I did nothing but try for you
I sacrificed for you
altered my life for you
everything that I had to lose
all that I had to choose
to make it right with you
I did nothing but try for you
I sacrificed for you
altered my life for you
after all that we both been through
you only needed me
for benefiting you

I guess I'm destined for relationships that don't work
shooting from the hip with "I don't cares" but it still hurts
holding this heart broken too many times
with cracks growing so big they're resembling fault lines
where every falls like a bottomless pit
Ive been coasting so long that I hope the bottom hits
I could call you ***** or could call you a *****
I could break the bank at the profanity store
but I wont though, what good would that do?
because even in the end I wish the best for you
Even if I wanted to, we both know the simple truth
when we get to questioning just who really failed who
I held my cards close, but yet I exposed
myself and look just where I got with that gamble
Yes I knew the odds, it was a long shot
dancing in the moonlight with frauds on a grave plot
of whats dead now, you made sure of that
handling that rabbit you kept hidden in your hat
**** all that

You play the victim so easily
love lost, misery, someone too hard to please
I never really asked for too much but with your me me mentality I'm losing touch
Planet earth population one, here I stay finding ways just to remain numb
its like they say. whats done is done, don't jump the gun, have you ever felt alone when you're with someone?
I know its I who left, it wasn't lack of love, it was abundance of stress when push comes to shove
My glass jaw has been broken and shattered from the masks I saw in your manipulative patterns
I saved you whos supposed to save me from everything you turned into a tragedy
made you my one and only, when were you there for me?
when its bad, in jail, rehab, or when theres cash to grab

My heart hurts
and Im not sure whats worse
the pain that remains
or that I disperse
I try not to spread
that which is in my head
should I try to ignore
or share the ache instead?
Who would that make?
Is that me?
Why can I not shake
this discrepancy.
I hide with a smile
questioning the worthwhile
I feel like a fake
just an unsure child
Have I known
who I am?
Whats left to be shown
should I give a ****?
I have built a wall
and Im still adding bricks
wondering if this all
I should just submit

What happened to the dashes?
Where are they now?
They used to like my poems
some of them cried afoul

Electronic phantoms
ghosts in the wire
these digital unborn
Where have they retired?

What were their names?
where did they go?
Im here just the same
In the afterglow

If loving you too much was a crime
I willingly admit my guilt
And I'm still doing the time
My memories of you
Are the cold steel bars I look through
From the back of my mind.

My life existed
before your presence
I  never needed you
or to hear your voice
nor feel your touch
or share a moment
that brought a smile
to my face
in the worst of times
but I did want you
I still do
and that life
I look back on
feels that much
more empty
because of it.
Yet it still
merely exists
just as before

Letting the vultures pick my bones
For all the love I have disowned
There's no Embrace which I call home
I am more comfortable alone

For all the times that I have tried
To nurse something destined to die
A life derived by hearts of stone
I guess I'm better off alone

Emotions I will not deny
only to wind up crucified
the gray areas I roam
is probably why I am alone

If I knew
that was the last time
I would see you
I would have tried
to retain a clearer memory
but now
all I have
is a distorted image
like a misted mirror.