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144 · Jan 16
'Friends'
Vesper Jan 16
I thought I had lots of friends
But they were friends
Just not real ones

I tried to confide in one that I really trusted
Just water off a ducks back
I almost cried at another
'Dude. Stop crying.'

Back then I wished
To have more friends
I guess I wish they were real
139 · Dec 2024
Karate
Vesper Dec 2024
So scared all my life

Anger turned into an art

Don't have to fly kick

To fly again
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137 · Nov 2024
she
Vesper Nov 2024
she
she likes me too!!
she likes me too!
she likes me too
she likes me too...
GUYS HELLP THERES A GIRL I REALLY LIKE AND SHE LIKES ME BACK AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO ASK HER OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT AHHHHHHHHHHHHH also brooklyn if you are reading this its a different girl (;
135 · Jan 21
Believe in something
Vesper Jan 21
I have always wondered where we all came from.
Where we all were, before the big bang.
Such a slim chance, that we're all here today.
So here I think
I don't believe in god-
No-
I believe in something
131 · Jan 18
Wishing
Vesper Jan 18
Wishing the voices would stop
Wishing the matrix to stop calling
Wishing to die-
But then come back
And do it all again
131 · Jan 6
More & More
Vesper Jan 6
You give me so much
You make me happy
But I get mad
So often
So ******* often
It feels cold
When you cry
Because all i want is More & More
Again & Again
Will I ever be happy with what I have?
131 · Nov 2024
lazy ladies
Vesper Nov 2024
oh them lazy ladies
walkin down the the lane
fill me up with *****
to just drink down the pain
I ******* LOVE POETRY
130 · Nov 2024
elixir
Vesper Nov 2024
elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again
if you know you know
130 · Dec 2024
drip
Vesper Dec 2024
drip
drip
the iv tube drips life into his veins
it's the only thing keeping him alive
'alive'
he's alseep
but he'll wake up, right?
i'm sure he'll be ok

drip
drip
the blood drips down the short blade
trying to take his own life
'life'
he'll get over it
he'll be ok, right?
i'm sure he'll be ok

drip
drip
the teachers vicious smile
kills him from the inside
he hates himself
and the teacher too
die
drip
drip
129 · Nov 2024
back again
Vesper Nov 2024
back again
so soon
you ran away
you came back
did he not give you the gifts?
did he not give you the love?
but still
my arms are open
come inside
again
127 · Nov 2024
coins
Vesper Nov 2024
shiny money
shiny brain
you get some
you lose some
its all just coins

money
is a funny thing
because when you have it
you love it
and then it's just a figment of your brain
its all just coins

but when you dont have it
you yearn for it
you want it
you need it
its all just coins

so i sit
with no money
i dont need any money- coins
but i cry
and cry
because i have no coins at all
127 · Nov 2024
drink up
Vesper Nov 2024
pull out a chair
sit down my friend
pour a pint of whiskey
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away

how about a game?
just a couple dollars
pour a shot of *****
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away

home? why home?
stay here with us
we are your real friends
pour a glass of wine
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away

no more? how about one
just one more glass
just one more shot
just one more pint
just pour a flute of champagne
now drink up my friend!
drink all your sorrows away
126 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan 1921
Vesper Dec 2024
the british
conquered
took it all
but then were beaten
and no rule at all

they became independent
as all people should
but they had fallen
behind the rest

and so the leader
of them all
declared his plan
for a reform
of the country
the beautiful country

afghanistan
school project!!
126 · Jan 10
583
Vesper Jan 10
583
i spent so long
trying to find a way
but it only took me day
to find out that way was gone
124 · Jun 4
confused
Vesper Jun 4
you've crossed the threshold
put your feelings into the world
because you are so brave
braver than i'll ever be
and i'm not ready to show them
but i'm ready to show you?
123 · Nov 2024
777
Vesper Nov 2024
777
just a dollar
and you can play
deposit a coin
and be on your way
gamble your life away
122 · Jan 16
712
Vesper Jan 16
712
What if you died instead
What if you cried instead
What if I was the one who lied
What if my wounds dried
What if you didn't have black eyes
I wish I hadn't said so many 'whys'
Now it's your turn to say the final 'goodbye'
121 · May 30
Truly Dead
Vesper May 30
No one knows what it really means to die.
What does it mean to be truly dead?
Does it mean that your heart stops beating?
Or is it when you are forgotten?
Or is it when the person inside of you is broken?
And you never cry again?
It's a shame
That everybody will forget my name
Move along with their lives
God, I'm so childish
To think I ever meant something to anybody
121 · Jan 18
Snake-Like
Vesper Jan 18
You've got fangs
That sink into the skins of men
Poisoning them and thinking they really are someone
You've got scales
Slimy and Rigid
Ugly and Disgusting
You've got yellow eyes
Piercing gaze
Striking fear into the hearts of men
You're snake-like
You belong in a cage
To be laughed at
To be made faces at
YOU ARE A SNAKE
119 · Jan 6
Slurs
Vesper Jan 6
The slurs flow like water
Whenever I try to get you help
They feel like fire
But you don't care
We're still friends
Again & Again
More words
More pain
But if I walk away will you still be ok?
118 · Feb 2
Untitled
Vesper Feb 2
the tears fallen create pools and lakes
shimmering blue in the new day sun
dripping from my face like rain droplets
flowing from clouds of fluff
no, i dont think this life is for me
118 · Jan 18
472
Vesper Jan 18
472
There are times in stories
Where you think the story aught to end
But it don't
Sometimes I can relate that to poetry
Where the poem should end
Sound better that way
But I don't
Stop
Writing
118 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan 1988
Vesper Dec 2024
osama bin laden
it is the beginning
of the end
al-Qaida  
they killed
the men
the women
the children
and we watched
and let them be

they claimed victory
against the soviets
it was their first win
but sadly
it wasn't their last

so they fought
and fought
and killed
and islam ruled again
but in a different way

afghanistan
118 · Jun 20
dream/nightmare
Vesper Jun 20
its like a dream
when i cut
like a nightmare
when i leave my room
and face my parents
wondering
if they know my secrets yet
117 · Jan 6
IM BACCCKCKCKC
Vesper Jan 6
I couldnt wait more that like two weeks to write poetry again sooooooooooo
Here i am

(:
117 · Nov 2024
word search
Vesper Nov 2024
speak to me
like you speak to her
ill search for the perfect word
perfect response
and here!
it is...
but where did you go?
looking in the morning snow
you ran off
just like the others
ready or not
here i come
or maybe
a different word
to make you happy
116 · Nov 2024
acid
Vesper Nov 2024
dont drop the vial
just drop the vile
114 · Jan 16
Ups and Downs
Vesper Jan 16
Sometimes
We feel like falling down
Feel like screaming
Like crying
Like giving up

What's the point of life?
If it was all ups?
And no downs?

I bet it would be boring
I bet it would be sad
If there is no challenges in life
How are you supposed to grow?

That's the truth
We wouldn't grow
Become spoiled
Wanting more
What a sad life it would be
Without the Ups and Downs
113 · Jun 14
blade
Vesper Jun 14
Children sleeping peacefully
While I sit awake
Shivering
Blood covered blade
Clutched
White knuckled
In my palm
It doesn't hurt
Anymore
So I cut deeper
Permanent scars
I hate myself
I love the pain
113 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan 1926
Vesper Dec 2024
he betrayed them
and declared himself king
king of the nation
king of them all
all they hoped
is to not fall

he tried to take
and make the country modern
but nobody agreed
he tried to limit the power
of the national council
but nobody agreed

and they took up arms
so they could fight back
but then he fled
a coward

afghanistan
school project!!
111 · Nov 2024
food & weight
Vesper Nov 2024
in the silence, shadows loom, i grapple with my private doom. food, my solace, my despair, calls to me from everywhere.

each morsel, a fleeting balm, in the chaos, a moment's calm. yet beneath the comfort, a plea, a desire to finally be free.

mirror, mirror, reflecting pain, a story written, etched in shame. i seek release, a lighter frame, but all i find is more of the same.

craving’s hold, so tight, so deep, in the lonely hours, i weep. to resist, to rise above, to find strength where there’s none.

each bite a secret, buried low, a struggle only i know. wishing for control, for peace, for this torment to finally cease.

for in this cycle, i find my plight, day turns to night, and night to day. yet somewhere, hope feels far away, a distant dream, fading gray.
107 · Dec 2024
Afghanistan 9/11
Vesper Dec 2024
four hijackers
four planes
four men
four craves for violence
to **** us all
all they wanted from us
was death
and violence

two twins
two twin towers
two twin brothers
two twin planes
horrible
horrible day

one man
one fight
one takeover
one crash
he was a hero
he saved them all
but he died
same as the rest

afghanistan
this is a tribute to 9/11. i salute all the people that died that day, and i am sorry to the families who lost. (my uncle was lost during the 9/11 attacks on the twin towers)
104 · Jan 20
Untitled
Vesper Jan 20
Who are we?
We are children of god!
He created us all!
The people with religions have answers
So why don't I?

Who are we?
We are the spirits of the earth!
Treat the world like you would treat your wife!
The environmentalists have answers
So why don't I?

Mabye
We're just
People?
103 · Dec 2024
Rainfall
Vesper Dec 2024
At times
It feels like the world is ending.
But when the rain falls
You love more than before.

Rainfall out the window
Pit-Pat Pit-Pat
Wind rustling through the trees.
I feel a breath on my neck
Your love
Because you love more than before

Rainfall.
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101 · Nov 2024
butterfly
Vesper Nov 2024
fly away
fly away with me
don't need the crazy men
i can just me be
with those wings
those butterfly wings
oooh butterfly
101 · Dec 2024
Negative
Vesper Dec 2024
My father tells me to be less negative.

'Just think about the positives,'
He says

But Dad,
How can I focus on the positives,

If there is none?

Negative.
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101 · Nov 2024
crazy men II
Vesper Nov 2024
the crazy men
they came again
but this night
it was different
the crazy men
they came again
but tonight
i wasn't free
my dreamsss
100 · Nov 2024
escape
Vesper Nov 2024
take a spoon
take a knife
the guard can not be looking
lights go out
start to scrape
and out the hole you go

the alarms start to ring
lockdown
it sings
but into the boat you go
and out the prison you go
100 · Nov 2024
knife
Vesper Nov 2024
there is knife
on the table
next to me
i'm home alone

988 wont help
neither will my parents
or my friends
or even my dog
they cant help

i'm crying
i need help
but i cant reach for my phone
or the knife
is this good?
or bad

to all my friends
who would never miss me
*******
but to you
my friend
i hope that you
can live a happy life
without me
without knives

so take this poem
as a gift
to keep going
to keep going strong
cause even if i am gone
you arent

the knife is in my hand
glancing at my wrist
i cant do it
but i have too
so goodbye
cruel world
i must go

but whats this?
a light?
i am still in fear
the knife trembling
blood- no
tears
dripping off the blade

and i collapse
and die inside
because nobody cares
but i cant force myself to leave
just like those toxic friends
relationships
people
thats just what life is

but you have to keep going
going and going and going
until you find a true purpose
because harming
or killing
yourself
just stops you from recognizing the problem
just avoiding it

so to anyone who wants-
who needs
to hurt, or **** themselves
just face the problem head on
even if you cant do it
even if you have tried before
it's still worth it
this has been in my drafts for a little over 2 weeks now when my last depression scare happened. i hope this poem feels for anyone who is going through depression or suicidal thoughts. <3<3<3
100 · Dec 2024
sickening
Vesper Dec 2024
so fat
so ugly
he'll never get a girlfriend
you're the size of europe!
i hate you
nobody is ever going to love you
nerd
obviously a 1/10
he buys mcdonalds every day!
god you're sickening
you're all so ******* sickening

why are you all so mean
what the **** did i do
and you get mad?
and tell?
and tattle?
when i spread a little truth about you?
well hey mello
just because you're a small little crying boy
dosent mean i am
so get the **** over it
"he said a mean word!!"
*******

well that was mean
but i dont feel bad
because god you're sickening
you're all so ******* sickening
angy poem
100 · Dec 2024
Suicide
Vesper Dec 2024
Growing up, I wondered why anyone would commit suicide. Why would you want to leave this earth? Why would you give up your beautiful life?
When I got a little over, I got scared of death. That made me appreciate life even more. Why would you want to **** yourself?
But getting a little older, I understand. I understand the reasons, I know why you need a break. But life is better than that.
Even if you feel the void of life
******* you in, calling you
And all you want to do is give up
Fall down into a ravine
Cut yourself into a river of blood
Cry until the ocean rises
Die
Everything is better
than Suicide.
<3
99 · Jan 18
Nothing
Vesper Jan 18
Please let me go
I want to see my family
My friends
My people
But I know as soon as I leave
I'll go back to my room
And cry again

Why can't I ******* do this
I know I can
I know I can
But I never do it

My father tells me
That the answer is to
"Just do it"
But I want an easier way
I don't understand
Why they never
Understand

Maybe I'm the problem
The one who doesn't understand
The one who never cared
About other peoples feelings
I've been called a sociopath
A *******
But I don't think I am
Am I?

I don't want to be nothing
I don't want to leave
Maybe it's better
If the masochistic sociopathic depressed sad angry nobody leaves.
99 · Jan 25
Untitled
Vesper Jan 25
I don't know the path to take
I don't know the people to trust
For they all seem amazing
But under all that ****
They're all just Ghosts

They leave me when I most need it
I should have seen right through them
I don't know how I didn't see
The Ghosts

Even when I t'was younger
I never could have been more fonder
Of the Ghosts

Growing up I should have seen
The Ghosts
singing poems ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
99 · Dec 2024
One Last Dance
Vesper Dec 2024
Dance for the children and dance for the men, dance for the ones who gave their life to save us.
Dance for all the children in pain, with nobody to help them, alone and scared.
Dance for all the people, on the streets, nobody to help them, alone and *****.
Keep dancing, never stop. Never stop.
<3
97 · Jun 12
parents
Vesper Jun 12
taking too much
eating too little
cutting too deep
being too shallow

i don't think
my parents will accept me
if they found out who i really am
cold blooded
heart-scarred
and frozen over
96 · Apr 15
euphoria
Vesper Apr 15
cutting
      scratching
                     deeper

euphoria
takes my body by surprise
i cant stop it
do i want to?

i have to
    before
          it
            takes
                  me
                       more
96 · Nov 2024
i'm not
Vesper Nov 2024
i'm not lazy
i play sports
i do things
i promise you
i'm not lazy

i'm not stupid
i have good grades
i study my subjects
i promise you
i'm not stupid

i'm not a freak
i don't know why
but i promise you
i'm not a freak

i'm not insane
i'm not insane
i promise you
i'm not insane
94 · Jun 4
lover
Vesper Jun 4
i'm scared
so scared
that by the time i answer
you wont like me back
it seems like love
happens in a flash
a blink of an eye
they say that i'll know the right time
is that now?
92 · Jun 7
<3
Vesper Jun 7
<3
I wish I asked you sooner
Because now I feel complete
90 · Jan 9
Shoot.
Vesper Jan 9
Cold metal pressed against sweat.
Tears wetting my damp clothes.
Pitter-patter of rain against the ground as children sleep.
I cry for help, but no-one answers.
Shoot. Why can't I shoot.
Pitter-patter. More rain.
Damp shirt. More tears.
Why can't I end it all?
Every single night I scream.
It's so much easier this way.
SHOOT. WHY CAN'T I SHOOT.
I hear children laughing, and mothers loving,
I hear men working through the night, ready to go back to their families.
SHOOT. WHY CAN'T I SHOOT.
I hear a crack, and it all goes black.
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