you'll get my golden calm
the better and the best of me
a bright and an impossible
       radiant light will shine through me
bright and impossible. I tell ya.

.you'll see. you'll feel. you'll start to believe.
.don't give up on us just yet.

please.have.little.more.patience.
It's a long journey ahead of us.

"Anxiety is love's greatest killer." -Anais Nin

It's ---
so immediate, so active
so deep and so unexplained
starts spinning all so quick:
       "where is it all rooted from?"
       "who am I? are my feelings real?"
        "what's wrong with me? Can't I just accept his love?"
       "why can't I just relax? Please just relax."
       "how will this one end? Does he even love me?"

so I lash out at him in a fierce and hostile way ---
I bite his love so deep with my sharp red teeth
that I witness his firey passionate love slowly disappearing
from his calm beautiful coffee eyes
turning into cold stone eyes

meet me by the motel
by the Nobel boulevard
we don’t have to tell
no more being apart

meet me by the motel
by the Nobel boulevard
with the casted spell
we don’t got no regards

so tell everybody
we hit  the reject
we ain’t sorry
they gotta respect

inner of my soul there is potential
           passionate and ideal

yet outer of my soul is withering
                                                                   --- away

arm in arm, cheeks rose pink
no alarm,  both so in sync
with nurturing, astonishing!

he reached for her honeyed lips,
before the warmth kiss,
he gently whispered,
                        “the love of my life”

"I hope your flowers bloom." He said with his serene monotone voice.

Her eyes sea red replies, " And I hope your hours gloom"
He smirked. Kissed her forehead and said his farewell.

She shudders knowing it's over.