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 Mar 2015 FallenAngel93
Holly
Rain, rain, go away,
Because of you the pain will stay.
Slit my throat, cut out my heart,
Leave me here, tear it apart.

Poison tears stream down my face,
My heart beats at a steady pace
As I try to stand again;
Alone and standing in the rain.

I don't need you anymore...
Is what I think while tears pour.
I hate you like I hate my life;
But love is what cuts like a knife.

Love is death and death is you;
Its pain stains like a black tattoo.
Those memories come back again
And bind me in the ropes of pain.

Crimson blood streams down my head
Like a long, silk ribbon, tied by a thread,
To a platinum bullet, a hole in my skull...

...Now just a memory that's faded and dull.
 Mar 2015 FallenAngel93
Holly
Life is filled with pain,
anger and sorrow.
I need a knife to borrow.
Let it flow against my skin easily,
as it goes deeper and deeper.

Soon I'll be with the reaper.
Tears fall fastly,
Thinking I'm worthless to be here.
All of my frights becomes my fears.

The words flowing through my head so fast,
you ***** **** *****.
Tearing my heart apart and throwing it on the floor.
So I cut deeper and deeper hitting the vain.

Again and again in the same spots,
leaving blood clots.
Don't judge about what I do,
judge me for who I am today.

Even if I'm not okay.
My hands, arms and legs filled with scars.
Each and every one I deserve on me,
because people tell me this all day constantly.

I hate when I believe that every word they say is true,
it hurts.
Wait until it happens to you.
Words hurt
Think before you speak
 Mar 2015 FallenAngel93
Holly
I'm not sure when it started, or why it is so strong.
On the outside I seem happy. No one thinks anything's wrong.
But on the inside I am dying, screaming for someone to see
That the happy smile and carefree laugh is not the real me.
I've never been happy, not that I can recall.
Between the world and myself I've built up a wall.
I don't know why I'm like this, it makes no sense to me.
I actually come from a very close and loving family.
But even they have no idea of the hell I endure.
They think I'm happy and normal; of this I am sure.
I can't take it much longer, I can't live like this!
I want to feel truly happy, that is my biggest wish.
I need help, but who will help me? Who could comprehend?
Is there anyone out there who can help bring this to an end?
Or am I simply trapped, a prisoner of despair?
Am I really all alone? Is there no hope for me out there?
I'm so lost, please help me! I can't do this alone!
I need someone in my corner, a friend to call my own.
Please help me.
 Mar 2015 FallenAngel93
Holly
The chaotic noise inside the class,
The live chit chat that every group has.
Yes, another semester is at hand,
Another great year is about to land.
Friends hug like there's no tomorrow,
Happiness is in, no more sorrow.
I see new people walk inside the room,
New batches of friends are about to bloom.
But one person caught my attention,
A girl with this kind of perfection,
Walks like a model on a runway,
A girl that stole my heart away.
Her eyes sparkle like the stars above,
That look she gives me that I really love.
Her smile that takes my breath away,
I know that I won't let her slip away.
I want to tell her what I really feel,
Wanting to tell her that this is real.
Oh, this feeling that I hate,
A feeling that would not obliterate.
Want to know about the sad truth?
That there will never be a "me and you."
Yes, that is the sad truth
That you'll never say you like me too.
But shes the only one for you,
It will only be "You and her"
The Sad Truth,
I will never be able to tell this,
But its one thing i want to tell.
#To #A #Special #Someone
 Mar 2015 FallenAngel93
B
Winter
 Mar 2015 FallenAngel93
B
The winter air was fresh and cool,
but became more harsh
as the night went on.
It traveled through my body
at an optimal speed leaving
no nerve untouched by
its frigid breath.
It stung my skin,
turning it a bright
rosy color.
That was nothing, though.
It started numbing my cheeks,
traveling to my hands
and every other part of my body
that was exposed to the dangers
of the winter.
The icy feeling sunk deep
into my bones and every crevice
it could find which caused
my body to tense up
and shake so uncontrollably
that I couldn't function properly.
The sad thing is,
this is what it felt like to love you.


                                 B.S.
 Feb 2015 FallenAngel93
Holly
Kills.
 Feb 2015 FallenAngel93
Holly
Look with the ablaze in my eyes,
You wont see the ******* the outside,
Youll the the ******* the inside.
A girl that kills,
But not only someone else,
She kills herself,
Inside, And out.
Its not only her that kills herself,
Its other people too.
They hurt her,
So bad she hurts herself.
As in she i mean me.
 Feb 2015 FallenAngel93
effaced
i wish i had any other addiction than this;







breathing.
 Feb 2015 FallenAngel93
effaced
"we know that you have suicidal thoughts..."
then why havent you done anything to help me?
why wont you let me get medicine for it?

**"you dont know anything."
 Feb 2015 FallenAngel93
effaced
what i wrote:
L----,
to old memories.
happy valentines day.
A------.

what i wanted to write:
L----,
to old memories,
the ones that i miss and cry about,
our first kiss, all the precious words and gifts..
i miss you and i still love you, i dont know what to do.
i dont know if you feel this way.
im broken, was broken and you accepted, or at least dealt with me,
for that i will always love you.
if you still have those letters from exactly a year ago, read them,
if you dont, just remember with all your heart the words that i wrote.
its still all so true.
i really do still love you.
A------.
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