Grey Pryor

Oct 2017

Irene Poole

You only seem to care when you're drunk or otherwise impaired
but maybe you're just scared of commitment.

These promises you make when we're barely awake always seem to fade by daybreak and I can't take this anymore.

If you play with my emotions always bringing me up and then down and I never know if you'll be found with some other girl,
then maybe I'm not the one you should run to when you want to have some fun at a party.

I am enough for you and if you can't understand then maybe you don't deserve to hold my hand and tell me that I'm beautiful.

These words I say to make you pay are not enough because words need actions but you never act
instead you live your life of lies never caring who you disguise yourself as or who you make cry.

You only seem to care when you're drunk or otherwise impaired
but maybe you're just scared of commitment.

#commitment #love #spokenword #promises #emotion #ex #game #sad

Oct 2017

Irene Poole

Waiting Game

Playing the waiting game
Each one dancing around the other
Uncertainty building like a storm cloud with each passing
Second
Minute
Moment
Is this real?
Was this whole thing a child's game
Cat and mouse?
Crickets sing their song to the moon
Cars pass
The empty parking lot bathes in street lamp glow
What happens now?

Waiting for someone to show up for a first-time meeting is a feeling that puts me on edge. So I thought I'd write about it.

#waiting #game #firstdate #moon #crickets #tension #uncertainty #catandmouse

Grey Pryor Oct 2017

Things i cant quite say

The things I feel for you are more than those 3 words deep
That's why its so scary
Because saying I love you
It doesn't quite get the point threw
Its more like...
I feel incomplete without you
That your huge hands are needed with mine
Intertwined
No space in our bodies
Legs by legs
And lips on lips
And i can't help but hope we don't see a "last kiss"
Because that's just it
If i see an end to it
That means there is a 'end to it'
That's the scary ****
I don't want an end to this
Like marriage doesn't seal this in
Only time will tell
But i hate being completely vulnerable... But I'm COMPLETELY vulnerable
So just kiss me so I shut up
And never truly think
Because ill be up at night
Just thinking of you
And I might over think

This is how i feel as of now. I **** at rhyming all the time. Oh well shoot me.

#love #kiss #end #firstlove #iloveyou #thinking #breathing #dreaming

Oct 2017

Crystal

Please.

I pick up yet another drink.
To drown another memory of you.
But as soon as I do , another one seems to swim right back up.
So here I am, 5 bottles down.

Trying to forget you will be the death of me. Trying to let go felt like the end of me.
Who am I without you?
What have you done to me?Please undo it. Let me live without you.
Or let me die with out you.
Help me let you go pretty boy.... help....

-I wish I didn't miss you this much.

Why wont he love me like he loves her

#sad #saveme #please #bye #her

Sep 2017

Nicole

Why I Don't Drink Alone

Did I ever tell you
Why I stopped drinking?
Why I am so terrified
To take a sip alone?
How that one time after class
My heart was broken
And I skipped the glass
And drank straight from the bottle?
How I crumbled into a ball
Under my favorite blanket
My mind screaming through the halls
Fighting off the demons trying to drown me?
Of course I always want to die
That's something I've learned to live with
But never before in my life
Had I known that I could give in.
Yet there I lay crying
Wasted with a racing mind
Begging to give in to dying
But instead I went to sleep.
So when my depression intensifies
And I run to my substances
I am so terrified
So alcohol is the last option.
Because it could be my last decision.

#suicide #death #dying #depression #fear #panic #drinking #alcohol #choices #substance

Grey Pryor Sep 2017

closing eyes

when i close my eyes
i still see yours
when i close my eyes
i think about holding you again
when i close my eyes
i pretend its okay again

when you close your eyes
do you think of me?
when you close your eyes
do you remember the love i gave?
when you close your eyes
do you still care?

I am trying so hard to be okay. This is about the greatest love of my life. my baby boy, my nephew.

Grey Pryor Sep 2017

dear untapped memories

you ripped out my heart
you tore me apart
you chewed me up and spit me out like your dip
and yet im still waiting
YEARS later after 7 different phone numbers
im waiting
you abused me
and i don't take that lightly
BUT I TRIED TO FORGIVE YOU
you just decided to start over
the past is the past
and frankly im the past
new kids and a new step mom
but im still waiting

this is to my lazy excuse for a father. this has became my coping skills.

#father #where #are #you #doyoumissme #fuckyou