if the world would simply stop,
rest awhile, and not talk,
in the voices loud of ringing bells,
that would be where moonlight dwells.

It has been a long time,
since I’ve seen your smile.
Touched your hand,
heard your voice.
1 year, 2 months, 22 hours, and 11 seconds,
not that I’m counting.
I need you,
I never stopped needing you,
but now you are gone.
Isn’t fate cruel?

you tell me to express emotion,
not to bottle everything inside,
but when i try and listen to you,
you make me want to hide.

screaming,
all you do is scream,
i’m not good enough for you,
never enough.

i eat too much or not enough,
wrong clothes,
wrong hair,
wrong me,
all for you.

i can’t take this anymore,
please,
i’m crying,
breaking on the bathroom floor,
why can’t you see?

you told me you loved me
but love isn’t supposed to hurt,
not like this.

breathe in, breathe out,
it’ll all be ok.
breathe in, breathe out,
it’s been another day.