Situations you’re not understanding,
Reasons that can't be explained.
Feelings of hurt and rejection,
Drown you, like a downpour of rain.
Missing the taste of your lips,
And hearing the beat of your heart.
Doubting that there was good reason,
For pulling us so far apart.
I know that you tried to make contact,
But ignoring your call was my choice.
Although, I am longing to see you
Right now, I just can't hear your voice.
It seems fairly simple to phone you,
But the blood in the wound is still moist.
Someday,  just a scar will remain,
But right now, I just can't hear your voice.

So many thoughts swirl through my mind
I've been troubled now for quite a while.
But no one sees my darkest thoughts
As they hide in secret behind my smile.
Anxiety chills the warmest nights
Some I barely get to make it through
Disguised in public so they don't know
It helps to crack a joke or two.
A simple tear rolls down my cheek
My self-pity consumes my body
Yet people think my life is good
I’ve managed to fool most everybody
Like a rodeo clown, I mess around
And hope that nobody will see
But there's one person, I cannot fool
And that person, I know is me.