Nicotine walls
Tarot cards on your desk
Cigarettes in a row
Whiskey on your breath
You just don't feel love
You're waiting for death
All the hair you cut off
To put in your spells
Is catching up to you
Now that you're in hell
And all the bruises you gave
We're given to you first
By man after man and woman since birth
It's a shame and it's sad
Of what came to be
Egg shells on your floor would break if you'd breathe
And I know it's hard to live in such tension
And the road that leads to hell is paved with good intentions

The first time I saw you I wasn't impressed
But I'm so much like you I couldnt help it
I crawled into you and wore you around
I made you my pet
I made you my home
I tell you so much
More than I'm allowed
How much I miss you and want you around
And I know it's not right
Though you tell me it is
And I know that my heaven would be your kiss
I know that you'd hit me and throw me around and I know you'd love to hear me fall to the ground
And I'd give it to you
If only I could
But they say you're just a traumatized boy from the hood

You give me things
And he's just a boy
You want a ring
He wants a toy
But when I close my eyes
At night
I love him

Jelly beans
In a bowl
On a table
Next to you
Wish I could
Take a handful
Throw them all
At the window
Sitting cold
Reflecting through
All the sun
Shines on the floor
And the chairs
You need a broom

I've slept on the couch
And floor
And bed
I want more
From you
I want to
Milk you dry
I want to twist you
And **** you
And *******
And pretend

**** and
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One two three
Breathe out
I'm still crying
But I've stopped
T r E m b L I nG

I can still see you sitting outside
Next to me
Talking
I wish I could