I spin
Into
Oblivion
Into
Situations
That I think I should
A blueprint
I created myself
From tvs and movies
All is lost if nothing else
I do everything

Split from the root of an ivy
Your past flows through me too
Deep black ink sinking into me
from my brain
to my shoes

Knife in my heart
Breathing hard
Easy to feel
Cold veins
You’ve changed
My fault
Slow play
They win
I’ve gained
Truth hurts
Toothache

I ate a box of cherries
Swallowed them
One by one
Dizzy with envy
I’m finished, we’re done

Seeing you again
Put me back to a time and place
Made me spin
Dress twirling
Hair flowing
Seeing you again
Made me whole inside
Made me dance when I stepped
Getting lost in your eyes
Throwing away my pride
To see you again

Sun rays bouncing off the water
A blur like a sleepy I don’t want to get up yet morning
Cold legs
Back
Warm shoulders
Neck
Left right
Left right
And I’m tired
Hanging on the side
Head on my shoulders
Skin wrinkled tight
Backstroke to when the sun was high

I’m trying to not
Break the rules
But you call me
And act brand new
And I’m spinning
From left to right
And I’m trying to stop
But it just don’t feel right
There’s a deep dark hole
Where a special flower grows
Where women go by **
And men go by yo
And if you know you know
If you know you know