I blow you out of my way,
From those crevices in my messy mind,
but you are still easily found,
Like a light in the midst of the dark.
Despite the cluttered mess, you are still
Clearly there. An easy open path to take
Just to find you again in this space.
So if I see a picture of you again,
please don't mind if I like you more than just a friend?

Is it so hard,
To just let go of you?

It is hard to look into your face
When thoughts of...
I am a good person. Right now,
I cannot hate.
But looking into those eyes,
I just get reminded of
Fires that burned bright
With friendship, now has become
A flame of loathing,
Which I do not harbour,
but which you do keep in your heart,
against me.
I am starting to wish I had stabbed you
but with a weak heart of mine,
I probably would have saved you
From a shot gun, and kissed your wound.
I do not know how to fully hate,
this is my nature, I am peaceful,
but I do not want to start this
Destructive cycle of pain.
Let me live longer, enough to care for all and love,
Enough to keep being strong,
so that if you ever make me hate you,
I still wouldn't and I would still
Have loving kindness
For all despite my deepest wound.

They blundered such words
And pushed me to the edge.

I was going to fall,
into something deep and disastrous.

till I was saved by a little faith.
Thank you.

It has kept me alive and
Living with a sense.

A purpose to fulfill
To never let you down again.

Jovial laughter and those creases, sharing lines with the wrinkles
On your soft, sweet face,
of leather-like, but creamy skin,
The edges of your mouth go up
And they form benevolent crinkles
I always picture you having.
When you chuckle or give a laugh
And make me smile at the same time too.
Glinting spectacles
and a big ***** to hug me tight
Safe from harm, hidden from sight.
You smell fresh and you smell like you. The scent
I will always remember
Even when you're not here.
Your arms go round lovingly behind my back and tucks me
Like I'm a little child, like I always am in your kind eyes.
You love me so much and I can only return
So much but it's not enough
Because I'd like to give you more than the universe itself,
to wish you a happy, peaceful slumber,
when you march towards a better karmic reincarnation,
when I finally have to let go of you,
I dread the day I kiss you last
And tell you how much,
even though I say it all the time,
I really do,
I really do,
I really do,
love you from the bottom of my heart.

Dull and bland
But it leads me
Thinking,
Something New.

I'd die for you
If only I wasn't so selfish.