Held together by strands of passion and excess
I hang onto the strings of abuse and excuses
Torn apart at every cross stitch and double seam
Woven into a nightmare by hands unseen
I cut the thread and slip into my silk dream

As I watch the smoke hang in the moist morning air
I search myself but can't find a reason to care
Everything that has been plaguing me to the point of depression
It has all faded away, gone into a temporary recession
I'm not sure if this feeling will last, hopefully my mind doesn't revert to the past
Enticing bliss filling my veins, flushing out all of the poisonous pains
This is the feeling I seek, I no longer feel weak
The captive voice is beginning to speak, voicing itself with words that aren't so meek
Soon this troubled son will be free, a shining symbol for all who are lost to see
This moment now is my chance to escape, I'm ready to retake my natural shape
The endless days of sadness will be put behind me, I've been set free from the chains that had once bound me
I never thought this day would come
I thought it would only be found at the end of a gun
I open the curtain to let in the light
Finally now I have won the fight

Maybe I need to fall apart
Maybe I deserve this broken heart
If you won't pick me up today
I'll put myself back together in a different way
Rip out the burnt up circuit board
Throw away the fears I love to hoard
If you can't save me from myself
I'll find my own way out of this hell
You're the strings that hold the stars in my sky
You're the gravity that stops planets from colliding
You keep me together
But you won't be forever
Someday soon I'll have to learn
Just to be and not to swoon
Abusive and confusing
I know the joy of losing
Too many times I've played the part
Always trying to fill this bleeding heart
Perfection is the devil's friend
Perfection will lead straight to the end
If you don't want to cry for me
I'll throw this heart into the sea
Let it float away and away
Because you won't be there to fix me today
I'm not sure if I'm still alive
I tried to teach myself how to fly
But I always needed your helping hand
To pull me down and help me land
I always fly a little too high
I let the little things pass me by
If you won't be there when I fall
I tell you now I'm done with it all
I could never just keep to myself
I always cried for someone's help
Maybe I need to fly on my own
Maybe I need to be alone