Abby - Hello Poetry

Abby May 8

I start to get reckless
With my thoughts
Among other things

I dance in the kitchen
Alone
Hair in my mouth and eyes
Hands on my body
Breath in the air
Joints bending
Muscles frolicking
Soul in the music
Feelin free
Gettin reckless

Abby May 5

stained glass of sorrow

it seems
everything whole
and pure
my brain shatters
and taints

Abby May 2

I WAS SO CLOSE

i felt it
i felt it
i was so close to peace
walking in the grass
talking to the geese
i loose it
i loose it
now thoughts come back running
rush from the sky
they impede with a humming
shove my fingers in my ears
make it stop
make it stop
i don't want to die
i don't want to rot
emotions all over
overflowing and suppressed
i envy the simple
hate the brain that’s obsessed

~
progress lost and i am the only one to blame
(obsessive thoughts **** and
cause me such pain)

Abby May 2

a thank you poem

you have saved me countless times
many without asking
in the garden of my mind we roam
i feel free of masking
i get caught up in the seeds
become a vicious plotter
you point out the fake flowers
ones i should not water
i am not perfect
but neither are you
my wings were clipped
but together we flew

(a poem for my best friend)

Abby May 2

the inescapable trap

it feels like a trap
(my brain)
it gives me the wrong answers
(keeps me suffering in vain)

Abby May 1

grief

but through all my rituals
to bring you back
you stay plastered into
old pictures
texts and
voice messages
always there
but gone forever

you will always exist in my mind

~ old poem i found in my notes app

#grief

Abby Apr 30

i want 2 throw up

-

i want to gag my brain

watch the waterfall of vile

knuckles scraping the throat

teeth coated in bile

sorry if that was too graphic

the image comes to me with ease

I frequently think about purging

this sickening brain disease

#mentalillness