with the cards we have been dealt
We no longer have to dwell
For our welts enhance our strength
I know that you want to go back
I wish I had
But as the seasons change from bright to gray
All we have left is today

Illness persists
Through spit and violence
An apex predator
A fraction of a molecule
Here's the equation:
Size has no correlation
To power or strength
For even the tiniest of specks
Punch in bunches
Evolving their very existence
To remove someone elses
Quite familiar, how similar...
The law of life states:
As long as life exists, it will seek to break and take
Harmony is a 7 letter word
On a fractured line
Suggestions to stop it
Fall out of range
From the moment of birth
We are proof of life, eternal strife
Beyond the clouds
Is there heaven for breakers of paradise?

Lifted above
Ascending above our heads
Arms support
A sleeping body
Exhausted from crisis
Tired of fighting
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A rival appears
One that never passed grade school
We tried to get them away
Cough
More coughing
She's awake...
The ruiner of our days
Will be blocked
By the woman
With a broken bat
She may not win...
But she'll try
Until she becomes a sacrifice.

I could change it
But I am one man
A group could change it
But they would be silenced
A generation could change it
But they are part of the system
Humanity could change it
But they are unaware of the problems
Someone could change it
But do they exist?

High-spirits
Crash down like a wave
Day to day
Overtakes us all
2 AM
Late night thoughts
Dedicated to forgotten exams
How the world will be programmed
Paranoia has a hold
Seeped into the mold
Society
Yet do we really care about it?
Not right now
Sealed close by
Pushing forward is hard to try
But would we rather die?
I didn't think so.
If we all had the charm
A heart that could do no harm
Soul bursting with love
It'd be humanity's dove
That is who you are

A life with no zest
Taste has been iced
Sight is no longer realized
All I hear is scratches and fakes
Smelling the rot coming from my core
In denial of the truth
Cause with fatigue, moving is a chore
Inside a pit of poets, I stand out
Raw and unfiltered to show my situation is dire
Going out for parties bring no satisfaction
When waking up is a chore, how can I live past tomorrow?
If I could find the source
I would stick it
But when the hemispheres lie on opposite ends
How can I function with a malfunction?

Considerable outrage
Suits some situations
Yet those who exploit it
Wear the suits

Living through illusions
Becoming disillusioned
Leading to exclusion
Delusions and confusion
Packaging hope into an infusion
Marketed as inclusion
Executed as intrusion
Running into seclusion
Transfusion, hypoxia to asphyxia
Left with no ideas except extrusion

All around, up and down
War with sound
Brought down
To the depths of my soul
All I say is "farewell"
To who I was, who I could be
If only I knew what I ever was
So much noise, all around
Going mute, turning around
The choir bleeds with sound
Wailing now, flailing around
They have the world
They want the universe
All I need, all I desire
Peace with quiet
Quiet with peace

Picked up the phone
Just to call you
...
Why?
Even a lock has transparency.

Grim reaper's howl
Spares no one
Yet when the reaper comes
It is always a shock

Bottomless
Open for all
When it calls out
I want to jump in...
All that'll await
Is the ending
Of my story

You're all broken fools
Yet I'm just like you
Who will fix our strings?

Humanity has lost its humanity

Falling
Bodies descending
Closer to the ground
I only have
So many arms
Not everyone
Will have a soft landing
To those I'll say:
I apologize
For I am no hero
Mighty as a statue
Nor quick as the wind
Instead
I am bound by mortality
Pushed down via flesh and bone
Do the best I can
With the little I have to work with.

All I'd love is some time
To get out of my mind
Denied, every time
Some days it's hard to realize
That the fault is mine
But on an island
You can't signal for help
S.O.S
Stands for Stay Out Saviors
Pray to fix my behavior
If only it didn't go to the bin
Heard, noted
No time to waste
On such a disgrace
Carried here by time and space
Outpaced in every field
Math
Science
English
I get by
But never seized it
Grasping at concepts outdated and complex
Deep in the complex, no help for me
Too stubborn to ask
Well then, how did I pass?
For once
Let's see if I can stand at my apex
No need for respect
Fly from me, I'll stay buried in the projects.

Change takes time
That's why patience is a virtue
One without the other
Yin without yang
Good with no evil
One must exist
For there is nothing
Until there is something

Fighting to move forward
Only takes us back
Aggression without direction
Brings us closer to destruction
Director of chaos
Archbishop of hatred
I would cry out for peace
Humaniy does not know what it means
Species destroyed
Nature discarded
I know now
It will soon put us to rest

When I was growing
Shoot, I still am
Everything was a classic
Learning in class, or as I called it
The resting hour
Spent my days inside
Not with the others
Mothers with their sons
Taking advantage of the sun
Afraid?
I was.
Still am, yet not sure why
Sixth sense?
Chemical mishap to restrain my membranes?
Maybe, maybe...
Spent more time as Shaggy
But with my daily frown
Should've called me Charlie Brown.

If my vocal cords
Can't produce a sound
To save the joy you've drowned
Unfortunate
Cannot save you
Why even continue?
Hand back my time, detinue
Or as I lay down
Gazing up at your frown
You're not just a noun
Remove the ****** gown
No longer in that town...
Hidden away in the brown
Freed from a breakdown
Prevented a meltdown
Like a flame eclipsed by a wave
Spirits never caved
The soul I had to save...
...no longer a slave
In the deepest blue
Try to shake off the residue.

Significance
What is left in the ruins of humanity?
Peacefully asleep, no longer awake
Memories of dust, happy in silence
Wishes are born from a good heart
But in a land of barren souls
How can one save all?
Such a shade of depression
A replica of once was
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On days like this
I see familiar faces turn into strangers
I'm going nowhere but I feel like a traveler
Not in my own home, nor my nation
When it all ends
I hope it's a beautiful song
I'd want a lullaby over a metal song
For at the end of our days
Angst and terror will no longer reign
No king to usurp the throne
Cause when we are all gone
None can oppose
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My voice cannot return
My prayers have faltered
If I wanted an answer
I'd be better making one myself
Longing for treasured times
In a chest with no key
Waiting for the day
When all is forgotten
Living off of vague hope
That billions will drop the hubris
Band together and deny ignorance
But when I yell
I hear no echo
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This weight of the world
Cannot be sheltered alone
My skin and bones
Wish for the end of the unknown
I hear the music box
But the tune is continuous
The theme of all of us, going down swinging
What do I swing at? Where is the bat?
Down at the 9th with the dignity of a doormat
So uptight, lost my appetite
Nothing's black and white yet so many deceive
What is the birthright of humans that say "goodnight"?

Never asked for life
Asking for death, request denied
A bear trap, no longer bearable
Endurance has its limits
Still in my youth and I'm tapping out
I quit, not out of selfishness
But selflessness
Who wants to wake up and see the face of separation?
Split down the middle, asymmetrical
Just like my mood, one or the other
Pain or pleasure
Denied of leisure
Looking for treasure
All I find are stressors

Tick
Tock
Click of a clock
Every time the pendulum swings
We lose cherished things

Discussing philosophies
Brings out antiquities
So, when discussing those who believe
That their belief means nothing
Do not discuss their way
But how they came to it

I know it's illegal
I know I could be better
But this
Is all I've ever known
If I must
Die in a heist
Stealing to live
Protecting the ones
Who understand the most
My people...
So be it
I'll end my life
Doing something good
Selfless
Not selfish
It's morally flawed
But what else is left?
Wasn't born
To act as a renegade
Don't look down on me...
It's how I keep on fighting
My lineage is already spoiled
What's one more?

Where does the heart
Meet satisfaction?
Does it come with a place
Or a kind enough action?
I guess I’ll never know
For today is slow
Childish feelings
Cloud throughout my mind
Bundled in pairs
Of trouble and danger
Someone gave you all my love
Who was the one?
I guess I’ll never understand
That’s what my friends are telling me
It’s not the season for heartbreak
Falling down
White flakes covering up
Forever remaining unchanged
What have I done?
Just having fun
My own breed
Is not your own
I guess I’ll never comprehend
Unless the ocean waves
Tap the heavens
But I’ve already moved on
At the end of days
It’ll seem like nothing
So for now
The clouds separate
I remain unchanged.

Immaculate
Not in this world
Nor any other
Teeth sharing a gap
****** front teeth
Impurity
In this world
In many more
Gang shootouts
At 3 in the morning
Flawless corruption
Impeccable filth
Mix both up
Cocktail of existence
The flavor is immaculate

Free to fly
The illusions we choose
A beautiful life
Telling you to live by example
Until the isolation defines your sight
Hey, are you truly happy?
Do you wake up in strife?
How long can you keep going
As the world takes away from you?
Remember, I love you
But the world turns hands to fists
Charity to chastity
No choice but to fight
Now watch as we fall
How can I set an example?
My positivity has turned to poison

Home of security doors
None can be hurt
But none are invited either

Hope
Despair
Both apples
Fallen from the same tree

Weighing me down
Jacket with memories of the past
What my life is--
Correction
What it used to be
How else shall I run forward?
Shackles in my heart
Unlocked not with a key
Sometimes to move along
Restrictions must be lifted
I'm sorry my past
To jump into the night sky
With abandon
Praising the sky above
Must cave into my heart's demands
I'll impound my cries
For tomorrow
Appreciation will see me soon
Lead on now my body
A sacrifice has been made

Viper, cobra
Hands of an assassin
Rabbit, hare
Legs of a runner
Combined together
Prey and predator
Uniting as one
To defy a single endeavor
To crumble an enterprise
From deep inside

Another day left to waste
Lying in wait
Purpose begins to fade
I know it is a fake
When will the ones bound by the heart
Leave my embrace?
Trapped in my headspace
No room for pace, it is all a chase
Tracing the space into the outline of a face
Long erased, out of place
Another day of being replaced
Sinking into disgrace
A life defaced

I clenched my hand
Warm as the sun
Shook yours
Cold as snow
Together we may make neutrality
But the fight that shall come
With the construction of the foundation
Drives me away
For your disturbed insides
Push me back a ways

A harsh winter breakup
Heist of a jewel
End times of the dead
Terrible tragedies
Fear personified in one
Wars that ask
Have we been fighting in vain?
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There's a film for it all.

The moon, I smile at you
Every time I feel alone
At least one thing never changes
After all, I still see you

Behind that splendid plain
Ice, piled high
A midnight sun, resting on top
Like a silhouetted candle
It may be cold
But it has never been so inviting.

When you meet for the last time
No one knows
It will be the final one

Societal evolution
Should simplify scenarios
Yet in our modern times
Which rapidly change
Things only got convoluted

Concrete
Concave
A con of all
In a carnival
Hollow has no equal
A thrill ride with no sequel
Wait a couple of years, rebooted
Those who booed it will soon salute it
Extended from the mind into beautiful ruin
On a beautiful day
We all tell beautiful lies

Shimmering stars
In a twirling vortex
I see true beauty
Not the human beauty
Of adjustments, lifts, and edits
But natural, plentiful
I have seen true beauty
It was here all along.

Lights, so bright
A party, let's celebrate tonight
All the people I like are here
But still, there's something I fear
As people dance, sing, and drink
I can't help but look out the window
Glancing fast
Looking for reprieve
At the happiest time
Of the happiest night
I still feel no safe
As I look left to right
These feelings, so tense
It is hard to trust
When it all leads to a fight
So tired, so tired...
Maybe it's best to leave, to take flight

Fighting for you
Fighting for...who?
Fighting for...
For...
Me?

Truth
Distorted by the perceiver
People fight to prove theirs
Reminders of how primal we are