Hold on, to your horses boys
I'm trying to make my mind up
I've been played so many times before
In this game of love or luck
And the knife hurts when you draw blood
I might be tough, but not much
let you touch me, it's a rush
Let you hold me, it's enough
If you hurt me, I'll show you
What it feels like to be lower
than life

Fighting sleep
in the belly of a dragon
missed the rescue boat and sank with the anchor
missed the message that you were coming around
blame it on the enemy now
wish it could be different somehow,
but we are two lost strangers in a packed crowd
The freedom taste so bitter
and the love we had just had to splinter
I missed you last December,
but I moved on from that damaged winter

I feel the wind and it's you touching my face,
a flashback of a better day
maybe sometime early last June,
when it was me and you painting in the backyard
having laughs so hard, watching you play guitar
Dancing to the beat of the bass,
While you licked your lips when I kissed your face

Perfection, as the clock stopped
and we were two lost souls whose paths finally crossed
It was you and me honeymooning illegally
reaching for passion, in the arms of eternity
but all that is a memory gone
trapped inside my brain in the unknown

with a lost soul and an empty apartment
Because all good things fall apart and
it might be hard to let it all go
because our dreams were all that we know
But I've took more than I needed to take
Learned from love, and made some mistakes
Gave it chance and I'm not looking back
On the unknown magic that we once had
On the love that hurt more than it needed to bleed
because your pain is everything I need
to set my broken heart free

The first time, wasn't awesome
I was nervous, I was scared to death
I was quiet, I wasn't confident
but I gave in, to my deepest sin
and I lost my breath
it wasn't worth it

I was 17, it was way too young
for a girl to be losing everything for fun
But I caved in, under all the pressure
gave it up to a boy who doesn't measure up
to man at all,
he was not a boy you want
or the kind of boy you take home to mom
he's not the american dream
he's a punk kid packed full of nothing

Stupid me, I should have known
I should of let all that drama go
He left me with a broken soul
and a shattered heart
with no place to go
Then he took my perfect world a part
and I realized how life was hard
cuz a fool who played the part of sweetheart

He gave me drugs all the time, I was so twacked up that I lost my mind and
now I'm stuck cleaning up the mess he made
all the doubts in my head turn another shade
another color
I want something new, a better offer
What I need is to find myself again,
what I need to be is my only friend

I need another door to open up
lost my opportunity because I gave it up
all for love
played the games, and I've had enough
What I need is a second chance
and What I need is to get me back
cuz

Love is a risky business
Add drugs and it turns into ****
You play games, that have no rules
Lies wasted cuz it's all your fuel
forget what your trying to do
all you blame is you
cuz you act a fool and
breaking away can be difficult
being an addict in the unknown
Got to learn to live your life and grow
and leave all the dysfunctional
you gotta man up, and grow some *****
leave the lust that tears you apart
gotta figure out what you really want

Got put yourself first
even when its hurts
Gotta lose all the jerks
gotta look up in a mirror and take a stand
gotta figure out you don't need a man
to hold your hand
gotta get your life back on track and
forget all that brings you down
take good hard look at yourself
and come back around
They don't know what their losing now
Found a whole new woman and a whole new crowd

forget love for the time being
and remember being 17,
remember how naive you could be
when a boy says he'll give you everything
***** that **** and get it yourself
remember you don't need a mans help
remember it'll take some time
but you're a whole new person,you're diamond
in the rough, life is tough
but it's way too short to be serious
in love so young
you deserve the world
and your freedom
don't owe anything to anyone
just watch who you'll become

And if you want the world in the palm of your hands
take a firm hard grip on your second chance.
And don't look back
on the past, and be grateful for all that you have
You gotta make better choices
don't throw it all away for all them boys and
parties, and fun and lots of poison
don't make the same mistakes I made
cuz I learned everything the hard way
Hear what I gotta say
Cuz when it pours it rains
Get yourself out of a gutter
out of a rut
Get sick and tired cuz enough is enough
Show them what your made of
And don't give your dreams up, all for love

Pay attention
Hear the voices reconnect?
The traffic dies down simultaneously
The summer entwines and untangles
The skies reach out
The dandelions bloom
Feel the subtle changes
Purity is raining

Capture
my radiance
Tonight when I reveal
All the things I have to offer
Frame
My innocence
Tomorrow as you reveal
All the things you have to share
So that
we have
The only
picture
Of
The depth of love

Electricity behind those eyes
A kiss that seemed to last all night
a smile, a wink
A whisper to sleep
With arms to hold me eternally

Escaping the distance beside me
Lying in a sea of false hope
Destined to sink into the bottom of the bluest of black holes
Reaching out to sunnier side of the fence
Unmindful of being sensitive
Disgusted with myself;
Trapped inside of hell
Giving into temptations, save me
Losing sight of all my blessings daily
Wishing I could rewind time and fix the cause
Wishing I could put my life on hold and pause
But I'm trapped in waves of lies above my head
Drowning in your adversity instead
While your laughing because you knew it couldn't be
You love the stench of your own misery
And the weight of guilt upon my conscious
Burdens me a heavy distress
Problems I eventually confess
And you vilify me nonetheless
But it hurts to have to caused so much pain
Lost devotion and found a web to weave my shame
Breathing gets easier day by day as I'm looking into my reflection
Swallowing my vanity to find a whole new perception;
I'm forgiven somewhere deep inside
But lust could not survive the hills we climb
You swear you'd die with all your lies
The indications I never recognized
The facts that keep me awake at night
Knowing we were never right
My stomach's turning,
fuel burning
a few things I still need to learn and
get over and just forget
all our empty promises
Like loyalty and trust
the things we never get enough of
The things we gave up and broke
How lust has me like a choke hold
It's got me wearing false smiles and happiness
Keeping the distance between the both of us
In the sea of covers, waves of lies
Captive of the guilt that keeps me alive
Lost the key, hopped the fence
Suffering in consequence
The things I need, the hurt you bleed
I loathe the stench of my own misery