I've heard angels sing but when
you let your voice be heard
I swear it's like all of heaven's angels singing about letting a soul be reborn
Souls.
Two souls.
We met two years ago on a whim, and
we were unseperable
Momma said it was because we were
twins once before
I didn't believe it until I noticed everything we did was similar
Then I pushed you away, and the demon
came out again, and again until you ran
But I know one day we will be okay

I just have to forgive myself someday.

you showed me how to laugh through the pain
and what unconditional love is
your golden eyes shined through my soul every since day
and you must've received 100x more kisses than the days since we rescued you
but heaven got the angel they were begging for since the second your soul was given to a beautiful puppy today
and I hope they treat her well

I lied to my mother about talking to you because last time I told her we talked, she cried.
2. My biggest fear is that no matter what I do, I won't ever get over you.
3. Everywhere I go, I find you. I suppose it's because I carry you in my heart.
4. I didn't believe in soul mates until I met you. You didn't complete me, you complemented me.
5. Sometimes I can't sleep because I'm thinking of you. Other nights I don't want to sleep because I know I'll dream of you.
6. You make my hands shake and my stomach hurt. I don't think love is suppose to feel this way.
7. I miss you even when you're not away. I hate it but it's always been that way.
8. Sometimes I think we were meant to be. Everything was right except our timing.
9. It's been two years too late but I still look for your face in a crowded room.
10. You felt like home but if there's anything I've learned recently, it's that home is so very temporary.
11. I never knew craving touch was a thing until I saw your hands.
12. You are the whirlwind of thoughts I could never put into words.
13. I write about you like you put the stars in the sky.
14. I don't want to forget you but somedays I regret you.
15. I don't always like you but I always love you.

I’ve experienced a lifetime of abandonment.
Men walked into my life just as fast as they left.
Father figures blew kisses, locked with lies, masked as promises, telling me, ‘don’t worry, I’ll be back.’
So when you walk into my life, and I let myself, unwillingly, and painfully love you; love you like I know I shouldn’t.
I tense, and I reel, and I lock myself up inside so I don’t have to feel the foreboding sense of pain.
When you tell me you’ll be back. And everything I know, everything that I’ve ever known, tells me that you won’t.