I can't breath I can't sleep all the way thru the night . I'm sad I miss you I hate what I did I wish I could go back but I must face forward and go away !.....

Pain is numb now you act like you don't care I don't know how to read you it's hard to read you. What's on your mind baby? Can I call you baby?

No response is a response I keep telling myself. Maybe he is done and I should be too hope needs to die out my life again. I love you or maybe I'm confused? Gosh I think am I ever gone get over this obstacle one day?

Is it a choice?

I don't know what to think or feel I want you and I can't have you anymore so I walk along and pray I don't feel this pain anymore.

I tried calling you like your gone pick up so I just forget you don't want hear from me. My heart is pain.

Fast Forward 2 years later

I am happy with a men that deserve me and my love. He loves me and he takes care of me and I take care of him. He asked me to marry him I said yes.

I think too myself have I healed enough to move on from my past hurt I say no. So I break off my engagement and take a trip and defined who I really am and why can't I keep it together.

Does he ever dream about me ?
Does he ever remember the times we spent together it was not long all the time it was like hey how are you. Your best feature on you are your eyes I can tell they tell a story and I want know more about you this is so deep and I am this close to giving up I just want be in your presence. You were the only Guy that admit to my face that he liked me and I liked him back gosh I miss you so.

Your all I dream

The world keeps going on by
While I'm stuck because I can't hear you or feel you my mind thinks of you 24/7 all I wanted be is up under you I can't believe your gone out of my life I would give anything to have you in my presence again come back to me your not even died you have just disappeared out of my life.