i remember my friend laughing,
even in the worst situations,
which would usually cause the teachers,
to yell.
i think she did this,
to cover up her other emotions,
to drown them,
keep them silenced beneath a pillow.
she was loud and "obnoxious",
and she very much annoyed,
other students when,
they tried to work.
she sat next to me in math,
complained to me about everything,
i never thought to really listen,
but maybe i could've helped.
one day here,
the next day a cruel joke played on the class,
"the highschool councilor is here if anyone needs to talk",
"she took her life last night".
how'd she do it?,
"she hung herself in her closet",
this is a terrible sick joke,
"we're so sorry to have to tell you".
could i have helped?,
"this is none of your fault, kids",
but what if i had tried?,
"she was far beyond anyone's help".
she was only twelve,
"her thirteenth birthday would've been next month".
and for the first time in my life,
i prayed to a higher being for her safe travels into,
another kingdom.