As always, when no one's awake,
my thoughts begin to eat me alive.
When I’m weakest—
when no one's watching—
I finally break down.
My eyes bleed
until sorrow drains from my face,
leaving nothing left to see.
My heart sinks
a little deeper each time
into a dark, hollow space
no one could ever reach.
There, my sorrows feast on me
second by second—
yet somehow, I’m still here.
No liquor strong enough
to keep me from drowning.
I walk into
a never-ending darkness,
awake—
in flesh,
adrift in shadow.