It's been over a month,
And still that night replays over in my head.
The looks those people gave me,
When they seen my scars.
How they treated me and looked at me,
Like I wasn't human..

I wasn't sure what was going to happen,
Everything was a blur..
It all happened in an instant,
And I didn't know how to handle it.

I was taken away from my family,
And hospitalized for 8 straight days..
I was miles away from home,
And there was no possible way out..

But when I was in that place,
I learned something about myself,
I learned the true value of life..
And that it is full of misery and pain,
But without misery and pain,
There would be no such thing as happiness.

We all face a war with ourselves,
In my case, I had a war with depression..
And it went so far,
I landed myself in the hospital..
But it showed me,
I wasn't alone in this world,
Fighting a battle with depression.

But I'm proud to say,
After it all..
I won the battle,
And it's finally over.
At least, I hope it is...

Somethings you never asked for,
Somethings you never deserved..
But you get up again,
And move on from them.
And you take them as a lesson learned.

Losing you has shown me,
That I can get through anything.
You meant the world to me,
You were my world.
And now I've overcome the loss of you.
Even though it still really hurts.

I miss you everyday,
But I know this is for the best.
I'll love you till the end,
But I'll lay our memories to rest.

So I'll say goodbye,
For the final and last time.
And hope you never forget,
What we once shared and had.

But I'll hold you in my heart, for the days to come.
And hold onto to the love we never had.
Hoping someday, we can reopen those doors,
And be brought back into each others lives again.

I know those days are long gone,
And it's only a memory that we'll soon forget, on our journey through life.
But do you ever wish you could go back,
And relive the beauty of the past?
Those days, when you were so happy..
And just make that moment last.

I wish I could go back to that day,
When you and I first met..
Oh, that day was so perfect.
You made me happy,
It was a kind of happiness I had never felt before.

Now a year, and 3 months later..
I'm falling apart..
I'm breaking piece by piece..
Trying to hold on to all of our memories.

I remember on my 16th birthday,
You called me..
You were so nervous to sing me happy birthday,
So I sang it with you..
And that was the most amazing birthday I had,
All because of you.

I remember that night,
When we fell asleep on the phone together.
Before you fell asleep,
You told me "Goodnight, I love you."
And I said "I love you too"..
I didn't fall asleep..
I just stayed there listening to the sound of you breathe.

Oh, how I would give anything to get those days back.
But I will cling onto those memories,
Those memories I'll never have again.
God I miss you so much..

It was 4 in the morning,
On that rainy October day.
And you came to me.
Told me you had overdosed on ******,
And I didn't know what to feel..
Or what to say..
All the pain I've ever known,
Rushed in at that very moment.
It all seemed unreal.

As you claimed you were dying,
I sat there crying..
Nothing in the world, ever made me feel so much pain.
Then watching the one I love,
Slowly take away their life..
Gasping for air,
You told me this was it..

The next morning, I woke up to the sound of the rain.
Trying to put the pieces back together again,
But without you I am not whole..
There is a hole inside of me,
The hole that once took the place of you..

I can't believe it, no this is not true.
You are not gone, you're still here..
Please, I don't want to lose you..
It's all I ever feared.

I will wait for you,
Like I always have.
Because you're the only one I've ever loved,
And you're all I ever had.
Please come back..
I need you..
I love you..
I miss you..