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110 · Jun 2022
I worry
Jonas Jun 2022
The future is a panic attack,
selfinflicted.
It's to much
I can't stop
neither stay in the same spot.
110 · May 2024
Imposter
Jonas May 2024
I'm doing fine aren't I?
I think you said so once
Wouldn't hurt you to tell me more often
I still can't see it
I'm getting better at it tho

I've done more and seen more
Than others do in their life time
And I'm far from done
I keep creating
Keep evolving
Getting better at it
Sooner or later you'll learn
One way or the other

I'm a good person, a good friend
To some
Good looking, funny too
At times
Financially secure
For now

So why don't I feel it
Why can't I see it
Belive it
When I look in the mirror
Why can't I live it?

I keep changing, growing
But will I ever grow out of this?
The ghost of my childhood still hangs around
It's settled in
110 · Dec 2022
Lumberjack
Jonas Dec 2022
Hand me an axe

Point me to the nearest forest
to cut down

Hand me a shovel
tell me which way the river should flow

Maybe than I could be fulfilled
in anohter pointless enterprise

Tell me what to do
I don't want to be responsible for myself anymore
109 · Dec 2023
Judgement
Jonas Dec 2023
How dare me
I cann see
The judgment in your eyes

And you ask me why I look away
You ask me why I hide
It's quite easy baby

When faced with a world like that
I have no power left  
No will, no reason left to fight

Excuse me,
Fot trying to achieve happiness
Before my death

If that makes me
a coward
so be it
109 · Jul 2021
Literally
Jonas Jul 2021
All I have is you,
my work,
and the privilege of being young,
of having time to waste away.
All I have is you.
109 · Apr 2022
spring date
Jonas Apr 2022
she jumped from the coffins lying in the window screen,
death casually says hello,
while we're strolling through the city
,
but when it comes knocking for real,
racing right up to her,
she stays still.
109 · Apr 2021
fairy tails
Jonas Apr 2021
love
hate
peace?

never
ever
again?

whole
broken
design of mine?

hope
despair
endlessly

forever ever after
dead or alive
107 · May 2024
Dying embers
Jonas May 2024
Give some hope to the hopless
Youth
Shine a little light
It's so dark and cold
Here,in some random back alley
I'm all alone
Sunk into the wall, I'm on the ground

On my last couple breaths
I don't feel strong, I'm afraid, but
Bleeding out from all the wounds and scars
That I've collected over the years
I can't help but smile faintly
Knowingly
It's an inside joke, you wouldn't get it

I'm dying
Here
Going out, together with the rest of the world

Will you hold my hand?
Gift me some warmth
Pad my head one last time
Like my mom used to do

Last words
Tell me, was I any good?
107 · Aug 2023
Nightlife
Jonas Aug 2023
Flashing lights and neon sings
You're wearing horns líke a halo above your head
and spread out in ink,
are wings across your back.

Your hips are moving, lips are blooming in crimson red.
Leaving your scent behind like a tail
a silver thread, a lost shoe
an open invitation for someone who might want to follow,
might want to fall for you.

Smoke in the air blending in with the collected noise,
muffled laughter,
shouting of countless people in a single voice.

The night air is filling your lungs,
rain drops down your hair, down your cheeks
hiding your tears til the morning comes.

Your shirt is getting wet ,you can feel it on your skin
Life's soaking through,
tonight you'll be dancing amongst your kin.

Music is playing aloud, the bass is resonating in your bones
You're vibing,
it's waking up your body, your soul, drowning out your thoughts,
Don't think, just move and feel
let your instincts take over,
finally you can bring your worries to heel.

Roaming through a maze of dim rooms,
clutching your drink you stumble, you wander.
Till you find someone to hold on to for the night
skin on skin,
There will be plenty of time left later,
to reflect and ponder.

Here looks and lips get locked
in an active, meaningless exchange
Their fingernails caressing the back of your neck
you close your eyes, surrender, let go of control,
Can you feel it?
The spectrum layed out in front of you?
Your full emotional range

Hello,
nice to meet you, nice to have met
good night, good morning,
It's time to lay down now, let's head to bed.

Now that the night is gone by,
it was over before I knew,
time is up,
tomorrow I might still smell of you.
107 · Jul 2021
Of candle light and stars
Jonas Jul 2021
;
You are human, not a moth.
Choose your flame.
And burn.
Burn.
Jonas Feb 2024
Hi, you up?

I'm a curious person
I gotta ask, I gotta know

What's it like
To hug you from behind?
What are you like
When there is no one else around
beside me and you?

I hold you now closely
In my mind
To my chest
Upclose
My face in your hair

What’ it like?
To hold hands , your skin on my skin
What’s the taste of your lips
When we kiss?
The taste of your neck
As I am doubling down?

Experiments of chemistry
Are conducted in the dark.
Your pretty face blushing
Your perfum in my nose
Your neck plus my palm
The rising tension in between
Laws of attraction
What does it all add up to?

To hear you breathe,
Your whispered words
To hear your mind shut off,
Your voice slip out
As it grows louder and louder
And finally give in

Give up
Surrender your controll
To me
Give me permission,
Please
I beg you
Let me take over
Let me take care of you

Green light, red light
Lights out
Now switch

Oh to just trace your curves
To do it
Over and over
Up and down
Again and again
Togehter and apart
You have me mesmerized

What’s it like for to time lose it’s meaning?
To get lost intertwined
Inseparably?
Our feet to be indistinguishable
From each other
From the end of the bed?
How soft are your thighs?
Careful I bite
Will you leave your marks on me?

Please,
You have me on my knees
Before you
You have me
All of me
I worship you women

I’m actually nervous
I hope I don’t bore you
I hope I’m enough
For I’m already lost

The shape of your breast already imbedded
The memory of us forever burned in my mind
As a precious little thing we did back then
Do you remember?
Will you remember me?

It takes the breeze to cool us off
Drenched in sweat
Sunk in each other
The magical hour
When walls fall down and secrets come out
When bonds are formed
In the cover of the night

Time to rest
To fall asleep,
Wake up next to each othe in the morning to come
Togehter?

Tell me
What’s it like?
To share a cigarette,
Coffe in the morning.
How do you take it?
Black, no milk no sugar?

Let’s go for a walk.
Let’s eat, I’ll cook
Let’s do it today, tomorrow and the day after
Till days turn to weeks
and weeks to How-was-your-day‘s
Tell me.

What's it like
In the night?
Laying next to you?
What’s it like to wake up
next to you?
For now and ever?

What are you like
Upclose?

Cutie
What I'm saying is
I'd like to take you out
107 · Mar 2024
Courting royalty
Jonas Mar 2024
Intellectualising my desire
Making up excuses
No shame
I don't even want it
Smart ***

Really
No preassure here
Whatever you feel the most comfortable with
You can come on over
We'll just talk
Promise

Spitting lies
To her, to myself
I'm doing fine
Trying to get by
Doing right by
Her

Ah yes
The great she
It's all for her
I put a princess on a pedestal

Watch her reign
Maybe she can tame
Me, the animal
106 · May 2024
A letter to my younger self
Jonas May 2024
Walk a mile in my shoes
No, better even
Try running

Borrow my eyes for one evening
To see the world
From my point of view
To see as I do
To see how I see you

Maybe then you'll believe me
How great you really are
I do
I really love you

Maybe then you could see it too
106 · Aug 2023
the library of scars
Jonas Aug 2023
All those little scars and marks,
left scattered over your body ,
shaping you,
making you, you.
All those habits and traits
specifics of the people close to you
forming familiarity.

A scent , a gesture, a sound
can take you back to the past
to the company of loved ones.
A quick pain to the chest as a reminder

Nostalgia triggered like dandeion pedals surrend to the wind
before you know it they're gone, the moment's over
already fading away
Added to the great library of what came before,
categorized and stored,
prioritized by what's more important and what is less.
To gather dust,
be forgotten or altered by time.

It's so beautiful it breaks my heart.

So keep collecting your scars and marks,
while you're at it,
maybe you could leave some on me as well.
106 · May 2024
FGM, (I)ntact e.V.
Jonas May 2024
You raised me
In love and bliss
Held me for years
Made me feel safe
Taught me
Values of family and community

Just so
One day you could just barge in
No greetings, no warnings
I've been snatched
And decide now is the time I get to know pain
Pin me down to the ground
You'll scar me forever

Called in a "specialist"
Old woman torturer
It's a full time job
Who with ***** nails and wrinkled hands
With whatever sharp tool they could find
Laying around, what's on demand
Starts to cut, to etch
To scratch and scrape out parts of me
Touch sacred ground
Taking away what's mine forever
What I didn't yet know much about
But one thing I do know
They made sure it hurt

I don't understand, Ma
What have I done to deserve this?
White and red flashes
Dots of light
Someone is screaming
Loud
Till my voice cracks and finally gives out
After how long I couldn't tell
I passed out
But not for long

Conscious again just in time
Blurry eyes
To feel the faceless monster
Use thorns to mend
Trying to held together
What she has destroyed almost completly
Taken from me
Forever

And you're the orchesstrator of the crime
Almost unspeakable
Even if I'd regain my voice
You let this happen to me
Even helped!
Why? Why? Why?
What have I done to you?
Where did we go wrong?

"She's lost her innocence
She's all grown now"

No not lost but taken
In the most violent, cruel way
The highest sin, the biggest betrayal
For it came from within,
From the most trusted, my own, my family
Literally raised me as a lamb
To the slaughter

Threw me in the dirt
Kept me on the ground
And watched me get cut with open eyes
Who listened to my voice break and give out
Begging, sobbing, shaking
Mommy make it stop

And you still call me dear daughter
After?
What nerve
How did you feel
When you saw me rest
Barely alive
While infections running wild
In my body?
Lying there helplessly
Still somewhat there, alive but not really
Caged in some ditch
Hidden away for weeks or eternity
Who can say

If I'm "lucky" I won't die here
In a poddle of my own ***, pus and blood
Unable to move, eat or sleep
A stick stuck between my legs
What once was a *****
To clog the drain
I have no tears left in me to weep

It was done as it has been for generations
It is our culture, normal in our tribe
You outsider can't possibly understand
It is proper
To torture your own daughter
Do like she did to me before
My own mother

So some man can check later
That you're ready for marrige
To make sure
Your body never know pleasure
Where's the **** lover boy?
So you forever know your place
Before you really know anything
Marked for life

We'll tell your friends, your children later
About the honour
Don't worry
We'll cut you open and sew you up again
When you get into labour
We'll do it again and again
We got you sister, you and your sisters sister

Only then do you belong
When yu're cut down to form
To fit the norm

Maybe in another life
Another lifetime
You can begin to understand
And heal
In another world maybe
You could get your revenge
On your perpetrators and their friends
105 · Apr 2022
Me?
Jonas Apr 2022
Me?
I like to create
I like books and music
and I get lonely sometimes.

That's all I can say for certain.
105 · Jun 2024
Untitled
Jonas Jun 2024
“Trees are poems the earth writes upon the sky, We fell them down and turn them into paper,
That we may record our emptiness.”
― Kahlil Gibran
105 · Mar 2023
any therapy spots open?
Jonas Mar 2023
I grew up loved
yet I feel unworthy of it

I don't deserve,
can't accept the happiness

Mother what heave you done
What am I to make of this?

I just want it to stop ,
stop feeling like this

There's no purpose for this kid
Good times have never lasted long here.
104 · Feb 5
Tagesschau
Jonas Feb 5
Du lachst
Die Erde brennt
Quatsch tut sie gar nicht!
Das ist eine Verschwörung der Milchbauerverbände
Check deine Fakten!
"Ich höhr prinzipiell jedem zu"
Demokratisch gewählt heißt legitimiert
Kann gar nicht falsch sein
Geh mal weg mit 1933, oder doch 1984?

Du lachst
Die Wälder rauchen, husten nur noch
Alle Spezies sind tot bis auf zwei
Gut
Passt so auch besser in ein Kinderbuch
Nicht zu viel Diversity
Das sexualisiert unsere Kinder

Du machst
Nichts mehr
Was willst du schon tun kleiner Mann?
Molotovs bauen lernen?
xD
Schade um den Alkohol
Mach dir lieber noch ein Bier auf

Kann man nichts machen
Ist eh zu heiß draußen um sich aufzuraffen
Noch ein wenig Geschichten erzählen, gemeinsam
Von jetzt ist die Zeit und es ist noch nicht zu spät
Jeder Zyniker weiß längst
Aufwärts geht's nur im Telefon
Weißer Screen im schwarzen Raum
Was sind schon verschenkte Stunden in einer kaputten Welt?

Du weinst
Nicht mehr
Schon lange nicht mehr
Wann war das letzte Mal?
Der Blick ins Leere, endlich taub
Und nichts tut mehr weh

Nehmt mir alles was ich habe
Noch mehr Müll für mein Gehirn bitte
Im 10 Sekunden Format

Zu Letzt geht die Hoffnung
Schwimmen
Ertrinken im Mittelmeer
104 · Apr 2022
tinder
Jonas Apr 2022
Makes me want to swallow a gun,

pull the trigger til the chamber is empty.
104 · Sep 2023
Vibe
Jonas Sep 2023
Turn up the music,
louder and louder still.
Till my ears bleed and I go deaf.
Till my thoughts become lyrics
my body in resonance, same frequency.
My feet to the rhytm, my heart a drum to the beat.

Till I find ecstasy in drowning out myself
104 · Sep 2023
20's
Jonas Sep 2023
Please,
can someone just tell me what I'm supposed to do,
where I'm supposed to go.

Just tell me how the world works,
give me something to believe,
it doesn't even have to make total sense.

There is something deeply wrong with me,
tell me what's wrong with me.
Just give me a reason, a story
give me something to hold on to.

So I can move on.

Can someone just care for me please?
Take over,
just for a little while, so I can rest.
Take a break form being an adult,
cause it never seems to stop.

I'm so done
104 · Jun 2023
sarcasm
Jonas Jun 2023
cause peace was never an option
104 · Sep 2022
inner child
Jonas Sep 2022
Like magnets spinning in the air
we lose each other just to find us again
you pull me in

Like grans puzzle pieces on white table cloth
we find out how we stick together
we add to each other, to make a hohle
103 · Mar 2024
Animal farm
Jonas Mar 2024
Some people are just awful
Rotten to the core
Walking this earth in misery
They try their best to drag everyone around
Down with them

Come join me
In the mud
Pig
Let's wallow
103 · Dec 2023
Untitled
Jonas Dec 2023
I used to be
Radiating calmness
An anchor
A place to rest
A moment of peace

Now I'm more of a
Dark pit
Desperation and Sadness
Weak, indifferent, powerless
Oozing nothingnes
A void to swallow you all hole

Maybe I'm both
103 · May 2022
exhale
Jonas May 2022
Smoke in my lungs
to fill up the emptiness in my chest

Nicotine to my head
for when the world overwhelms me again

Once every day.
103 · Jul 2021
Sing me your lullaby
Jonas Jul 2021
Awaken children.
We have a long day ahead of us.
Lust,
envy,
loss,
hunger,
scorn,
hate,
despise,
loneliness,
b­itterness,
addiction,
sadness,
hope,
more sadness,
awaits.
Time to go.
Nostalgia soon will follow.
Of childhood dreams well spend.
You'll get to sleep again.
Awaken children.
.
102 · Apr 2022
daily life
Jonas Apr 2022
At one crossroad
at one minute
at any time
a hundred lifes can meet,

Yet no one notices, no one cares
except me and you.
We stand still for a minute,
before you're gone too.
102 · Jan 2022
domestic
Jonas Jan 2022
How many hits does it take
to change the nature of a dog unbothered?
So he becomes a violent creature
that bites the next.
102 · Apr 2022
flap text
Jonas Apr 2022
Just so we're clear this is personal.
I wrote this for me, I wrote this for friends, my mom, as therapy.
I wrote this for people to see,
to see me. Finally.

After I've died that is,
after I've done it, possibly killed myself.
Good riddance.
Now put the book back in the shelf.

This is my inner point of view, it is but a fracture,
a specific frame,
not the whole picture.
My solemn manufacture.

It's also me just fooling around.
I's also me just being lonely, being *****.
Find me.
102 · Jan 2022
day after day
Jonas Jan 2022
Why is it so hard in this world
to find yourself valued and respected,
loved even

when you are trying so hard to be kind
to keep smiling
and not become bitter?
101 · May 2024
A very upbeat bread poem
Jonas May 2024
It takes some salt
Some water and some wheat
To bake up a story
Could be my story
Could be a good stroy
Of a life filled with worry

I took some beatings in my time
You see
I tried and failed
Took some beatings
Crushed again and again
I choose poorly

To be fair
I might have been
An ***
Savory and juciy
Call it a pastry

Still there is some beauty
Left in me
Leftovers
Blooming like a delicate flour
Sorry, I'm a little drunk
It's meant to be "flour"

Then one night it happens
You're out
A she enters the scene
Gets her hands on you
Hot and steaming
"You're so sweet"
Put some sugar on top
Smear it on my mouth
Mouth to mouth
Don't forget to swallow
You're toasted, breathing shallow


3,2,1 time's up
She got bored of you
Bored of your taste
Lost interest and turns away
Another oppurtunity gone
Again
Got your hopes up
Again
Over time you can't help it
You turn sour

I'm tired
Please
Lay me down to rest
I only ever wanted
To live freely
You can only do what you can
With what you have
And try your best

The next day
Another night, another girl
It's late
We are at mine
You have me
For one night
Now
Leave your marks on me
Add scars to my back
Might be to much for me
You crush me a little, make it crack

After you're done with me
You just stand there
Wait and watch
Patiently
You have time, no rush

Watch me turn and turn
In my sleep, in my dreams
You watch me suffer
Watch me, rise and fall under the heat
I'm under preassure
How I beat myself up
You add to it too
Inflated ego
On the rise
Getting bigger and bigger

Let's wait some more
The moment I cool off
Back at room temp
And let myself fall
Right into your arms
You'll strike
Dig in your nails again
Tear me apart
Pull out my insides for the world to see
See, I told you I was soft there
And warm too
Hot even, just for you

A fair trade
I eat you out, you eat me up
Devour me whole
That's the deal
And yet you're hungry still
For more

The world is your oyster
Tell me now

What's for desert?
101 · Apr 2022
call me
Jonas Apr 2022
I keep wasing my hair,
hoping you will run your fingers through.
I shave hoping you will touch my cheeks,
I keep changing my sheets longing for you,
everyday.
101 · Oct 2023
roomies
Jonas Oct 2023
Me
and my body

We aren't friends anymore
my mind that is, me
my emotional state

We share the same space
share our time,
the same resources

A constant struggle
of achieving equilibrium
they keep dialing in,

Wishes, plans, goals
expectations and energy
call it fine tuning

still
always compromised
101 · Sep 2023
zookeeper
Jonas Sep 2023
I thought,
that all of my anger
stored up throughout my youth
throughout puberty,
misstreatment and depression
just went
away

As all things just pass
eventually
naturally
over time
Can't always be raining

But maybe it's al still there
In here
locked with me
waiting patiently
and I just don't feel it anymore.

Waiting for the right moment
to strike, to break out
for the last drop to fall
and spill out
the beast freed from it's cage
finally

It went real quiet,
compared to how loud it used to roar,
not tamed, just lurking,
cowering down,
ready to jump
me
from the dark

To devour me hole again.
101 · Oct 2023
Can't live like this
Jonas Oct 2023
If you avoid getting hurt
at all
you're effectifely avoiding life all together
going out means opening up,
means showing skin
to bruise, to bleed,
to scar over

Taking chances means embracing the fall
eventualy there will be an impact
a ground to hit, some facts to face
of some sorts

But I'm so scared,
I'm terrified of getting hurt
of failure, emberassement, of rejection I guess
and I don't even understand why

To scared to life, to scared to die
just floating inbetween
Feeling wasted moments passing by
escaping
by scrolling on a screen

Feel it running through my hands
trying to grasp what's real, what's wrong
looking for solid ground
to stand upon

Splashing water to my face
trying to wake up
WAKE UP!
and live my dream.

Finally not behind
but on time
in control behind the wheel
you are here with me, and
this life is mine
101 · Aug 2023
sock flavoured
Jonas Aug 2023
I have a natural talent for causing chaos,
causing mayhem
A masters degree in clumsiness,
Been practicing it my hole life really

All those white shirts stained
right after the first bite
Eating my meals next to the plate,
glass shards shattered on the floor
Freshly opend cans filled to the rim flooding over
The sock that fell into the tea
The locked doors and forgotten details,
tokens, mementos left behind

Corners and doors hugging me tight on my way out,
a quick stabbing pain,
it's pull not push
Appointments lost cause I got it wrong,
wrong time, wrong place
the ungathering

Even more so when I'm tired or put on the spot
the chaos of first meetings, first dates spilling out into the world

Arrogance is not an option
for me
luckily,
this disposition of mine
keeps me sane, keeps me humble

It grounds me
this constant pull of gravity.
100 · Jul 2024
Imagine
Jonas Jul 2024
Money doesn't mean much
I think
Against a lifetime lived
Between grief and happiness
Love and despair

I wished

Money doesn't mean much
Where heads rest at shoulders
In a world of morning dew and sundowns over the ocean
Where clouds lay down over the mountain ridge
Like white water turned golden

I hoped
Surely it couldn't

And when it all comes tumbling down
All gears stop turning for a day or two
I'll hold on to a thought
I once had
That money doesn't mean much
In the end
100 · Mar 2024
And you watch
Jonas Mar 2024
A family of five one day decided to quit
Packed their bags
Only take what you can carry son
To leave this mess
Behind

Hoping to find a better life
Crossing oceans
Off to strange lands
I believe
We can make it
The future is bright

They're just trying to make it
Putting up a fight
Make the best with what they have
If not for them
At least for their children
Can you blame them?

Who needs to know how to swim anyway
Just don't get wet
Close your eyes princess try to sleep and pray
I’ll keep the monsters at bay

An easy mark
Two were shot dead
Both slaughtered
Like cattle in the dark

Another drowned the next day
He panicked, jumped ship
It was a mistake, an accident
They can't charge him twice now
You see?

The youngest got fished out
Caught in their net
They brought her back
First she got ***** and beaten
Then left to starve
Close to her farther’s land
Chained and bound to familiar ground

The last just got lost
Forget about him
Last he was seen?
When we pushed him back
There's enough space for them
On the ocean
Out of sight in the middle of the night
Missing in action
The actions we don't talk about

No one came back
That means they made it right?
They must have made it out

Momma, momma
Tell me
Where are our neighbours at?
100 · Jun 2023
Cutie <3
Jonas Jun 2023
Stop whinig
sit down,
breathe
eat what I cooked for you
rest
stop being so ******* yourself
start taking care of yourself better
and let me love you.

Please

You magnificent, beautiful fool.
100 · Sep 2023
dew
Jonas Sep 2023
dew
It's junce again,
and I can't remember the last time my smile was forced
or my eyes were empty staring blankly into nothingness.

AsI point my face to the sun and my nose into the wind.

Depression is a faint memory.
Winter is ages ago, ages away.


But it will be back,
and it will make me remember.
First slowly and then all at once.
Jonas Oct 2023
I wonder
when in my childhood
did little me go, from being
loved, cared and protected
a walking sunshine
whaetever the seaon
from being unbotherd and innocent
...

To making pretend,
protecting myself
and not trusitng anymore
building up walls
high and higher

Hiding away in his little fantasiy worlds
strong, and invulnurable
always on top
the hero
to save the day
no one can reach me here,
no one can hurt me here

Avoiding real life whenever,
avoiding the outside
shying away
fleeing when possible
An outcast trying to find something to hold onto
with a weakening grip

You have to do this on your own
you think
the world is bad outside
it doesn't welcome you
like the others

Better to keep away
Don't move, keep quiet
no sound,
stay hidden
in the background
this way
they might overlook and forget,
they might not notice you

Who hurt you this much?
I've long forgotten,
the origin of my instincts
I've survived and have to unlearn now.
unravel

Be safe little one,
be patiend,
try to be kind to yourself,
at least a little kinder
99 · Aug 2024
A bus ride home
Jonas Aug 2024
I wrote this back then
Thinking of you
It's not my best work
But I thought I'd try
I don't know


Maybe you'd like it
99 · May 2024
Fast fashion
Jonas May 2024
Sometimes you do get lucky
You meet people who don't use you
Up
Don't wear you
Out
Like the rest of them

Who don't just try you on for size
Force you down
Rip something
Wear and tear
And then throw it back on the shelf
For someone else to sort out

What's that about?
99 · May 2024
Löcher
Jonas May 2024
In der Hose, im Pulli
In meinen Taschen
Eine handvoll Pennies
Im Mund und im Kopf
Lächeln mit Zahnlücke und ADHD
Das hab ich selbst diagnostiziert
Schubladen sind nur zum Verschließen gut

Und im Herz, ja im Herz
Da herrscht Leere
Du fehlst halt

Aber immerhin weg
Nicht mehr hier
Mit dir

In Wien
Budapest, Berlgrad, Istanbul
...
Und wieder zurück
Immer wieder
In Berlin
98 · Sep 2022
Social media
Jonas Sep 2022
A man waks his dog down the street

watch me dump ****
let's worship each other
98 · Jun 2023
Masculinity
Jonas Jun 2023
Work out,
not to boost your ego but to be able to care for others,

Broader shoulders not to intimidate but to carry your mothers groceries when she gets older. So she has something to lean on just as you did growing up.

A back massive enough to steady your fahter when he can't do it by himself anymore. An open invitation for him to place his hand.
"I'm proud of you son"

Bigger arms to hold your friends tight shall they ever need it. So they may never lose their smile and you may never lose yours.
And hopefully you may never lose each other.

A bigger chest not to boast with but for your lover to rest and hide from the world for just "five more minutes" longer, while the first rays of sunlight  touch her face in the morning.

Strong hands that can gently support a childs head against the stomrs of this world but won't ever let go when they're needed to. To keep holding on of what's important.

Steady eyes, focused on the road ahead. So nobody gets lost on the way.

Capable legs to carry them home after a long night, and lay them to rest. To kick back whe life kicks you and tries to play *****.

And finally a strong mind to provide it all and more
and find purpose and happiness in doing so.
*his / their face

An *** so juicy her/his/ their bed will stay broken forever
98 · Jul 2021
Hold me / Leave me
Jonas Jul 2021
Finally
You are an answer
to a question long longing,
burning through
a hole in my  chest
my being.

A temporary answer perhaps
a substitute,
an overripe fruit picked from a tree
before falling, breaking, molding
bursting open
unconditionally?

But that hohle was my furnace
that fire my flame
without it
what even am I?
doing?
here?
with you?
without you?
leave me, hold me

Call me by your name.
97 · Jan 2022
desperate
Jonas Jan 2022
Quickly
A pen, a paper , your grocery list
anything

The words are already fading
from my mind
quickly
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