Visions of my past
replayed so vivid
  I used to purposely lack sleep
so I can immerse myself
Into the world so livid
Learned how to
Lucid dream
Making anything possible
all it took was a thought
like magic it appeared
but just cause it shined
didnt mean it was  gold
I couldn’t control my mind
It took its own route
I used to be so optimistic
Till I spent countless days in my own mind
Now every time I bounce back to reality
Im pessimistic
Nothing can compare
to the world Ive seen
in my own mind
That thought sprout a seed
now every dream I dream
this flower of doom continues to bloom
And everytime I sleep
These toxic dreams keep haunting me
all my struggles
fears and demons seemlessly intertwined
into my escape from reality
no more fantasies
welcome to planet nighmare
365 days a year

My world was black and white
before I met you
Till you brought along the color
Now you want to leave me
Not picking up my calls
Got my whole life feeling so strange
Used to take you like a dose
Just to calm my anxiety
now I'm out here chasing dragons  
Slowly losing my sanity
Can't say your name without using profanity
I guess I'm just salty like the sea
My rage crashing like waves on the beach
And I never thought I'd be calling you a *****
But you got me barking
Arguing about all the mistakes that we made
Through it all my memory got engraved with triggers that make me flash back
and fuel my rage
When things get heated