If I drink a lot,
I don't want anything.
You're the only one I want,
'Cause you are my everything.

Tell me how much you love me.
Tell me how much you need me.
Even if it's a lie,
It's just my way of you saying goodbye without you caring if I'd cry.

This feeling makes me really happy.
I don't wanna wake up in reality.
Don't leave me in my dreams.
It's more than what it seems.

My surroundings became clearer.
The ocean I hear is nearer.
When I'm with you I'm in Utopia.
You are the cause of my Euphoria.

I'm falling to fast, deeper in love.
Still thinking of ways to let you know how I feel.
I wish it's me you're staring.
I wish it's me you're loving.

The one who's understanding you, it's me.
The one who can relate to you, it's me.
The one who's here for you, it's me.
The one who's loving you, it's me.
The one that you don't have feelings for, it's me.
The one that you only see as friend, it's me.
The one that you won't ever love, it's me.

I'm always hoping you'll talk to me like before.
I'm always thinking if you're missing us more.
Everynight in my bed I'm always thinking.
Everynight in my bed I'm always imagining it's us you're holding.

Let's continue our friendship and start a new.
I heard your side which we never knew.
My friend, let's cry, laugh, smile, talk like we used to.
But I know it will not go back easily.
We will be like we used to at the right moment.

I'm waiting that you'll completely forget about me,
So that I can walk away freely.
I just stare at you looking so happy,
Without me.

I need your love,
Can I just feel you care even once?
Even though sometimes I'm mad at you,
Stupid me, still loving you.

The other one left us,
Are you going to leave me too?
My dear friend, just tell me
When is this going to end?

Did you ever feel that even just for a day you wanna be deaf?
To not hear the promises they haven't kept.
I just wanna be numb,
Because I'm dumb.
Like I'm swallowing a gum,
That came from the bullet inside the gun

Chaosity, is what I don't want to hear.
Those words that are my making my eyes tear.
You may think I'm crazy,
But sorry, my heart is getting lazy.

2017 is about to end.
I wish those happy moments will happen again.
This year was great for me.
Good and bad memories thank you.

God, thank you for this year.
I hope 2018 will be a great year.
So many things happened,
Mostly are unforgettable.

Let's all be happy and healthy.
For the things we didn't do, We should not feel guilty.
Have a great year ahead,
All the people around the world!

You can't call this the worst Christmas.
It may be the saddest but never call it the worst.
God has a reason for all the things that happened.

We thought this year is going to end good,
But something came up.
Typhoon and Fire,
Floods and fires.
Some people died.
Exhausted rescuers that some people bashed.
Those firemen and volunteers should be called Saviors.

It hurts to think to those people who suffered.
The flood that came destroyed many houses and killed people.
The fire that came burned the mall that everyone goes to and no one knows if there are survivors.

Think of the families of the victims.
Imagine the panic that overcame the victims.
Think of the families who'll spend Christmas without a house.
Think of the families who'll spend Christmas missing one member.
If only I can do anything,
I'd help.
I can't help the tears rolling down my cheeks.

Even though a lot of things happened,
God has a reason and we should trust him.
We should never lose hope.
Maybe not now but this place will rise again.
This Eagle will Rise again.

I have always wondered,
When will I be genuinely happy?
When will I be happy outside without faking that I'm happy on the inside?
How can I be happy on the outside without thinking that I'm dying on the inside?
When can I smile again without knowing I have problems?
When will I be happy both inside and outside without pretending?

I wished that day will come.
That day that I will forget all the problems even just for a minute.
That day that I'll worry about nothing.
That day that I'll not feel sad.
That day that I'll be truly happy.
But that day has already come.
And that day,
Was Yesterday.

Why can't you respect my decisions?
I can't always follow your instructions.
I also have my own ambitions,
Wish I could fly just like the pigeons.

Why can't you accept that this is the real me?
Maybe someday I'll change but I can't change so easily.
You love me, right?
Then you should let me live the life that I want.

You can't force me to do the things I don't want to,
You can't force me to change myself to be the person you want me to.
No matter how mad you are,
You need to Accept.
But I wish You could  Accept Me with all your heart,
Because living a life that you can't accept is **** hard.

Purpose, it's a simple word.
The question is, what is yours?
Do you know your purpose?
What are you doing here on earth?
Do you just exist on earth?
Or do you live in earth?

Do you just breathe air and do nothing?
Or learn and make money for living?
Are you born just to sleep and eat?
Or born to make something productive?

You have dreams.
Do you wait it to come to you?
Or work hard for it to pursue?
So are you existing or are you living?

There are thousand things nice to say
Why did harsh things came out from my mouth?
Now you don't feel anything but hate
If you could trust me again, I doubt.

I'm sorry I hurt you,
To the struggles I put you through.
The truth is I truly love you.
I just got scared of losing you
I found the reason for me,
To change and start a new life.
The reason is you.

You have lots of goals,
But you don't care so you let it be
Just like the river flows.
How can you reach them?
How can you grow into a stem?

Change your mindset,
Not wearing your headset.
You cannot do something immediately,
If you give up easily.

Family are always there for you,
All you need is to not feel blue.
Be goal-oriented,
Don't worry.
You'll reach it in the end.

I thought I moved on,
That we are not bestfriends anymore
Our memories in my Heart is still going on
You liked someone more.

I know you're now making good memories with them,
But I hope our's, you won't forget
You're doing bad things
Even if I'm mad at you I still miss you
But you think they're better
I thought it's gone,
But No, the pain,
It's still Here.

Papers to fold,
Followed instructions you told,
You and the papers are the only ones I want to hold,
Especially when the weather is cold

So many designs to make,
Also memories that we both create
I just wanna do this all the time,
Until the day that I will die.

Everytime that you make a smile
I feel that I'm about to fly
I didn't know we'll have a good relationship
Then you took me to a trip

Now we're together for years
I'll look forward for more years
I didn't know you'll cheat on me,
I thought you were happy

You were the only reason why I still live,
You knew that I have no one
But that was still you give
I pulled something under my bed
Pointed it in my head
Pulled the trigger
And just like that, it's now all over.

Why can't you see?
That it's been me
Been always there
'Cause I truly care

You always talk to her
My heart is about to tear
Why can't you understand?
That I'm the one whose giving you a hand

Why can't you notice how I feel?
Is your heart made of steel?
Yes, I know you love me
But just not the way I do to you..

But that was the past
My feelings for you last
Why do you care about me now,
When I'm already happy with another man?

Waves in the shore coming in my feet
But me, myself, still dying from the heat
Why is there fear between happy moments?
Why don't I care 'bout there encroachments?

Don't know if this is real,
Don't know if I can still feel
When there is hope,
There is hardships

We need to be in despair
Before we can breathe the air
Continue to have hope
Until you reach the Sea

Let me hear it one more time
C'mon, it's not a crime
When I see you,
You is for Me to sue

When you say that you love me
I feel like I'm near the sea
So refreshing
And everlasting

It's you that I just need,
I love you indeed
You're my everything
My world, is your carrying

So please just don't leave me
'Cause you got the best of me
When you say that you love me
I need those words, let me hear it one more time
Tell me about forever
You'll never change whenever
You got the best of me

Always receiving that award,
Since I was young
"Most behave goes to..."
Always hearing name
I got the fame
From having it

They congratulate me
They think it's easy
They think I'm happy
They don't know I'm lonely

Always ignored
Always forgotten
Behind those smiles I gave,
My heart wants to be saved

Receiving 'Most Behave'
Is what I hate
Not because I have too many of those
But because it reminds me that I'm just a dark deep behind the shadows.

I did'nt mean to,
It was a coincidence
With my innocence
That I fell for you

The world meant us to be
With your joy, I agree
You feel the same
The destiny is for us to blame
But the destiny is so good
That now we have the same last name

Love me now
Hold me now
Touch me now
Kiss me now
'Cause you love me
And I love you.

The truth is hidden by scars,
Now I'm playing guitar
Why am I here playing it alone?
Why is my world only stopping?

My heart is miserable,
Please save me
I wanna go back to those happy days,
I wanna Reset

In this darkness only loneliness surrounds me,
Can someone stay here with me?
Please someone hold my hand
I wanna go back to those beautiful moments

Even just once someone hold me,
Will everything be okay,
If I was'nt born in this world?
Would I still be happy,
If I did'nt let loneliness occupy me?
Will everything be fine,
If I'll turn back the time?
I wanna Reset....

For the past 13-14 years
You were always by my side
When I was young I knew this would happen
I was afraid I won't see you anymore

I wished that you could grow old with me
But it will be hard for you
You worked hard to guard our home
You never failed to make me happy

But I know you would'nt last
It hurts to see you like that,
It's better for you to be gone than to suffer like that
Thank you for being my playmate when I was young
Thank you for listening to my problems
Thank you for your existence and for everything

But when I woke up,
You're the first one I went to
I looked at you and realized you're not breathing anymore
I love you but goodbye for now
My dear bestfriend..
You'll always be in my heart.

That day when the weather was cold
You let me borrow your hoodie
That moment was gold
It made my heart flutter

Why did those happy moments turn into sudden fear?
I covered my ears
In the sound of ambulance which I did'nt want to hear
If you only looked at the road before crossing
You'd still be here

I smelled that hoodie in my hands
I remember those memories we made
I kept that hoodie
Because that reminds me of you

In this dorm,
Where I first met you
I did'nt like you.
We were roommates,
It was weird 'cuz you're a guy
As time goes by,
We became close friends
But I did'nt realize,
I already fell for you

I wanted to confess,
But I was scared
I got nervous when you called me to meet up
What if you'll say "I have a girlfriend"
Negative thoughts came into my mind

I got to the place where you told me
I saw you, you waved at me
I asked you what is it about
You told me that there is this girl you fell inlove with
It broke my heart hearing those
You describe her and asked what to do
I told you to confess directly even if it hurts

"She is standing in front of me now"
Tears fell into my eyes
We kissed under the moonlight
Well, being under the same roof was'nt bad at all.

I promised myself,
Not to give up
I tried not to give up,
Actually I did'nt
But now it's too much
I thought of the sacrifices I made
I'm tired of loving you,
When you love someone else

I'm tired of hoping you'll be mine someday,
I'm tired of fighting for you,
Just seeing you happy
makes me happy
Even though I'm not the reason for it.

I walked away,
as I saw you staring at her like she's the only girl in the world.
I'll stop loving you, maybe not now
But someday
what's the reason of fighting,
When you don't have anything to fight for?

Weather for crying
When you feel you're dying
Rain falls down just like my tears,
That I've been hidden for years

Scent of rain,
Makes me calm
Sound of rain,
Makes me feel safe

When it rains
I feel that it cries with me
I feel that I have a companion
When I feel blue.

There's this boy group
Which I love the most
I support them at all cost
Their faces are poetry in motion

Their eyes are beautiful
But we don't know they may be sorrowful
I laugh when they laugh
I cry when they cry

They're the first kpop group to be on billboard music awards
"Teamwork makes the dream work"their leader says
"Love yourself, love myself"

I always wonder what they're doing
Always worry how they're doing
Seeing them makes my day complete
They are my inspiration and source of happiness

Some may say it's easy to be a fangirl.
But it's also hard for us because it hurts that they don't know each one of us.

They just can't be seen on devices, cameras and frames
Some can be touched
Some are on devices that you can only see

Looking at them reminds you a thousands  of memories,
And you recall them once a again
Photos is like a diary in our life
We see ourselves grow in it

Photos are'nt just in frames, devices and cameras
They are also in your brain and heart which is called a memory.

We were so close
But different path is what you chose
We told each other secrets
And those secrets are sacred

I trusted you
I didn't know you would do such thing
You started to avoid me
Without any reason you left
Just like that

You told me the reason
But isn't it too cheap?
We were strangers at first
Then we became bestfriends
And now we're back from being strangers.

I miss those days that we laugh together
But now I'm watching you laugh with each other
Those days that you greet me
These days you only look at me
Is that what friendship means to you?

I thought we are going to be friends forever
Well, it's just a thought after all
We used to talk endlessly
Now, our talks have come to an end

It's like we never knew each other
It causes me pain
I used to talk to you about my problems
But now it seems like you're the problem

I miss those old days that we spent happily
Those old days that we cry
I did'nt know that when you've been hit by your puberty it will also change your attitude

I miss those days that we talk about someone
And now you're that someone that I talk about
I miss those old days when you did'nt change.

It's the most hated subject,
I know you would'nt object
Some may say it's hard,
Others say it's boring

They say it's only for engineering,
Never in nursing
Full with numbers,
Now with letters

When I look at the equations it makes me confused
Makes me wanna play 2fuse
But Math also teaches us that every problem has a solution.

Blue is the sky
But blue is also lonely
Red is the rose
Red is happiness
White is clean
White is for hope

We have different colors
That makes up ourselves
True colors show up
To show what we really are

Everything is colorful
So as your life,
Make a smile
And enjoy colors in life.

It will be a lie if I'll tell you that everything is alright
We go through ups and downs,
Because that's what life is
We are living in a good life,
We are living in a bad life

Look up in the clouds
And think out loud,
"I'll get through this"
This dark days are just temporary
Better days are coming.

I keep on hallucinating
Why can't I just move on?
It's starting to become terrifying
That I'm still thinking of you

Take your heart back to me
I can't stop loving you even if I'm hurt
Don't leave me
Blood and tears filled up my heart

Without you I'm nothing
I'll obviously sacrifice myself for you
In this world full of mayhem

It may just be a light at night
It's a beautiful sight
Some may say it's scary
But it makes me dreamy
So it's just not a light for me
It has a deeper meaning to me

I think of you when I look at it
Hoping we'll hold hands while staring at it
We used to walk with the moonlight shining at us
But I remembered there's no us

I like you but you don't
You mean the world to me
While I'm just a friend to you
That's when I thought...
Does the moon get hurt?
Knowing it's always around the earth
Surrounding it
But the earth itself?
Never even noticed the moon

Rose petals

Its a symbol of love they say
He gave me those but why can't he stay?
I watched those petals fall
Still waiting for you to call

Even if I'll wait for years
Even if it'll flood because of my tears
After all those years, it's still you
It's still you that I love

I held those petals in my hand
Still trying to understand
As I heard the news
Why did'nt you give me clues?
That you'll be gone forever
I'll follow you in the skies of blue whenever

There's this girl
Who is deeply hurt
Not physically
But emotionally

She's scared of going home
She feels like she does'nt deserve to live
Her mother gets mad at her
It feels like she's turning into a monster
Her face becomes red and her eyes widened when she gets mad

I feel pity for her
She knows her mother loves her
But sometimes she doesnt feel it
She knows her mother sacrificed a lot
But her mother doesnt know she does too

She feels she's a burden

She's sorry that her mother  can't do things she  want because of her
She's sorry because she can't enjoy because of her
that she stopped working because of her
that she spent most of her money because of her
She's sorry that she was born in this world
She's sorry that she existed.

As I passed by our room
I saw her
I looked at her
I stared at her
At the mirror