where is my mind, Ive looked everwhere
have you stolen it? you and your back pack of chains
your emotional attachment
you stole my heart already, am i not allowed my head?
plastic wrap my skull into place god dam you give me my soul
every time you leave me you take it with you I swear!
or is it under my bed...did it roll under there when i wasnt looking,
when I was too busy gawking slack jawed at the creature standing above me with soft skin and short hair
hips like a mother but a smile that says otherwise
where is my mind .
please give it back to me,
if you dont have it you must know where its gone..
you stole my heart, it beats next to yours,
this i know...because when i dream, the cavity in my chest thuds along side yours
This i know...
but you still wont say where you put my mind
my soul
your cheeky grin reverberates through shattered ear drums pierced with the sounds your throat makes when your happy
or the tension of your body when you sneese you know..
I can see it,
you ****** your hand into my chest cavity, through my diaphragm and gripped my heart in both hands
you screamed  with ecstasy!
finders keepers
and so I bowed
I fell over and glee, finally i can relax, now that your tiny fingers work the separate chambers of my heart my muscles aren't so sore...my blood isn't so cold..
oh..
my mind,
I found it,
I never lost it,
I just lost you..


*L.G

something about those little pills
the yeild
the thrill
they fill
they ****
a million brain cells

If i fell of the edge of love
Id find myself crawling to you

Just to carry you to. where  you had to be

Free of charge, i wouldn't  be mad

Id be glad

Because one hundred thousand  miles of broken glass

Is better then how  my chest  feels without  you

without sleep

I am without sleep

but today

no more

Its strange. That in a place where I can have my anominity
I choose to show face

I am a man
I am strong
I am happy

I am a man, genetic and pure,
but the standards i have been given drive me through the floor

With my job i am strong, but it tires me, i'm warn thin
as your old biker jacket

my poisons make me happy, your like ink in my blood
killing me with sickness

I am falling
I am tired
I am sick


As i fall, trusting my faith to catch me
gravity becomes a fact so real. so defined, that i am calm,
as the concrete hurtles towards me

I'm so tired, my eyes drag closed on State highway one,
going 125 through a steel barrier

I'm so sick, my veins have changed color, my skin is pale
and its all your fault

I am dead
I am dead
I am dead


God i wish i was dead
*L.G

If I shall grow old.
And my clothes hang like ghosts
Just know that once apon a time
I could fit inside my skin

I am in pain
I ache
I bleed
Dry
Tired

Weak

You are a failure,

Your world  lives in a mirage

How much did you think it would help

Guilt and disgust for yourself

Leave it be, or dig  deeper,

Your ambition has blindly lead you to a cliff

Hear i am to open my eyes and jump

weve found a niche!
humanity evolve no further,
now
walk in circles like cave men



-the word of "god"

Help, please sir i cant breathe,
My lungs.  They've  left me by force,
A theif!

Wounded stumblings
Ive been assaulted,  become disoriented  and abandoned
Left in a maze  and i dont know  the rules, sometimes i turn left, sometimes i say  yes
I could have sworn i was following  a golden path, but here i stand crippled and dazed

Why did this happen

I followed  all the rules.

I went to every training  session

So lost and afraid

So confused

The power of a man is measured in his mercy

Dont go
Im used to running away,
from my problems and pains
when I just wanted to stay..
Id crawl into your arms right now
across the mile of broken glass between our bedrooms
If you took the effort to say
*stay

Vidi Vici  Veni
*L.G

Its scary.
I see it all again,
They way she used to treat me,
Way back when.
I know you say i should trust you.
I know i should too
But by now im sure  you know the only thing i have left
Is you.
So forgive my caution
But i have burnt my life away
On a prayer that  might wake up one morning
And realize it can just turn away
I never trusted the beast with no horns
But for trying to protect you.
I am rewarded with a side of thorns
I only mean the best
As i only ever have.
Because Fortune has struck me down before,i woke with you in my bed
Im worried it will strike me down once more..
And youll only remain in my head

Please
           don't
                   go
for
     I
       Love
                 you
                        So
My
      Mind
               is  
                  failing
but
      my
           heart
                    is
                        falling
for you
                                      *LG

Pieces,
are what you take
Pieces,
are what i am
Pieces,
are all that's left

*L.G

All to ash around me,
Food to ash on my tongue,
For all I have failed abound me,
As I sit here with my gun

All to ash around me,
Food to ash on my tongue,
For all I have failed abound me,
As I sit here with my gun

I love you
Im so  alone
I didnt pay attention  to myself
and now i feel as though im in trouble

At least you wont be there to trouble
Im stepping outside my plastic bubble
Gasp
No air
Anxieties beware.
Even though i tried explaining,
No one can stop  blaming
My disorder  
On me

I don't know about you
but   I can feel it.
through my veins
my arteries, my brain, I can feel it
I can feel you

*L.G