Acidic Moon

Acidic Moon 3m

Mom

I crave the affection of a mother that no longer exists, the mom that gave me baths, the mom that tickled my feet and cracked my toes, the mom that sang itsy bitsy spider to make me laugh, the mom who held my hand to cross the road, the mom whose arms felt like home. But you're not her anymore. You're the mom who protected an abuser, the mom who threw away her family for gambling, the mom that told me I should've killed myself, the mom I spent years trying to connect with, the mom who never opened her arms and heart to let me in, the mom that never showed love but showed hatred. I miss you, but the you I miss isn't here anymore. She died a long time ago.

#mom #sad #hate #gone

Acidic Moon Apr 2021

...

The truth is
I'll never feel good enough

#sad #empty #numb

Acidic Moon Apr 2021

Burning Candle

I
feel like
a candle
burning
Burning away
pieces of me
I try to remember
what I was like
Before I was set afire
But I can't remember
I just burn
And burn
Till finally there's nothing left of me
Just an empty glass of who I use to be

#sad #life #empty

Apr 2021

julianna

a note

I didn’t see it ever stopping
I wanted to be free
When will nothing hurt anymore?
I grew tired of guessing and failing
This is why I did it
I was tired and burnt out
Even my gut reminded me with a stabbing pain,
Reminded me of everything I would never and could never be
So with this note
I set myself free.

Don’t try to follow,
You’ll learn to live without me.

P.S. Your love was always enough. I had always spiraled so quickly, it was just too hard to catch myself this time.

Don’t worry about be, I’ll be fine I’ll be fine I’ll be fine

Mar 2021

shianne rose

two types

there are two types of sadness

there’s the kind of sadness
we ignore and
try to get rid of it
by finding new things to do
or we find someone to talk to
by blatantly avoiding any type of conversation
about feeling sad
about having any feelings at all
and then there’s that kind of sadness
that takes over
and it consumes any activity we do
we know it’s there
and there’s no possible way to avoid it
so we feed it exactly what it wants
it craves the sad music
it craves the isolation
it craves the anxiousness
and the sadness comes storming in
it has no manners
here we are calling sadness, an “it”
when all it is
is a feeling
that most people
call home

Mar 2021

Ten Mercado

Never once a forest

in 5 years
i could’ve grown
a forest
if i planted
a tree
every time you lied
to me,

but i never
knew you were
lying
until it was
too late
to even
tend soil.

#forest #heartbreak #love #lies

Acidic Moon Mar 2021

...

I
want
him
but
he's
not
mine

#sad #love #broken