BipolarBear

BipolarBear Jan 20

First comes flame; your beating heart sets alight.
Then comes rain; relieving the raging pain.
But now barely breathing, you feel nothing.
Your blackened heart pauses, before collapsing.

Poem inspired by the life cycle of a star and the stages of depression without the right intervention. The debilitating pain, and the coping mechanisms.

BipolarBear Jan 19

Hyperfixation

Everything feels intense,
reality tends to bend.
I know, somewhere, deep down,
the world will not come to end.

I know that I would live,
if for the best you went.
My heart I must not give,
to a mere good friend.

We know we're not enough.
This my declaration:
A smile is not your love,
kindness no invitation.

Nov draft :)

Jan 16

Ivan

Starlight Scars

In the library of my soul,
your name etched on every page.
A bookmark of memories,
forever lodged between love and ache.
My heart, a canvas of scars,
each one a testament to our stars.
Aligned for a fleeting glance,
now distant, leaving only trance.
In this gallery of longing,
your portrait remains,
a masterpiece of what could never be mine.

BipolarBear Jan 15

Dead-end

It turned too messy to amend.
I gained no love, but lost a friend.

BipolarBear Jan 13

Freefall

I never used to mind falling,
I liked landing inside your arms.
But now that they're both withdrawing,
the sinking feeling sounds alarms.

Helpless, spiralling further down,
the sirens will never cease their cries.
The air escapes my lungs, I drown.
Something new inside me dies.

BipolarBear Jan 13

Its Not All About You

It is not all about you...
only half.
Half my thoughts, words, poems -
and half of my heart.

BipolarBear Jan 13

Love, Ever Alien

I never understood love songs.
Not until you, dear, came along.
But now we are strangers again,
my own words feel hollow and spent.

Looking back on my old poetry, they are foreign