It’s hurts when you love someone with your entire being not knowing if they feel the same way
When the thoughts you have get so heavy, that you only want them to relieve the pressure
When the day and nights seem so gloomy, you only yearn for their touch
When you look around, their presence is nowhere to be found
Even when you see them, physically, right in front of you, laying right next to you
Am I really here alone
Am I dreaming that I see you
Are you a figure of my imagination
Or are you just not in as deep as I am
The brain of an over thinker

That’s exactly how I feel
******* see-through
My feelings don’t matter
My opinion doesn’t matter
There’s no respect
No loyalty
Is there even genuine love
I’m starting to become numb
And a numb me isn’t a good me
That’s the wrong me to expose
That’s the wrong me to be with be
It’s pointless
A numb me is a who gives a **** me
A numb me is a disappear act
Here today, gone tomorrow, literally
A numb me is **** your feelings
**** respect
And why should I respect something that you don’t
I can’t fault the next *****, you opened the door
A ***** not gone respect **** you don’t respect
That ***** don’t owe me ****
But you owe me everything
Oh, why you say?
Because I gave everything
Even when I didn’t have it to give to myself
This feeling in my stomach has been here for a god three weeks
And it’s only getting worse
A ******* hopeless romantic
Dummy

You ever thought that maybe to be realigned with your person they may need to miss you to appreciate you. You holding on with a death grip, constantly accessible interfering with the process. Trust the process. Whats for you will always be for you.

Never not know nothing
Know for a fact that it’s you
It will always be you
Has been you since I seen your pants
I love you
I adore you
I respect you
And will never do **** to jeopardize that
I’m yours, fully
In all ways
Never not know
Never not know what I will or will not do
Always know that I put you in mind first
I know the consequences and never will I test the waters
In no way, shape or form
I want to water your grass
I want to nurture your mind
I want to caress your emotions and protect your feelings
I want you and only ******* you
I hope and pray these words are mutual
Reciprocation is everything
You and me
Me and you
Not for a good time but for a long time
I love you, KCNH 🤎🤞🏽

Well well well, Mr. May, we meet again. People say your favorite girl April cries, which her tears help water your beautiful flowers to bloom for the world to enjoy. For some reason it seems as though April can't produce enough tears, so yours are needed. Mr May, without your tears, the flowers won't bloom as vibrant. The grass won't gleam the beautiful green. The salt from your cold cousins will still linger around. We need you more than you'll ever know. Not just for your warm hugs but your beautiful and soothing cries. Mr. May, you're loved, you're appreciated and if no one tells you, I'm thankful that you exist. Without you, I wouldn't have my best friend, my sister who was blessed with you. So thank you for all that you do and all that you are.

Sincerely,
Your cold cousin November blessing,
ToT

First off, hello beautiful (forehead kiss)
I have some questions to ask you
Nooot too many like Fifty’s 21
But just enough to get you close to nuttin’
Can I pin you up against the wall
Holding your hands tight enough to keep your from squirming
Loose enough to let you feel safe
Can I kiss you passionately
While our tongues do a dance
Gah’**** Kadi, them lips put me in a trance
Tongues sliding, lip biting, sliding this snake down ya throat
The way you kiss me, keeps me coming back for mo’
Grabbing you by the throat to give you every piece of it
Then whispering in ya ear how bad I can’t wait to get a taste of it
Slowing working my way down all that ******* chocolate skin of yours
Nope, gotta come back up and give you some more
With my hand, I’m gently playin with ya *******
Not too much cause ion wanna it to tickle
Just get rock hard so I can **** and nibble
Running my hand up and down ya thighs
Yeah you know, I’m waiting for the surprise
Gently unbuckling ya button
Can I touch it
I wanna feel how wet you are
I wanna feel the warmth
Gah’**** Kadi, you turn me on
I wanna excite you a little, to hear you moan
My fingers massaging ya ****
Now you moaning in my ear talkin’bout you want some of Chinka stroke
Ooooh and I wanna give it to you, just not yet
I haven’t finished playing wit’chu and you ******’ dripping wet
You wanna taste it
Or can I have it all to myself
Gah’**** Kadi, wha’chu got me feelin’, I’ain neva felt
****** my fingers clean
You grab my hand and lead me to the next scene

The way you move your hips
To the rhythm we’ve created
As the lips slide across one another
****, you so ******’ wet
To the way I push down on ya pelvis
My otha lips French kissin’
Our tongues rubbing, caressin’ ... vertically sometimes a horizontal movement
All while your juices run into mine ....
The rhythm we’ve created is mixing the two
Creating this ******’ mess we call ecstasy
The most wettest, slipperiest, sweet as nectar comes
The perfect consistency to slurp
Just to allow a little to drip so that it can be twirled and played with
It’s called sprung juice.... THA ******* GOING type juice... The “I promise to always...” juice.... That I’m not and don’t ******* play when it comes to you no matter who it is!! Tha ****!
The feeling makes my limbs go numb
Creates this pulsating wavy feeling
I’m weak, your panting and we’re in total bliss
Too sensitive to touch
Too sensitive and exhausted to move
“Just let me lay here” I tell you
The supernova we created was so intense
We can only hold hands while we fall asleep
Wishing to dream of what just took place
I’ve met my match
I have the intimacy piece that was missing
It was you, My ******’ Dawg 🤞🏽💕

I’m just saying lol maybe it is me
Maybe I’m overthinking lol
It gotta be me
Yeah I’m trippin’
………….………

**** ALL’AT
I’m no ******* fool
I’m not a ******* dummy
I know what the **** this feeling is
I know what the **** kinda energy is being given
Maybe this ***** keep forgetting I’m seasoned
I’m not one of this ******* idiotic ****** she’s used to ******* with
I read energy and body language extremely well
None of today was the normal
Couldn’t even tell you if the lips are crusty or soft
Warm or cold
I know what this is and seeing that I do know
I’m not waiting on no ******* body to figure out ****
I’ll figure it out on my own
So yeah, let’s slow **** down and cut **** off
It’s clearly me
Again, thinking someone is in as deep as I am

Where do I start 🤔
Your love is undeniable
Your love is contagious
Your love is the epitome of love
It’s never not too much
Your love is versatile
From your love lips
Your love eyes
To your love touch
It’s your love that I love so ******* much
It feels so good to be loved by you
Sometimes I don’t feel like I deserve it all
But then, then there’s this reassurance vibe that you give
Boss up like “shiiid, I do deserve it! She’s loving again and I’m the WOMAN she’s giving it to!” “Take that **** ToT! It’s all for you!”
Loving by you makes me jealous
In a sense as why the **** didn’t this happen sooner
But we both know, everything happens for a reason
I’m gonna fight until I can’t fight anymore before I let your love just be for a season
I love the way you love

Whoever thought we’d say goodbye so early
To a woman that meant so much to so many
You’ve left behind hidden gems in us all
Especially the one that no matter what, we better stand strong and tall
But even in this unfortunate absence
She still instills
The ability to survive in the world
Some of us even picked up that amazing cooking gift you have
The ability to love tough when needed
And the high pedestal on how we should be treated
On how to be frugal and 100% independent
From start to finish, she was committed
This was a major loss for us ShotGun
But the many gems you instilled will forever stand
The most beautiful of them all, you’re now in the right hands amongst them all.
We Love You