I was a captor of your heart
We started off whole
Unaware of the ending
Didn’t know I’d take your soul
But soon you felt it
The zip ties on your wrists
Blindly I tightened them
Gently I kissed
It got too much
Arms turning blue
You cut yourself loose
Zip ties askew
I was left alone
With nothing to clench
A captor with no captive
Love with a stench

ever since you put out of the fire
the energy that burned between our lips
i’ve been cold shaking waiting
from your sizzling embers i take small sips
but you look not of winter nor frostbite
while i barely preserve myself in foil
so i take the gasoline canister
try to drench you in my slick oil
hand you the matches eyes begging
please relight our spark
if you don’t i’m scared i’ll lose you
forever in this dark

you used to look at me
eyes sparkling like diamonds
i took those blue stones
hoped no one would find them
but i saw you look at her
with the jewels you gifted me
now i clutch them in my pockets
mourning the worth that used to be

I only drown us more
When I reach for your light
Pull each other down deeper
Into the eternal night

When the cut starts to heal
Erasing harm that has been
I worry you’ll forget
Your the one who slit the skin

So I pick at the scab
Fingers wet with blood and blame
Then its not really i
Causing me pain

My hue molds to yours
Blend blend blend
To the backdrop I will match
Colors I merely lend

I grab your fingers
Dig them into my scab
Covered in blood
Make them stab stab stab
Because then it is you
And not me who is liable
Your fingers are stained
My healing now viable